There is no ... easy... way to say this, at least not for people, anyway, but then, I am thinking about... me, and no more about what someone may or may not be thinking, because it is sometimes... painful... to wonder what goes on between a certain person's ears.
it is not as if the answer to that matters that much, because with me, people are more or less just a mere academic exercise, their decisions and their thoughts mean as much to me as a puff of wind, and it is only when it appears that God is involved that I even pay the least bit of attention.
Now, yesterday, I spent the whole 45 minutes at this very same place wondering just what someone else thought, and then, I got the conclusion as I walked out the library and this same Honda ballade that has been driving up and down and messing with my equilibrium drove past, just as I reached the main road, and in it were a bunch of half-assed males, maybe making a show of force or something.
of course i got scared, and now I am running away!
yeah, right!
what actually happened was that I concluded that I had wasted enough time, and that it was way past time to be ...active.
now, if these fools wanted a real fight, they should have waylaid me on my way home, when I am in an isolated spot, and THEY are not likely to go to the cops for help when I rip into them. neutral territory and all that, but they make the mistake of driving around in public, where they probably wait for me to explode so that i can be locked up... the bunch of cretins and dick less fools!
women all of them.
well, they all die ... shortly, anyway.
along with the women. fuck them, they have made their choices! they will live and die by them!
maybe they thought i was besotted with them, maybe they thought 'love' was the most important thing for me, since i had such a loveless childhood, and maybe they thought I was trying to compensate by being attached to as many women as possible?
fuck that, I would not even have bothered with them at all if it was not because, as I said, I thought god was involved.
right now i lay no bets on anyone as being conclusively... mine, but if god said it, then He should know, and I would take Him up on His word to ME, when I complained about him saddling me with a woman I could not stand and he refutted that by saying it was MY choice that led me to taking the woman and that HIS yoke, if he gave me one, would be easy and HIS burden would be light.
nothing easy and light about THESE five women.
So, they all accompany michelle to hell, sodding bitches, and I get the satisfaction of having an eyesore removed from my vision!
Anyway, yesterday, what happened helped propel me to my decision;- and I have decided I will be going away, today, and that there will be no more posts from me till after Khayelitsha has been destroyed, michelle and co. gone to hell, and obama and HIS co. also gone to hell, and the 'crocodile eaten the sun', meaning, of course, the darkness that will make Alaska warmer, while it makes south africa colder.
fuck, you knew it was happening, and it was only a matter of time, so, if you assumed that there would be no such thing, eat your hearts out.
now is the time for tears, and when I have the ten women that me and God agreed on with me, I will depart this land, but not before I decide whether to flood the whole of simonstown and... destroy the evidence!
I am going to sleep. In a cave, of all places, and when people have died and they want to get in touch with me and plead with me NOT to destroy other places in a similar manner, like the coloured areas and all other places, they should send a ship to offer a twenty one gun salute around Kalk bay harbour, as a sign of capitulation.
if khayelitsha is destroyed and no one listens to me, and prepares the lord nelson hotel in cape town for my exclusive use, then I will destroy Mitchel's plain, and then, after that, I go nationwide, and start with Soweto, and so on till either the whole nation has been reduced to gaping lava, or they give in.
I am talking a serious collision course, here, me against all of you, and we shall see just who wins the battle , and buckles under, shan't we?
Now, about my fellow... black people;- I do not think my cousin will last a single day with me in charge, and so, he dies at the same time that other people die, as well as sam, manners, and the brother and sister combo of wayne and desirea whitelane, and also, of course,prince mushonga.
the rest are either minor nuisances or they are too.. important to be dealt with so... summarily, yessss!
now, I am walking away.
