I an I, wanna rule my destiny...
and not be led by the hand, PLEASE
I mean, here I am, seeing and ignoring people like Allison driving up and down and even making U-turns at the shop, and basically giving them a nonchalant finger, and then, there is me realising that I am not even THAT worried about race... unless the woman makes it a deal herself, and then, this morning the same woman whose dog used to always growl and bark at the beach when it saw me, and then run up to me threateningly, and I even kicked it... well, THAT Latino, or Portuguese, woman, who with her short shorts would always be in the company of this chunky-boy type person, drove past this morning when I was walking down from the Just Nuisance steps, having decided to descend from red-hill by those steps instead of the longer way.
now, I am probably just getting paranoid, because from where I stand, as me, myself, I am rather pissed off with these... observers... because they would be... wise to just leave me alone and not remind me of their existence, till I depart, because if I keep on thinking of them, then the chances of me getting really pissed off are rather ... big.
And I may just decide to really exact revenge on the worthless fools.
i mean, I do not have a long time to stay here, so why piss me off?
Staying out of my way would be, to me, a wise move, unless the people are calling me a piss-ant liar, an upstart, someone who is trying to get attention.
OR, if I am in a generous mood, maybe these ladies want me to choose them.
no chance of that!
I am THIS close to just killing them all off, and I am not sure if I will just walk away or do something that makes sure none of them ever see daylight again as I leave.
even if they select themselves, and 5 choose to be with me, I am rather angrier at them than at anyone else, so... I would advise them not to even bother, because I am not going to make anything easy for them.
So, maybe I am lost, but does it not make sense for women to leave me alone than for them to be in my face like this?
i mean, I am thinking of the Colombian neckties i had set aside, and the sons of the mothers that I had promised I would kill, and I am thinking of mothers that I mistakenly said I loved, because I assumed that I could actually CARE what happened to a person, and I am balancing all that against a very NATURAL desire to just throttle people, something I am VERY inclined towards, and trying to figure out just how to do it without tipping the fools off, and so, really, this is NOT the time to push my hand, because I am already more than a little pissed off.
And one thing is for certain, I am NOT leaving without exacting some form of punishment, but the form of it will be a ... surprise... because I am not that stupid that I would let the cat out of the bag before I have made my move on people who watch out for me like a hawk watches for prey from the sky!
