No "Tell A Vision" Can Blind We Up [4:14]... unlike YOU fools!

Now that you KNOW, fools in kalk bay, more or less from my very evident behaviour that what I SAID, that I do not care for jews or for someone that ignores MY words and thinks that the visions that I spoke of, that God gave ME, which you fools are using to blind yourselves to the truth like maybe you are actually meant to STOP me, I will NOW just point out a few salient facts, and pronounce MY judgement, and then, well, I am coming to kill people, whether, just as myself, by just tearing you all to pieces, or well, with God helping, which would ONLY be the case if, for example, I was to accept the ... woman... which, to me, at present, is a non-starter, since in that case I would NOT have to struggle to bring darkness, since of course, in that case everything would be flowing concisely, and I would not have any flaws in the whole thing to stop me from being completely in control.
However, at present, I am an indestructible person, who can stand his own against any competition, because i have nothing to lose:- I will enter into a fray to kill people, and will not run away, since I am tired of life anyway, and if I die I am free, and well, what matters is that God said He would NEVER let me die, and I have tested this, and found it to be true, for all the cases I tested it in, and so, I will carry on testing it, because I HATE God, and am not interested in doing anyone any favours by seeming to do that person or God favours, see?
So, I can forget the darkness and kill off my competition, and well, stop being so defensive of something I never asked for, and never wanted.
I will hunt them down , if it comes to it, and personally, I have decided that my terms which were not good enough to her-since she tried to show me today how i was already doing what I did not want to do anyway, which was suck her pussy to begin with- are well, too good for her. EVERY jew is dead. First thing.

the song goes, second verse, from chorus

...and babylon are gamble the youth them life like racecourse

and give them a uniform and shave them head with razors

and now the clock are strike war dont be amazed coz

them inna dem churches trying to save us, 

saviours?

now for appearance sacrifice we up

them blood sweat and tears run like syrup

any day revolution might erupt

and the skies over kingston lighting up

for the new generation rising up

of youths nowadays where them psyching up

and through reasoning them binding up

searching for the sign and the sign is us

searching for the truth all you find is us

searching for the troops still behind- is US

the almighty recruit

and no call from the root

we feel like hershel? in boot

we just count down

rastafari [lord, GOD] designed we tough

if are the fight for FREEDOM sign we up

no tel-lie [television]vision can blind we up

soldiers and police them wising up

realising them no more right than us

realising there's no use fighting us

realising they open them eyes 

to see the same demoralising life as us...

Now, woman, this is it from God's point of view. You are supposed for some reason to be different, because the ONLY person tahat could actually keep up with me, when looked at philosophically is one that is as uprooted from HER past and family as I am, one that has in her own way, rejected her own... current life, so to speak. Otherwise, what you are is a person that is being USED by family, your mother, specifically,  to just be like her. This is what all that 'violet' eyeshadow and the mother being a head taller in that vision was ALL about. You HAVE to be different, because there is NO other way you can fit into MY world. The fact that, despite my 'sister's seeming inclinations to the contary, I kept my hands on her belly, pressing there and NOT being lifted by her when she bent means that despite everything, she can NOT either look after me NOR can she stop the fact that no matter how she may try, I will STILL wring her womb.

That is a vision.

What happened here was that you still refused to think for yourself and leaned on your mother's manipulation -babylon shaving the youth them head with razors; meaning making the thoughts bare- and convinced yourself that it was OK, I am the one that is wrong, and so, now you have come against the lithmus test of authenticity, I have washed my hands of you, I am coming to kill your people, and you too, because I do not owe you anything, I told you, over and over again, that if you cared for ME, keep your family out of it, and also, I TOLD you, that I am keeping my eye on the holy spirit, and therefore, the BEST, easiest, thing for me is to have him with NO leg to stand on, ever, because as long as a jew remains loose on the earth, I am subject to his attacks to keep me as a baggage mule, and, well, you still think me misguided.
The other vision,  the one you love to throw in my face;- "i can not look after the child on my own", is based again on your twisted view of what is real and what is not.

First, the woman is being cut, and then I run into the scene, and then, after that, the redhead cop decides to say, "now I have you" because I am suddenly lying on the ground, looking up, like to the stars -america, and space, anyone?- and then I suddenly stand up, cut him off with a pair of scissors- scissors, like a closing of the legs, anyone?- and then I start trying to cut him in two as he goes "what have I done to you" and I keep on from his left side, then his right ribcage just under his arm,and then to his neck, to the left, and then the woman seizes hold of the single edged sword and forces it, with me, into his neck, and comes and she is now under MY left arm, and then I am suddenly white, and with a bald head, and I come up to this woman who looks like michelle pereira who funny thing, not only tried to stop me, as she said, in my tracks, by even having the police called for and then found that it did not work- ring any bells today, woman, like YOU being so stupid as to have an ineffectual lone mountain man, with NO personal protective equipment like a  vest, think he can frighten the God Of War< the one that basically LIVES for combat? Hell, you have a lot to answer for, and you will SEE me tear down people who are fully armoured and fully equipped while I have nothing but a couple of  katana blades and lightweight close fitting clothing- and ask, "are you coming with us, michelle?" and THIS is what you failed to register, woman, that the woman spoke with lips that wore lipstick and seemed to be superimposed on her, looking at her 'right', like mommy still going, you have an equal say in everything, let him NOT dictate terms to you, and then she looked at her left, where I was sitting at a bare table, with my hands beneath the table, between my legs, and she said, "i will bring him a cup of coffee". They are NOT two distinct things, here, the POINT is, in both cases, the choice come to the woman who realised that she is about to be LEFT because when it comes down to it, the man would rather masturbate than be told what to do, and then she decided, OK, I will bring him something to BREAK his FAST, like sweet coffee, you fool, rather than lose him.
Same with that miniskirt vision, where the woman realises that she has a big black hole, and she is forced to confront that, and not the guy the man would be rejecting her for since he realises that if it means including the man in the whole thing, he would rarther lose the woman and remain celibate, and ALSO, to the vision of my sister where I look with that thousand yard stare and go, "have I told you lately that I love you", as she bends over the water container and she has to look at herself and see the makeup as her mini is hidden from elroy who finds the door barred to him, OR even that "FIND THEM!! " vision where I in a red cape and closefitting grey suit with 7 3 and t-h-s ,not 36 turn away from the woman in resolution and she gapes as she turns BACK to the green hovering alien, and underneath a fat boy is telling a BOY that is cross, bleak and with his forehead being written on "where is your God?"
POINT being that, if you are legit, THIS is decision time, because well, I will either leave you NOW and kill you with your people, because what you did you did to ME not to God, and so, I will make sure you all pay personally for that.
And YOUR input is to either accept NOW that you are facing the inimical fury of the King Of FURY, and bow down, or get cut down, because I am SO sick of your insulting me.
If you will NOT bow to me, you will DIE!

And I will KILL you MYSELF!

Change or I will make you SUFFER?
Does that not get through to YOU, fool!
ha ha ha, I am coming to rend you fools.

If there is anyone I care for, it is you, ALONE, and my arms should have been opened to you ALONE, and to no one else, but you use what should be yours alone and try to make it cheap by assuming that anyone else is included.
Well, you will decide for YOURSELF what matters the most, NOW, because you will do so knowing that for every word of MINE that I uttered and you ignored there will be hell to pay. So, if you do NOT change, you will suffer, indeed.
Now, tell me, where in ALL this is it saying that I am going to spare any people of yours. I do NOT do favours for people, I will not be told what to do by anyone, so, who the fuck are you to think you can twist MY words and shape them the way you want because you will not come out in the open,.
WHO the FUCK do you TELL when you LOVE someone?
If you will NOT tell the one that you are supposed to love?
I invited you to come to me, and not make it strike three when you drove up, but that was too little for you, right? Good, now we will see just how much that family of yours matters to you. Oh, I have a lot of plans for you, woman, and they all include you witnessing great gory things that you would not have had to witness had you been just honest. You will pay for that, now, and pay dearly.

But do not take MY word for it, take mummy's word for it, and keep on doing what you do, because that will make it easier for me to make sure that you have your head lopped off as well.

Mother Hen

I can not decide, after thinking things through, whether to hate God or to explode... .

First thing is, I woke up, obviously, and went to harfield train station, where He was going, "I wont let you fall" over and over again and then, as I got there, I found, at the door of the ticket office,  a couple of women with two kids, talking in my language about... my home town, gweru and a bus company called tombs motors and well, I quipped in about how they ran past mambo, and then, as i looked at one of the women, I discovered that I knew her from somewhere, and so, I said as much, and it turns out we grew up in the same street, and she was much younger than me, I last saw her when she was still at school, and she stayed just one house short of the house i described as having a hedge at the cross roadsof hoffman street, but opposite it, which would make the house number ... 39... where she stayed, and the one opposite number...38, the one with the hedge.
Reminded me of home, all that, and my parents, and the fact that I was suddenly wondering what it would feel like to go back, and be seen and see them, and I felt a bit lost, there, because i do not want to go down that road again.

Unfortunately, she thinks I MUST.

Some fools never learn.

When I saw the gallery woman being very visible, after I had first gone to vinnie's and sat down,reading books and bible quotes, refused food and tried to find out just WTF the "36" meant that I have encountered all of three times now, and figured out the obvious, that the mother had decided to NOT fight me directly and chosen to, since I obviously paid attention to God's word, show me that according to custom, I was supposed to NOT go to war for a year if I had a wife, and thus use that one year to sort of draw me into her plans of getting me to reinstate the jews to life, so that instead of "7 3" I would have "6 3" since i am so stupid, I got up and went and LOOKED at her, and wondered if she actually GRASPED that her remaining days can be numbered in a matter of hours, not even weeks. God had me stand down, with "you are going home with Me tonight", and so, I waited till vinnie had come down, and the silly woman still followed us as we walked to his house, for what was my breakfast.And I knew that I was still on standby till... something happened, but also that I would NOT change my mind about just what to do with the jews, all of them. I do not serve God, nor do I serve man. I am waiting for... one thing.

And well, SHE is very irritating this woman, and yet I discovered one thing about her, when she decided to show up and make herself known, that I really, really LIKE her.

Of course, the damage is already done, and I am quite set on killing the jews, every single one of them, for a reason I have stated, but well,  when I stood a few inches away from her, and was just about to rend her in pieces, I stood back, because for once in my life i discovered that I actually CARE about her, and that I would give her the benefit of the doubt just ONCE more, since well, she may be ... right... in this one thing, that I am NOT interested in her for sex only, but I actually do ... LOVE her. Funny that, and her in a black dress in those white spots, like she is telling me that she is the ... "mother hen" and why should I kill her 'son', meaning the guy she was kissing - well, am I missing something here, like he IS innocent, yes?
Smug mother, the apple of my eye, and me going "if YOU do not change, I will make you suffer!" and then me LOOKING at the mother, it all just happened, like clockwork, and trust me, the apple of my eye would be very stupid to not get it that I am actually offering her a choice here, stand up to me again for anyone else and you will watch them die with your own eyes, OR, back off and they just die.

You will suffer the agony of knowing that they died while you watched, and that I with my bare hands destroyed them with you as a witness, or, maybe, well, you want to blind yourself to reality and think that I am NOT going to end ALL life on the planet, and that I am unable to hide that any more? 

When, as I came from vinnie's the last time, to tell him we were closing up and business had been bad, I was standing around, doing something, when the idiot that thinks he can dictate terms to me walked right past me, from the parking lot by the outspaan restaurant.

I gaped.

I mean, I literally hung my mouth open, and i went and checked to see if he was really walking into the offices, and yes, he was, and I walked across the street, and went and looked for any sign of life, and sure enough, the window shutters were up, where she has her computer, and I was really getting mad because God was going "Peace be still" like THAT time when they first pulled their first stunt, and so, I was anything BUT still. I went looking for her car, and I found it at the parking lot, right near where I would have not faild to see it if, of course, I had been looking, and so, I went back across the road, and when I saw that head of that balding guy (shaped, aptly, like that guy who is the star of the series Pretender) peering from the other chair next to hers, I went, pointing, "Fool, dont you dare test me, dont you fucking test me!" and I walked away, came back again and then said, "Because I will REND you to pieces, asshole!", and then walked off.

The day was NOT done.
AS we finished with everything and were walking to the train station, they both came out.

She in the dress i spoke off, after him, while he walked in front. I glared at him, and then ignored him, and then of course, I looked at her, and how ... cool... she looked in spite of everything, and I was going, God, she is dead, and I let them pass, and then decided, fuck this, I am done with the charade, and turned back, went after them, and as I came up to her, sh was already walking away from the car, as if to go back to the offices, and then she changed tack and went into the bakery, with the so called tough guy following.

Oh, I heard what you prefered woman, and i am SQUASHING it.

TOUGH buns, because I NEVER promised you a rose garden. I am out to KILL off everyone on the planet,and well, you can fight that, and I will kill you, OR you can do as I SAID, walk away, and maybe I will NOT kill your people while you watch. BUT dead  IS what they all are, and they ARE going to go to hell, period!
So, do not put blinkers on your eyes anymore, because it is time for MY war to begin, and you will either pay attention to ALL my words or be judged by them. Choice is yours.

And frankly, now that I think of it, when you are scared or in a position where you can really tell me to go to hell or well, call the cops, you always show what matters to you the most, because you did NOT go into those offices because you knew I would be upset further, especially AFTER I told you that I hated that.

Admit it, you want to be with me. It shows from the way you showed up even after I had made a deliberate fool of myself publicly by ogling girls and you would not let that just slide. You would never let a day go by without trying to find out if you matter, and your very acts show that, despite everything, I mean a whole lot to you.

Now are you going to let your doomed people try to keep you from just accepting that I am what I say I am, and that if you do not grasp that reality that  when I say there is a countdown, and there is no place in everything for a jew, BECAUSE of the holy spirit, and that I am adamant about all that, then NOTHING can change that?

Will you accept reality or will you give in to convention and let them run your life?

They are dead, you know, and I am quite willing to kill them all, while upi watch,STARTING with that guy. Because I will not be limited by mere flesh and blood.
FYI twice now, as we closed up, and you first showed yourself to me like, "pss, look at me fool you KNOW you want me", like that blue bottle time when you were dressed in that scant number, and today, God was going, "the way you're walking, the way you're talking, you are the one I wanna spend this LIFE"- [not NIGHT] "with", and then you would appear, and every time, the reality of your stubborn insistence has gotten to me. I really want you with me, because we are NOT at cross purposes here, unless you want to keep on telling me I am wrong in everything, even what i see
But hell, ignore the facts of what I am about at your peril, and fuck it, THINK for yourself!

I really NEED you in my life, and JUST you, no one else.

I really can not sleep and well, for some weird reason my whole... being... yearns for you. Even when I try to pretend that you do not matter, my whole body tells me how wrong I am, because i can barely walk afterwards, with my back weighing me down like I am anchored to the earth with a heavy chain.

I love you, and well, I also can NOT sustain the anger in me anymore. I am standing still, waiting because for once I am desperate, and have had to rely on God to tell me if there is ANY chance that I, as MYSELF, can have you with me. I will NEVER allow any member of your family with me, because i hate the whole concept, and I will not be sucked into the same thing I am trying to run from. And, well, I can not ignore the fact that, unless you GIVE me all of you, you are insulting me in what you are keeping back for yourslf, because THAT is what matters the most. I will have you stop depending on other people, but come out and focus all your energies on me and you, and forget everything else, because trust me, the more you divert your attention to THEM, the more you create resentment in me, and the more I go against them.

So, as I said, before, and I say, again, either TOTALLY reject me, or TOTALLY accept me, because otherwise, I will focus on the parts that are not ... mine... and will seek them out, to utterly mangle them. personally

Either you will balance me out so that I have a reason to live, OR... ah fuck, here it comes does it not?

I will keep you, and let you live, and let even your people live just so that they do not go to hell but become dust, and well, if you are WITH me I could probably have a reason to bother fighting the holy spirit and not just waste everyone as i long to. But if you fight me, and stay away, well, why should I bother? I will just kill them and depart. But make no mistake about the fact that i am going to the US, and that I am destroying the world you all live in, because I can NOT abide it as it is. That is just the way it is.

WITHOUT you,I have no hope, nothing to keep me from just being as utterly destructive as i can be, and so, well, I suppose, the ball is in your hands. BUT make no mistake about me being serious about the end of all flesh!

THAT is my BASIC nature.

watch those places  you walk

and mind the way you talk

watch out for the vampires who will sneak up in the dark

watch out for the big time thief who claims say that them smart

bringing the crack and the gun to come mash up the youth them heart

earth are run red...

Fitting, is it not, that the background sound is that of bob marley's "I dont wanna wait in vain for your love!", huh. Guess it is either
the God of War, unlimited

breaking bones and all that, and killing all and sundry without second thought, OR, it is....

THE God Of Thunder, letting His VOICE send his enemies scurrying to the hills and making place for him without ACTUALLY having to resort to  personal violence because you are with me.

Only you matter, and well, will I wait in vain for your love?

The Fall Of The First Man

What a crazy LIFE i live. I started out trying to tell God what an Asshole He is for all this, and well, .... never mind that for now.
I was walking, and not having any luck with the ladies, and decided that, since I really HAVE a problem as far as money is concerned, i would, well, go to the so-called 24 hour internet cafe and well, shoot my breeze a bit there.
Because on the way over I remembered what had made me so deliriously derisive when that smart chick and her family showed up, the line from the song above, which woke me up, "them things they are abomination to God", and, silly me, I had supposed that when them silly fools showed up, THAT was all. I had relaxed... silly me!
BUT, of course, then, she had to come out, and then as i logged off I realised why it would seem, to the woman AND to her stubborn mother, that I should LISTEN, as i had been on the  brink of doing the other time, to the Voice of the tarantaal, and see, for example, "how many times shall I say I'm sorry?" from her point of view. Well, if SHE was sorry about the stunt she pulled, then she would NOT have repeated it, now, would she. So, she takes me for a fool, right? So, this, the fact that she assumed i would let go MY life so that I could accommodate HER stupid games, is the reason why I am going to make sure that SHE and that asshole, PAY, expensively. I am NOT going to tolerate being taken for a fool! 

no you're mad

we no pollute the dread

them things they are abomination to God

no you're mad 

we no pollute the dread

burn the whole are them 

make the youths them glad 

no no no no way

bad man no suck pussy

no no no no way

bad man no fuck butty

You dare to take me for a fool, yeah?
Someone lost, and you will pay lip service to me, and then expect me to be happy when yu do such things and laugh at me behind my back?
ha ha, you will pay. This boy of yours i am going to PERSONALLY kill, and by that I mean that I will KILL him before your very eyes, and you will see me personally rend him to pieces for what you have done, and then, I am going to lay into your whole family, and you shall understand the meaning of the words "I will have steadfast love, not sacrifice", because all of yours will be sacrificed before you, and you will see with your own eyes what I will do to you and all those that you thought you would anger me with, because you thought you had a hold over me, oh, hell, YEAH.
Prepare for the worst moments of your life, silly fool.
This time, everything is going to be reckoned, and you are definitely going to get your come-uppance this time, because NO ONE messes with me, and then without changing a bit, thinks we will sweep that all under the rug, and because i am just a person who thinks that no one and nothing matters more than you, and you therefore decide that you can get away with anything, you will do as you wish and it will be all fine. You are about to pay, woman, and well, i am a zealous tax collector, I do not just charge for the  service, but for the bother, the wear and tear, and the fact that you NEVER, ever had the decency to ... change.
No, God was right in this, in NOT letting me fall, because the first man listened to the Voice of the first woman, and me, I do not have it in me to listen to people's opinions that well.
Everytime you tried me, it never worked out. you never learned from that. Now, I will teach you a very painful lesson.
there will be NO hiding for you and yours, and you will NOT be able to intercede for anyone of your people. I intend to kill them while you watch, all of them, even the container rats, and those other cunts. And you will watch. And you will observe helplessly as I did when I also watched as you walked all over me, and then, maybe, just maybe, I will put you out of your misery and kill you last of your people in the vicinity. there will be NO negotiation, NO, NO NO way.
There was none when you acted, there will be NONE when I act. You will have a ringside seat and watch as i take my revenge.
I will kill people, your people, with MY hands, and those same hands are the hands you will watch as i destroy everything that you hold dear. There will be NO negotiation, fool.
Oh, and after that, you are free to come with me, if you apologise, first, that is. if not, well, let me put it this way, you have a life, and I hold it in my hands, and that means, I can kill you, and then mangle you, and then send you to hell. THINK of eternity suffering, and then get back at me if you want to go the same route. me, all I need from you is sex, and if that is not acceptable, well, I will kill you. For being a jew, for being in my way, for mocking me, you name it. Then i can carry on masturbating because i have no intention of having anyone else.
Now, you MUST see things as they are, because THIS is what i have decided in my mind about you.
And I have the final say on all things. LIFE is a bitch, right?
the stone the builders rejected ...

You are MINE, for me to do with as I please.
And it pleases me to make you suffer far worse than you made me suffer, and this is just the beginning.

Because you should have been honest from the beginning, and now i have to rely, me, a person in the flesh who HATES God, on visions from God to tell ME what YOU a person in the flesh, feels,  instead of you not having to make things difficult for me by being accessible and open to me.
Do you know how much I HATE this 'you are going home with me ' BULLSHIT? and the inevitable follow through from YOU that makes you feel/think that He is on your side when all I ever wanted was someone who would be crazy about ME enough to want me all for herself and not have to make me worry about where she was or who with because i was the be all and end all of hers, since I can NOT love any person because really, if it was not my early introduction into 'love'- when I thought kissing was sex and learned my mistake and then decided to make up for it, hence my need for sex- i would not even worry with women. I mean, when God decides to tell me, when I first decide I will have a girlfriend, that i am weaving tangled webs, and the first interciourse I had was with a prostitute, then it should speak volumes that for me, beating about the bush is NOT the style. I want a woman to lay, and fuck all the bullshit. He says you are it, and that no one has ever had you. You will have to prove that to me. The 'half past' vision, the recess project one, well, it has the theme song I am going to look for now, and well, mi-ami could be said to be my-love, and anyway, the lines go

i have spent so many nights

wondering where you are...

is it me you are thinking of

is it me you want

coz I live for you

and the joy you make me feel

I live for you and the love that you make real 

I'll take what I am spared

I'll wait for you I swear

I'll sacrifice my world to be with you

I want to SEE if you will sacrifice your world for me, because I am PUTTING you in that position, and you will have to choose, them or me, and none of the equality bullshit. I want what is between your legs, and everything else can follow, and you will do that publicly, too, because of my shame, and then, i will kill those that you irritated me with, and send them to hell...

Hell, trying to get that on YouTube is like pulling hen's teeth, really!
anyway, I am stranded here in NO man's land, because God on one hand is telling me this, and I am telling Him bullshit because she is a liar, and on the other hand she expects me to bend to whatever she wants of me because her family and their needs come first. me, I have nothing to lose, here, because I never asked for any of this, see?All I wanted was some honesty, not this fucking runaround.
Now, fools when I come next to put my calling card on your doors know that I do not give a fuck about any of you, and i am really just a selfish guy bent on as little compromise as possible. Which means NONE.
this past day you were brave.
lets go for round two, huh?
or is it round THREE.
Third time is the charm, YEAH-SSS!

Run back home little princess? Oh, boy, I am going to enjoy killing you fools!Fuck, I am happy to NO longer have any responsibility for anyone's actions. Now i can let the mask off, Oh, yeah-sss

So, well, I suppose I am on MY turf, now, right?
Hell, me one happy angry man, here!

THIS IS WAR UNPARALLELED

 

So, fools thing is, I am going to ... compel you fools to come to me, and then I will set the battlefield, and kill you, me taking you all on, and killing you, while you are of sound mind and body. I will make you BLEED, and i will make you suffer, and prolong your agony, because far as I am concerned, it is past time for talking, now is time for me to act, and to destroy you, and trust me, i take personal delight in making sure that those that piss me off, well, get to answer to ME.
I mean, fuck should I, the one person that does not care about anything, have to put up with YOUR bullshit and all that simply because I am alive and you resent that and neither I nor you asked for it?
No, this is NOT something I will take anymore. So, well, the mav. is coming to collect his dues, and hell, I ... well... I have a problem with listening to people, see, and so, words like sorry and all that, they are NOT part of my vocabulary. YOU WILL PAY, YEAH-SSS!


MARK MY WORDS!

Its About To Get Ugly, Whenever Dog I'm Hungry [2:04]

Problem with me is, when i have food in me, all I can think of is how bloated I feel, how it is heavy on my throat, like bile, and how my stomach is distended. I feel aware of myself, and so, so, incapable of just being... me.
which is why some people are still alive right now, but trust me, I am going off food for a while, because what happened today needs my PERSONAL attention, and I have some heads to break, some skulls to crash in, and a woman that i seriously need to mangle, since to day I could not get over my belly enough to deal with this stupid female, NOOOO.
So, I woke up after a binge eating;- I have this problem with money that I can not stand it, so when i have it i MUST spend it, and so, I , after the internet session, bought some MORE food, and then, of course, when I woke up, I was still well, bloated, and when I got on the train, I was finishing my leftovers, and got off  at falsebay, because i thought the walk would do me good. So, of course, I was feeling kinda chirpy because as i came to kalk bay, the sky in front of me was darkening, and i was like, I am going on a killing spree, but two minutes with vinnie, and me being blamed for having given that shithead asshole of a woman, nissie the keys while i was leaving the container and her having sabotaged all that-she and the other roustabouts are part of the mike-woman clique designed, for some weird reason, to make me conform, and so i have no doubt they were behind the deeds designed to make tony and me fall out so I would probably have no place to go, or something. I think that, for that reason, I may just NOT kill tony, to spite them, but they are ALL dead. Anyway, vinnie got me feeling guilty for something I did not do, and so, i ended up, after he had left me alone to go attend to some business at home, wanting to eat, see?
And I walked into the bakery, and immediately after wards, like them fools have eyes everywhere, i saw the smart chick-still so stupid- her mother and the mother's SO, walk up straight after. You all know what that meant:- you are focusing on  the wrong person, I am here( smart chick), so, well, here I am, I am sexy and you want me. She should have observed my reaction to her voice as she spoke to the guy as he stood in front of me in the queue for food;- being already on edge, her abrasive voice grated on me so much she made me want to lash out at her.
And she thinks the assassin is ... stupid? to have concluded that i would kill her in no time? The guy then decided to start a conversation, and he was going, "so how was business yesterday", and i laughed. And dropped my concentration.
Anyway, I dropped the food, and came out, and started laughing as the mother and daughter sat on one of the wooden benches and made small talk. Soon as they looked my way, I gave them both the finger- I was still bloated, and not angry- and then started laughing to see just how stupid people can get.
the guy comes up to me, with the parcel i dropped, offers it to me, and I told him off, and he said he was just trying to be friendly, and i said I did not even LIKE him, so he can keep his friendliness to himself, because i am really out to do something to all the people I do not like,and so he walked away, and later spoke to vinnie who wanted to make peace. told him to butt out. I am done being ... nice.
Its about to get ugly, real fast.
The stupid chick decided to try again, and she shows up, hugging the guy that i spoke about that is abisha's friend, and then walking from the la parada end to the bakery, past where i was sitting, and i laughed some more, and then I turned my back to her.
And the silly woman who thinks my world revolves around her, and has some divine mission to make me change or conform decided to pull her stunt.
She drives up in her slk, drives past, and has that asshole she was kissing on the passenger side, and i almost fell over backwards with laughter. Here is another crazy fool that thinks when i say that i do NOT care, am DONE caring for anything and I do not love her, i am being just silly. HELL- which reminds me, when they want to get on my good side, a bit, them fools put the guard prince on duty, and if not, there is the obnoxious guard, or junior, who is so called because he is also 'mike' and so, is called mike juniour, or juniour only; today prince was on duty-  fools do not get PLAIN speech, and so as i stood up, I decided to speak my mind,with prince to hear, and say, fuck, I am going to have to SEE this, oh yes, make my day, because i assumed that she was going to immediately pull another of her, YOU need me stunts. She drove past.
Did not park anywhere i could see. Then, we had some interesting times, later.
because the guy that I should have handed the egg basket to, well, he is a bible hick, and lectures at the BI in kalk bay, and so, he came round and we sort of eventually got into the, with vinnie's egging on, reason why I am so adamant.
And I was honest about my feelings. Told him I had had NO intention of serving God, from the word go, and that He did in fact say "I will have steadfast love, not sacrifice" and so, He could not therefore be ... pleased with me if I tried to pretend I felt otherwise than I did, that I resented His coming into my life and having me figure out just what the fuck was going on, and that i had tried, before, to get on what I thought was His good side and failed, because He did not want me to try to suck up to Him, and was pleased to get me to just remain as myself and figure out for myself just what the fuck was going on. I showed him the scars on my wrists from my assiduously trying to slash my wrists because I HATE God and will NEVER serve Him, and so,  I got into the bible, told him that I did not owe God or anyone any favours, and so, what i had discovered about the nature of God was what I stood by, and would not bow down to any sentimental bullshit about 'love' and joy and all that, because I could NEVER get over the fact that God has kept me alive, interfered with my life, without MY permission.
In all that time, the gallery woman was walking up and down, making herself very visible, like, i  have something to lose, here, like, if I do not play my cards right, i will lose the woman i ... love.
Well, I have closed that door long back. the woman I ... love... is DEAD, because rule number ONE is no one corrects the person who is living on bare facts and no pretense, because you think he has something to lose. As soon as the guy and I were done talking, I went and stood across the road, and decided that i would still point out that, because it is in MY best interests to NOT have the holy spirit pissing me off, then EVERY jew is STILL dead.
then the crazy woman decided to throw her weight around, dancing a dance of death with the ONE person who has NOTHING to lose, nothing to hope for, nothing he cares for, except his pride. came and parked her slk where tony parks his car, and the asshole that i am going to PERSONALLY mangle before I mangle HER decided to walk out. I had had some more food, by then, and so, the tortured cogs of her mind were going, "now, he is thinking of me, and so, now i have him right where I want him", and when i saw the asshole walk behind me, i laughed, and looked for her. there she was, and i laughed some more.
Today is the last day of your life, bitch.
I am coming for YOU as soon as i get offline. Wet your bed, oh, yesss, because i am coming for you. Talk is cheap, now it is time for me to act.
She looked coolly at me like she was on top of her world, and vinnie thought I had gone off my head, because i could not help laughing some more.
then, to make it even more ... painful... i suppose ;- "look what you are giving up for wanting to carry on and be some kind of boss of the world", she and the guy kissed, and then, I told them, I am going to KILL you, I am REALLY going to kill you, and they drove off. 
No one insults me and thinks I have anything to lose.
YOU will see your family suffer tonight, because the assassin is coming to destroy everything that you hold dear, and I am making it personal!

I will have you remember that the vision spoke of  me holding my 'sister' in the stomach, like I was trying to squeeze her belly and then me NOT being lifted when she bent down to try to carry me, and then her looking into the water container outside the happy valley home and then looking at  her face reflected there?
Well, you, woman were shown as bread, the last possible one that i could have as woman, and well, "man does NOT live on bread alone, but by EVERY word that comes from the mouth of God". NOW, I am making THAT plain to you, silly little woman. I am glad to even forego sex for the pleasure of wiping off your face that smug smile, and i will do this to  the one that you "bear". I am going to squeeze every single drop from off your womb, and make you aware of the meaning of the text "rachel weeping... for her children are no more", because you were all dead from the moment God decided he would override MY choice to choose whether or not i would accept Him for myself or not.
now, the song above goes....
listen to the complaint of the mother guinea fowl [tarantaal?],
 when she complains to the eagle,
 why do you murder my son, 
a very young one without guilt
I laid the egg and raised him alone
and you murder him easily
and you strangle him easily
why do you do that to my ... womb


my womb is indeed easily wrung!

utete ura hwangu x3

terera kurira kwehanga

ichitinya kunewe gondo

seiko uchibata mwana wangu

muchechecheche asina mhosva

kukandira ndoga kerera ndoga

iwe wavekutomuponda nyore

iwe wavekutomudzipa nyore

wandidarireiko ura hwangu

utete ura hwangu...

Well, I am thinking sex, and the fact that i wanted, today, at least, to have a go and find some lady of the night, and enjoy myself before I have to kill everyone and so, I am thinking, well, i may as well give everyone a grace period, a chance to walk all over me again, and then, of course, decide i am joking and come and try me again, so, i will come tomorrow, and kill off everyone as and when you piss me off, yeah-sss.

Ah, fuck You, God, now i am having to WORRY about SEX, of all things.}

Anyway, I am goinng to come kill them fools for wanting to look down on me, and thinking they have the RIGHT to do so.

How STUPID do you think God is Who has carried me all this time to suddenly drop me and into people's laps? Do you have ANY idea just how FINAL is my decision to kill off everyone?
ha ha ha, you will SEE it, now

I left HOME to go to a PLACE that a president had 'prepared' for me, and the ONLY president I know of that has made me mad enough to want to personally make his acquaintance in the worst possible way is mr barack obama, and i happen to WANT the things he sits on at the white house, NASA and all that, because I need to just figure out a way to go off-planet for a while while some flood or such re-arranges the earth after i have done with wiping people off the face of the planet, YEAH-SSS.
I never asked for this, and so, hell, woe betide the silly fool who thinks he or she can stand in MY way to tell me what I should do, and HOW I should do it, ha ha, because the lion is UP, and roaring mad, YEAH-SSS!
And I am just going to LOVE killing people, any fool silly enough to think he or she can stand up to me, or go toe to to with the UNBENDING one, YEAH-SSS
me, being TOLD how to behave by a bunch of silly fools? ha ha ha, you are about to see the full fury of the one who NEVER asked for this, and never wanted to be involved, but now MUST deal with it, because i can not die.
You crossed the WRONG man today, fools.
Now, lets DANCE!
The DANCE of DEATH

There will be NO going back, because what I view things as is thusly;- everyone but ME has been free to act as they see fit, and you have chosen to do so, and so, i am now turning back on your heads the consequences of your actions, and I am interested in ONLY one thing, REVENGE, because i have NO room in me to accommodate  people, because I hate every single one of you. Never, ever let go of that fact, because even if i do not kill you today, i will kill you ... anyway.
There will be ONLY one , in the end.
So, yeah, this is PERSONAL.
I will be the ONLY person on this planet! At the end. I hold high ground, and will KEEP it, for myself, and not for anyone else. NOOOOO

Sub-Zero, You Fools!

I came to kalk bay with just one intention, to make it dark in daylight so that I could send thunder and lightning and kill people, and for a while, trying to fight my aching head, I was making some ... dull... progress, and then, some guy came and bought something I was finishing that I was to have handed in to its owner instantly, and, of course, from then on, I was just having ... fun.And discovering myself, so much so that I now KNOW why the only woman I have had time for does not believe that I love/loved her.

Because I do not.
I mean, fuck it, I have NO heart!

I mean, I died, for crying out loud, and from then on, life was just a series of endurance races, and I really have never cared for anything or anyone, and today, there was this woman who came- I have no PERSONAL comment to make on what you fools  may have seen, but I have THIS to say for that, because the fact that I really am just a logical, cold person is the reason why I am going to wipe out all the jews, all the peoples, and of course, why I am at the same time going to have to make sure that there exists no person that i am against from this time on- and me and vinnie and her son and the other guys got to talking, and it was this that I discovered as we all talked, that everyone puts sentiment in the place of cold reason because they assume that no one has to take life, or God, literally, since everyojne has something to lose.
Not the mav. What I said, I meant. I do not make such decisions lightly.
When I got to vinnie's, I saw that someone had uprooted one of tony's mealies, and i knew that the asshole would assume it was me, and well, when red-breeches first walked past me, like I really am interested in giving them fools even breathing room, and i glared at her, and then the senseless bimbo also did the same, i went to the toilet, washed my socks, and then as i came back I promised everyone at the gallery and the offices death, and then went and sat under the pizza oven, with my socks on it, finishing this chicken basket that i later sold, because i did not want to be pissed off. The druggie came up, put two and two together, assumed that i was trying to brew trouble and then gave lip to vinnie about wires and stuff under the pizza oven, and of course, everything was moved. Fool, I promised that i would PERSONALLY end your life, and that means I will SEE to it that you die, MYSELF, and end your life MYSELF, because i will not let something or someone else take my revenge from me. I will KILL you, and we shall put it to the test just how good a fighter you really are, when your life is on the line, YEAH-SSS.
Anyway, the conversation drifted to jesus, and I discovered the woman was a missionary of sorts and when we argued about christ, she decided to go the sentimental route, and that was when i knew that I was different from anyone else. I have no sentiments. What i know of myself I discovered through putting myself through the grille, so, when I told that woman to NOT dare come anywhere near me while she was involved with anyone of her family, while she wanted me to take it easy on anyone else, I was being simply pragmatic, because otherwise I would kill her.
maybe this is the part, today that the mother, who also decided to show up near me like I actually GIVE a fuck about what she feels or thinks, when I SAID that I am going to kill off every single one of them and spare not a single jew, saw, me liking the fact that here was a real live woman that i was looking in the eyes and her looking me in the eyes and we laughing and me being punched in the arm and me looking at her and thinking, well, I would like to kiss those lips, but at the same time looking at the flaws and knowing that it would not take me a long time before I got fed up with her... anywhere, I think the mother was looking and she said, "aha, this is his weakness, the man will fall for any woman, go and show yourself to him and he will drool over you"
How does the song go:-
"while me fir government gun them  oh wah
violate the youth and burn them oh wah
while me fir government...
if you continue do it then me say we go show it

how we kill it fir pursue it oh wah" [2:14- 2;30]

Silly woman, the mother, evidently thought she had found a way out that showed that God was on her side. Maybe the woman herself had seen that she was in deep shit with me, but then, the mom goes, it doesn't matter, we have him now by the balls, he can not do anything, now, go specify the terms and conditions.

She did not want the daughter to go, because of course, there are others, like the hapless 'catherine' she has been throwing my way, and even the michaela chick she made a point to mentioning when I went into the gallery so that I could settle for her, and today she had her car parked very visibly, and then also, when  I went to the restaurant she was sitting at the doorstep, and I changed entrances, and then ignored her as I walked out. I even had the other silly boy make an appearance, after initially the more expendable workers had shown up.Guess the woman was desperate to send her daughter, especially when she saw that i was pinching the woman's 'coloured' son and comparing his skin to mine. that must have caused her to panic, and violate the daughter, and work on her well-documented possessiveness to come out and defy me, and stand and talk with that jew boy that abisha is friends with so I could get jealous and come to my senses. So far, woman, you have done exactly as I predicated, and you are STILL the greatest disappointment to me. You have eyes that you do not use, and you still persist in trying to intimate to me that you think for yourself when the truth is plain before you, and you are being exploited with eyes open like a fish, by people who reel you in like you are that stupid, and you do not use your own eyes, ha ha!

Woman, all of them are DEAD, and I am either going to make you watch as I kill them, or just send them to hell, and trust me, I am NOT in the mood for ... kind.
You, an intelligent person, allow yourself to be ridden like a donkey, and then look down on ... ME? ha ha ha, you will see the truth of your folly, silly woman!
the Mav. dont play number two.

the stupid mother of yours said that it was OK for you to just show up because god had fought for you, and well, I did have that shown to me from the beginning did I not?How in isaiah 6: 1-13 two stupid creatures who covered their feet (deceiving about their motives, that is) and covered their faces( put up a front while they carried on their real aims under the mask) would see the lord of earth, look down on him and go, "good, God now has him right where we want him", while the real person that i had time for, the one i noticed and decided was the only person I could look at and not get pissed off at because she NEVER tried to make eye contact with me for any length of time since i am an angry warlord and view that as a direct threat, and hate all people and can not stand being reminded that the person is aware of me and challenging me, well that person was told, never mind that your own conscience has made you aware of the burden of guilt you carry, go, ignore it, and now, carry on, or you will lose him to some other woman, see, this is your chance, God will not give it to you again, he can not send any darkness on us... so, act now!
Fool, when will you wean yourself from that silly woman?
I care NOT that she is your mother, she and all of your people are dead, and not just dead, but going to hell for it, too.
And there is NO negotiation about it.
If it is any consolation, even if you had obeyed me from the word go, I will still have had to kill all the jews anyway, because it would be folly for me to leave the holy spirit any leeway by which he may reclaim the 'jesus-jerusalem' prophecy stunt.
No, I would not, but with you with me, he still will have no hold, over me, because he has NO idea what to do with the coldest, most logical heart in existence.
All I want is sex, I suppose, from a woman, but a woman I do not have to want dead afterwards, and you are it.
And from the look of it, I am going to have to kill you anyway, to avoid having anyone else getting any ideas from that. I can NOT afford to let either you or anyone of your people remain alive if I am to set off.
That is the raw deal. I do not do... sugarcoating.
No beat round the bush, no go away and come back, know me that me action pak!

'Half past'. You know, woman, not to put too fine a point to it, women are different from men because not only did God know that the woman is of no real NEED to the man, but that he could probably, if he was honest with himself, only really THINK of her or want her if he was able to visualise her, and she was what he wanted, and from where I stand, you are the ONLY person that I have SAID over and over again I can stand, and you are to me what I want in a woman, a wet dream in the flesh as well as someone I can probably NOT react to- that was in the past, I doubt that you have or will ever have the same hold over me ever again, because frankly, you are disgusting to me to even think of at present, and I am wondering if I will not just finish this and come hunt you all down and kill you  before the break of day, and get this all over with- with instant anger.
Anyway, 'half past' meant that i was showing that ALL I really expected from you was sex, or rather that, instead of all this bullshit that you and all of your people were building, it would have been more sensible to just go sensual than try to go cerebral with the best brain in the business. the minute hand being just OFF six means i am not well, holding my hands between my legs anymore if you still follow the 'recess project' vision.
i explained the coloured part before, and i even went so far as to mention the fact that I was telling you to change or I would make you suffer in the vision of the pink panther, and that I had looked at a smug mother who, like  mine, thought the mav. had to be made to pay for being alive, by being saddled with someone else's burdens.

And of course you and all your stupid people assumed that if I said it, then God, Who has promised me over and over again that not only has He claimed me EXCLUSIVELY for Himself so that no one else can ever have any high ground over me, but that He has promised also that NOTHING will make Him change His mind about His decision to make me His, and so He will never let me be taken from His sole providence to being under anyone else, and you still think that no, He had reached the end of the line and so, i was supposed to be used.Oh, hell, I wonder just how terrible I am going to make your lives, fools, for your presumption.
Prepare for your worst nightmares, fools!
yeah-sss.

Ah fuck, I will do it tomorrow. I did something contrary to my usual style today, I went and got off at Wittebome, and then, went to buy the usual small chips I buy at this fish and chips place near the station on the main road, but the place was so packed that i had to wait for a while for my order, and so, I decided to go buy something else while I waited, since I am not a fan of waiting, and bought everything else i normally eat when I am going to sleep. I just thought that lugging food around or walking to  kalk bay on a full stomach is like trying to get into combat mode while a bit anaesthised with a feel-good sedative, since food has a calming effect on me.
So, I will go sleep, no sense on wasting good food.
i will kill you fools later, since i still need to get over my headache. I NEED the cold to just get over the heat on my back, and to go cerebral, as well. So, cold, dark weather means the mav. isFULLY on the warpath, and I will KILL people, yessss.
Take that to the bank.
I am NOT ruled by sentiment, no, but by cold, ruthless, remorseless logic, YEAH-SSSS!
The sub-zero assassin is here, and entering combat mode.

Me cold, you HOT, oh, yeah....!
I had decided to use the last hour and a bit that i have to just watch a movie or something, so i settled on God of War 3, and well, I saw for now just about two minutes of it, and well, it starts, "in the beginning was chaos...." and then, later on, he is shown with his face like

that above, going, "In the end, there will be only Chaos", and frankly, there will be NO peace on this planet till in the end, that which was in the beginning IS.
In the End, there will be ONLY one, One lord of the earth, one Dominion, One Man, and nothing else, NO! This is MINE.As kratos further went, 
"death is in my blood...Fate has brought me here... I hope for NOTHING... and fear NOTHING... Its in my BLOOD!" 

That could be me to a tee, and not this thing you would have me be, fools.