Never thought...rejection... could hurt so much

I do not know what anyone thinks, so I am going but what I see, and, hey I would love to give someone the benefit of the doubt here, but I am left just... sore here. So she later came out, with a swimsuit, and this... GUY ... she works? with and they walk on the other side of the road, and I am like... DOUBLE... KO, like, she was being... emphatic... about it, like, fuck you, asshole. Then she walks back alone, in the lead, and I am not even sure what that is about. I would have given up even then, but there is this... trend... you see, that is developing here, when them upstairs people figure out I am getting pissed off, they send this zim lady who works there, and she makes a point of making a greeting, which thing puzzles me because it is like trying to repair damage that one willfuly caused, and so, is it a game or what? Needless to say I am NOT amused, and while i may NOT kill them shitheads unless they dare face up to me, I have NO compuction about sending the WHOLE lot of them to hell. Fuck, I may not know the outcome of this, because I am stunned at how much it is smarting in my chest at the moment, but no male that has accompanied the chick, whether it was business or whatever, will live to see the following week. When the pain becomes unremitting anger, i will THEN decide what to do with them bitches, yessssss! I promise it WILL hurt THEM a lot, yessss!!!

Guess I do stand... corrected, for real

I suppose the one thing I do easily, which I suppose I never realy acknowledged till today, is get mad. And forget the important things... . Can't help it I have these ...issues. Trust issues. When I came from the... library and found the CR-V parked right by the la parada entrance, the bottom fell out of my heart, and it took a while, but finally, it got to me,ironically when i had just realised that if I did not have a... challenge... like space travel, I would be bored out of my skull, and I needed to leave, since I hate disputed territory, and I could never end my friend's life, never. So my mom gets to live, and i remove ... strangers... from the USA and prepare for my departure, but NOT as a coward, but as... I don't know;- justified. So, OK i will NOT kill everyone, just the necessary people, and those that have pissed me off personally, but unless they have squared up to me... like- fuck NO ONE hashad the nerve to stand before me and call me out, huh?- so I guess i just send them to hell remotely. Tired of all this crap, just wanna leave. Tomorrow i leave the mountain. Guess "by Saturday" every fucking asshole in the world WILL know me, and no more women fir me thank u very much!!!

I stand... corrected?

Since of course, there are people too... valuable... for me to lose. I must there fore listen to them, and do as they please and we can all be one happy... world, spreading love and good cheer all around...Look at my fucking FACE! Do I look like a peace-loving tree-hugging one-world-for-all type of person you idiots!
Fuck, I am doing EVERYTHINI+G I had purposed, and even worse, since everyone 'knows' better than I do just WTFR should be done, right?
Argue with me , will you?
Try showing me how ... wrong I am, will you?
fuck, then, THIS is what WILL take place. I AM putting the heads of my enemies, or all the women that came my way while attached to their SOs, or those that I just hated, in that gallery, and I am killing off every inhabitant of RSA unless it is such as have NOT defied me, or pleased me, or done things that make me NOT so... malevolent, or I have promised life, and we can do that one-on-one, OR via remote, where I just press the switch and everything goes directly down the drain. That means michelle's head, butthead's, her friend's the friend's mother's chunky boy's, faggot face's and even the kalk bay crew that pissed me off, like the little mama, her brats, her husband, et.c, will be framed in the gallery, along with those I have already mentioned, yes?
YESSSSS!

Moreover, I AM removing every other race, except for the europeans, in their homelands, and as for the women, ONLY such as have not 'known' black men will remain alive, and by implication, only the women that I may potentially select my harem from will remain alive, yes, yessss!
I mean, fuck, I am NOT going to... serve,... anyone, not even GFod, nor am I going to do anyone any favours. What I do, I do to make MYSELF at ease, and not some other person, and when I look at a person, it will be THAT person alone -unless it is my friend, and the promise I made him- but as for the rest,unless I have reason to even look with no... anger... at the family of that person,then they WILL die, and who does not like it, tough, join them because I will NOT negotiate with anyone, fuck that!

What you read here is the full unveiling, and nobody who wants to cast a ... burden... on my back will EVER, EVER stand anywhere near me, or remain alive for much longer.
Wanna bet as to how things will turn out?
Fuck, go on, keep on pushing, and this time, you will wake up to the fire burning around your knees, and me... gloating, yessss!

even if you run away, and go hide, I will not follow, I will summon you, and you WILL come to me, because no one can resist me. Again, try me. Or call out to your God, and He will fight for you, since you put your trust in Him, right?

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Been thinking of the girl whose mother is a jew, and while I have a thing against God's people, she DID say she is NOT religious, which means i get to ... spare her, for what she has done, and take her, if she was genuinely... into me... on my terms, of course, but her ... people, nuh! every other jew everywhere else, dies, and her family get to live if they ARE here, in South Africa, but if anywhere else, they are dead, as well as, after my getting there, every Dutch person- I need to satisfy myself about the Dutch girl first- and then after collecting the german chick, I will then seek the end of every other american person,, which means I will want to find out about the cnadadian chick, yes?

fuck, I wll not force anyone to be with me, it is, will always be 100% your choice, but where you stupid people do not get it is that you assume giving 'lip service' satisfies me and makes me all mellow and agreeable, while you carry on grieving me with your double standards. Fuck, anyone does that from NOW on, is not only dead, but will wish, before she does DIE, that she had never been born. I hold your lives in my hand, and now, how about trying to prove that!
Fools!

Let us play a game, a game called "How many fools can I kill today?";- guess plenty! i have run out of fingers to count!

So, my day starts out, as usual, by seeing the ... stupid;- decidedly so-... art chick drive by early in the morning as I and vinnie are at the container, and i was barking at the dogs, which come from the house her boyfriend bought, at the corner of the street which vinnie stays in.
Yeah, it sounds crazy, but I am probably the most depressed person you will ever come across, so I take my fun where I can, since I doubt there exists anyone that has so much pent up fury as I do.
about the dogs, I mean. the stupid girl IS stupid, and thinks, I assume, is I smile, it goes deep, or that God has any... influence... on any of my decisions, or that those days when I used to be indecisive still exist.
She has taken advantage of my indecision, or ... loosening up... plenty of times, and pissed me off for a long, long, time, and I have STATED for a long time, repeatedly, just how much she has pissed me off, and how I want to kill her, but well, today I get a whole batch full as well, yessss!
But, today, guess the nothing-better-to-do spy network was operating full tilt, because as soon as I was laughing and having fun, no longer glum, she shows up, drives past me to the parking across the road from the building... fuck, let me put a picture here

What you see is the main entrance to the  olympia deli, with the gallery occupying the upstairs. her boyfriend's la parada restaurant is further along, in the background. that is NOT actually the main street, but a one way street with the main road invisible , but to the left of the picture. She parked in the parking lot at the left. This picture is a bit ... old... see.there are no more fish there, but a naked black woman, and sydney has his art right  in front outside there and it was there that I decided to kill him, after a disagreement that i ... instigated... to draw him out so that we could confront each other and he was too scared to come out, so i decided on leisurely revenge,, and his head along with mike's and these others will adorn the place i have stated.
guess i have shot my mouth off now, and the question is, WILL anyone dare me to do this or will anyone think they can defy me and stop it happening, ha? I mean, there MUST be a reason why God said, "I will send elijah..." in malachi, and if it is NOT because elijah said that if baal is God, then follow him, but if he is El-Elohe-Israel, then follow Him, but let Him fight for Himself, then I am totally lost, right? because I SAY that if THIS does not happen, then i am 100% a fraud, and God never spoke to me, and I am NOT the God of this earth, and you all are not mostly about to die, right? 

Above is a poster of the gallery, and below is where I will put the heads, upstairs, right? or I am NOT walking with God, ha ha!

Now, the chick, after parking her car, decided to stay in it awhile, and then only exited it after that small dumpy one that ran when no one was chasing her somehow showed up, and they walked to the entrance, which is to the side, but they were coming towards where I was seated, and at the entrance they hesitated, and the short dumpy one said something, presumably, 'you can not let him bully you around, show him you can stand up to him' or some such bullshit, and she listened -pity, because i was, till then, undecided about killing her, guess i , as I always said, never thought i would, that she would somehow come to her senses and be reasonable, because i liked her spunk, but not anymore- and they walked towards me, turned to their right, my left, and walked to the olympia deli... mmmm, that gets me thinking, yessss!. A moment, here...

fuck, I could not get what I wanted, but this is the bakery entrance... hmmm, I guess I am ready to serioulsy piss off everyone, here, and the more brazen i get, the better, yessss!

Anyway, the open air shop is somewhere to the leftof the picture, and the two walked up and into the place, took their time, and then decided to exit, and i watched, thinking, OK, so THAT short and dumpy one is also VERY dead, yesss! A
A while later, they, and the guy who beat up obert and some cloured guy, you know, the guy I said i would kill anyway, because I hated racists? Not the coloured guy, but that guy who owns chartfield guesthouse- must have been how i came to the notice of them assholes, because i wanted it for a while, see, but now, I suppose it has had its day. I am reducing it to cinders- well, he was so brave today, so gutsy, and i could not help lauging as they walked right by me and went somewhere, with the stupid chick probably smiling at how easy it was to yank the lion's beard and get away with it, see, it was not so difficult, and he did NOTHING. I told you he is full of talk only, and he will NEVER do anything, because God will ALWAYS intervene to turn him from his weird thoughts.
REALLY. MY response is

said them are go dis WHO?
said them are go dis ME
mnxxxcxxccc!
shut him up that man
Bad rag we?

... tell them anything are anything
any dj any scene
any vocal every string
fir rise again start this are heavy scene

well, the asshole is dead, and his head is going to join mike's, the dumpy one, sydney, and... maybe... fuck, i can not even decide now, because this stupid woman is making it difficult for me to make up my mind about her. No, i have no real intention of killing her... uh uh, i WILL kill her, maybe not, fuck, I can TELL she does not make up HER own mind, because she is in her comfort zone there, with all those assholes. discussing everything, when she needs to make up her OWN mind, the silly fool. I do NOT want to kill her, no, I do not, but she is making things difficult here, and I might just end up doing that anyway because it is NOW about face. if she shames me NOW, then she dies, so i am removing her options, making her decide, and not sit on the fence. It is her choice.
guess this is what it has always been about, with all them women. they all somehow think I am going to ... wait on them, try to find what pleases them, and do what they want. Hell, NO. They DO what I want, or they die, and when it comes to a clash, there will NOT be a referee, or a second opinion; what I say goes, and whoever does not agree with me... dies, because I bow down to no one, ever.
i have never agreed with God, or submitted to Him. What He offers me is advice, but the power, the kudos, the glory, the guts are all mine. What He did He did without me being aware of it. i was a kid before, but ow I am a man, a king, and what matters to ME is MY way, and never will I go  the way of anyone else, never. unless it pleases me to do something for someone, but as long as it benefits me.
which is why I wonder if I am going to ... regret this part that is coming up.
i will first think about it while playing some....

sean paul?
yes, sean paul with busta rhymes 'gimme the light' remix

How about 'we make it clap' as well

Ok, here goes;-

some days ago, this chick pulls up, right, in one of those sleek toyota two seater sports cars,  I think an RX-2, and before i colour this with my own re-conceptions, i think I  might as well just state it as it was, as it happened, and while I can not hide my own judgements, i will not say more than I have to, because i am... uncertain, for sure. And not certain about how to proceed with this, yes?
Chick looks stoned, and she is not slim, no way, slim isfat by her standards, but, fuck, I can NOT divorce everything else that happened because that is what makes her such a pleasing prospect to me, see?

After all, one has to think of the.. trinity... in this.
ok, so the woman - heck, NO BODY TELLS Me what I WANT?-  MY job, MY Score- "you were alone you pathetic psycho"?-- tells abisha she wanted some flowers, and then no, i want a ganja leaf, tomorrow, and abisha decides since he may come late, shall I do it? Ok, but I do not. She looks high, and i am not interested in doing anything for someone whose thighs seem as thick as my finger, especially since she is so hyper. Of course i do not even think of anything like a... relationship... because the chick tells abisha she wants them for her boyfriend. so, point is moot. My patience does not stretch so... much, and anyway i am not  so... in control.. these days, best to avoid things. vinnie reminds me the following day about  the woman as she walks past la parada the following day, and qwe decide to come up with a story, which we feed her, but she is quite interesting to talk to,and i find myself mellowing to her as she comes to check on our progress  and she introduces herself as michaela or at least it sounds like that, and she says her mother was jewish and that is probably where it comes from. then, when vinnie is engaged with a customer, she asks me if i want a cup of coffee, and after hesitating,  I agree, and she orders motherfucking  expensive cappucino, and we each have a cup, me and vinnie, with a  roll each, and not the customary shared cup of filter coffee. she says she is in the art business, and promotes artists, photographers and I try to steer the zulu guy her way, and she says she will try to see  what she can do for him, but her comments are decidedly slanted my way. but, she is a jew, or half thereof, but then, I think it does not matter, not really, in a way, because the woman did me a huge favour, she washed my heart of some of the bitterness that came with being overlooked every day by the overseers above, like a replay of the simonstown osc. And that made her special, especially as a day later her car was parked whole day opposite the new kings hotel. As i walked to the train station, she was driving back to S/Town, presumably, and i wanted to wave at her as she drove past, but her face looked so troubled I was like, WTF?
well, if i know wha' gwaan  with the boyfriend thing, i will be very glad to have her around, really. If she is legit, because she did me a favour, in a difficult place.
fuck, no one has an idea just how depressing it is to be the center of the fools' attention, like a monkey in a circus.

which explains why the swimmer woman with  her late coming into the fray, the daughter as well, mean something to me. Even... peaches, I suppose.

Not even Superman coulda save them with him cape coz

I really LOVE being pushed a bit, because NOW I have someone ... thinking... a bit, right, about how they should never have picked on the Don.
If they believe this rubbish, right?
like some mother thinking she can give me her kids and i will feel ... sorry... for her or some such bullshit, or that i will let some woman have HER way with me, ha?I am thinking that there exist SOME idiots that think I would actually surrender my ... unique... nature so that I can be what they want, right, or that i could be ... bound... by normal rules like you all. fuck, all the 'though shalt nots' that exist for you all, the laws, regulations and statuettes do NOT apply to the mav, because I am NOT... interested in fitting in. Fine, now you assholes can tell vinnie that I am going to have him killed in the end, but then, so will basically ALL of you, and those that do tell him get to go to hell, but I made MY promise that i would not kill him, but I can not have him die, as yet since i am working on a ... graceful exit for him.
So, it will be as I please, regardless of how anyone else wants it. But, fuck, I am tired of hitting walls and pillars in my frustration. next time, it will be a human head, and i will have THESE ones among the rest, like my fellow countryman sidney;- now if I ever wanted to beat someone to death, then that is him,m and daily I measure him out, and my time will come, yes.
YESSSSS!
now, I was... pleased... to see all them people... congregating at mike's la parada place,, because it means that I they had decided to put me in my place, and squash me like a bug, right?
but, unfortunately, I AM the champion, and that puts everyone squarely in the about-to-die spot. fuck, I had this vision, right, of a boxing ring, way back, maybe two years ago, and two people with red-heads and similar attires were fighting, but then one, who turned out to be me, decided to lie down and look up, like he was looking up to God or something, and then some woman, who looked like paula the coloured chick I wrote about, but had an... urn.. in her hand and a guy who looked like the undertaker kissed in a sort of goodbye manner, and then both started walking in a defeated way out of the arena, but then, the guy who looked like the undertaker, who had  a bag  with black, white, and yellow vertical stripes and a nose that seemed as if it was falling off, like wacko jacko's, decided to turn and look back at the ring and say, "By Saturday EVERYONE will know me, and he walked back ringside" and then he bent down on the guy who seemed to be looking up while his opponent was holding up his hands in a premature victory gesture, because the guy who was lying down suddenly projected a silhouhette of a woman,and

while it was NOT like this, it was something like it, and at the same time a trumpet seemed to come out of the guy's nose [elephant;- can NOT forget] and well, the undertaker type suddenly decided to stand up and hit the guy over the head who had burning hair and he fell down looking like his world had ended, as he looked up.
well, enough of riddles, thing is, I do NOT know what the fuck is going on, but I was... impressed ... OK, by the sister of the art chick, the david matthews woman. My point is, my curiosity can either be lethal if I turn out to be wrong, or life if I am right. Wonder which it is, because i am determined to find out, yesssss!

Talk about ... Clarity, yesss!!!

 I mean, it  does not get CLEARER than this, that after threatening a man's life because he appears involved with a woman who bothers you, the guy removes his porsche and parks it just immediately behind the CR-V of the same. I mean, 1+1 does equal two, so THAT means, man is saying, literally, "fuck you, you piece of shit!"

I like it, yessss! I LOVE clarity, oh so yessss!

when gangsters march out a serious thing

march out a serious thing

we no take chat watch  the words where you fling
we no take chat watch the words where you fling
march out a serious thing
we no take chat watch the where you fling

or no lip service thing...

me no carbon copy me nuh follow man
me bag a girl like solomon
me no preach me no Farakan
change my style everyday with a badder song
I couldnt me a must another man
inna the lion's den where you belong
when you see me yu cant step to me gang
when we are step with the sitting long
cause when we
march out....

of course, i saw the asshole as soon as i walked to vinnie's and the frizzled hair woman among his retinue like he was a king or something. Well, my choices were made clear to me then, but then, me being a man who likes a full stop, and not a comma, i decided to find out if the message being sent to me was... up yours, really, and so, I walked past the throng -fuck, the time to plaster his guts all over the walls will come soon enough, i am waiting for clarity here about the 'five', and I am hoping that I get the women I was hoping for all along, you know,  lust at first sight, so, when I do march out, it will be total war, right now i am doing recon, and crossing the lists and all that, yes?, YESSSSSS!- and was relieved to find people i hated having fun and all that. Good, I do not have to worry then, NOOOO!!!!

I am, believe it or not, having loads of fun. i am getting ... better... or worse... depending on what side you are on, and well, for the first tme i know exactly HOW this will end. Now, it is no riddle, really, and well, the clue is on what appears first on the blog:- before me there were many, after me there shall be no more, and fuck, let me put it this way, if God were to... take me away after all this, then He is essentially saying there ARE people that are more worthy than I am to be... here... and, of course that means, people, I am just a tool, and do not OWN the joint anyway, see?
BUT, if I ... own... this, then only those I approve of will remain alive, and since i am basically anti-people, then only ONE type of person will remain alive, and that is a female, white, that submits to me.
On the other hand, there are my... parents... that I could never subject to hell, and so, what do I do? run away? but if I do so, then I am NOT dominator terminator imperator, God of War, et.c, et.c., right? but if i am, then they will have something that makes them ... return to dust... and just lose consciousness and NOT burn in hell forever, see? which is what i intend to do, as a favour to them and my friends, see?
everything else can spend all of eternity in hell, see?
DO YOU SEE assholes?
ha ha
march out a serious thing
march out a serious thing....
them nuh have no courage to talk the truth
...
bomb them step inna me Osama boot
dem boy dem sell out like prostitute...
now, how do you like THAT, ha ha ha!
So, now, if I have people's undivided attention, or whatever, I REALLY would really like to know WTF is on with the toyota RAV-4 woman, because well, I am not thinking that i will be... leaving ....planet earth anytime soon or later.
And i can NOT come back to this dump without killing off even those i would rather did not end up in hell, see?
So, it would be ... nice... to put this woman's story to rest because she is one of the few women that... impressed me, and i would like to know where she stood.
oh, fuck, I am like a whatchimacallit that is unravelling here, see, and leaving only the inner skin, like a -put Swazzenegger's weird voice over here- cybernetic organism with living tissue over metal endoskeleton.
fuck, people, you were ALL dead the day i was born, and that is the literal truth.
no, i am not going to kill of everyone at once, no, i am going to taunt you, put you in corners, and exterminate you like fleas. i want you all to KNOW wjhat it feels like to know you WILL die, and then wait as the time draws near, leaving it in your hands to decide whether it will be hell or ... nothingness, ha ha!
guess there is more than justification in the statement, Gum-Boy the king of shanko, because this boy is MAD, and angry, angry, and fuck, unstoppable, and it is MY way that i will impress on you all.

Ok, I will want virgins, of course, so i must sow my seed, ahem, in days to come, so that i am happy afterwards with breast that have never been touched by anyone, and all that.

reminds me of something else, here.
remember in counting numbers i used to want to leave for mars or something?
well,  every time I ... thought of that... the, lack of water was a problem to me. Now, i am more than reasonably intellignet, and canmore than hold my own against any of your best in any academic field, and I have a practical slant to everything. Now, therefore i COULD find a way to leave the planet, but fuck, doing ... plumbing... for a bunch of women? I mean, me, making sure the waste was disposed of and breaking my back for the... comfort... of some silly people who will take it that my ... labour... is for them? ha ha, THAT will never happen. they will use the bush, of course, and i intend not to have ... too many, anyway. just a handful that will keep me happy and not become too... loose... too soon, you see, because i hate worn treads, if you get me drift. Now, try THAT on for size, sniff, sniff, sniff!!

warn dem
make it clear again
nobody pon the gully nuh afraid dem
many treat dem  like afraid a dem
so the God fir the gully nuh afraid a dem

man are rise
some  want fir see I fall
rifle  are lick up their eyeball
...
you cant fight one war you have fir fight all

OK, I really hate gloating here, see, but I can not help it. I am not interested in public opinion, and whether i am... right... or wrong...  in your views  means nothing to me, see? 
because NO ONE has rights. Now, i am either a megalomaniac or for real, and I will NOT prove myself to a bunch of self-deluded... insects... so as i can play their game, NOOOOOOO!
Fuck you!, yessss!

BUT... YESSS!!!!, OH YESSSS!!!

Snap!
Day began interestingly enough, with an encounter, two women, one of whom seems even now totally clueless as to what is about to befall her, and the other who ... seemed... not to like it, and they both, ironically, went into the olympia bakery one after the other, with the art chick doing her usual can-you-see-me routine while the good looking swimmer woman suddenly changed direction as she was about to careen full tilt into me as I was taking some pieces piecemeal from the container, and she decided to use an... alternative route into the bakery. Starting to worry if kenneth is not a little pissed off at me for all this... activity.
But the woman whose daughter i ... saw... yesterday took her time in the bakery, only coming out when i was back at the container and then driving off only after i was not in a position to confront her, in a blue golf this time. I suppose somebody IS paying attention, which is a bit of a relief because I would have hated to kill that woman, By implication, then, she must have clean hands, otherwise she would have been ... extremely... stupid, to  come my way, yesss! And Iiked the fact that she was no longer hiding out, which means I HAVE two women that are definitely on my list, yes, because she seemed extremely ... bothered, which is good, as far as I am concerned. My pride was not trampled on, and so, I am pleased, yessss!

the other interesting and good thing was that rachel's mother proved me wrong, but did so in such a noce way that even i was left laughing. She showed up, in her car, and vinnie started a running commentary that had me staring at him, like, why the fuck did you not tell me THIS before. Woman is married, guy is a professor or some such thing. Guy was not evn riding shotgun, but in the back of the mpv, and when they exited he chose the same route that the swimmer woman had chosen, and she walked up to us, and I saw the glitter of the wedding ring before she covered it all up with her coat. I was wondering if she would take me for a fool, but from where i stand, it is NOT my business to make things clear to me, but someone else's and when they all walked past and she had greeted us all and we spoke, I was left bwith no bitterness. OK, I concluded, so it is peaches herself only, then, and by implication, unless someone is extremely stupid here, she had nothing much with that guy, there was no real attachment. Or else hell, even the neighbours, theircats and dsogs and everything within a five mile radius, will be destroyed, yes. But of course, the bald-headed asshole IS dead, yesssss!

Then, of course, as usually happens, ididos made assumptions. I have no beef with tony any more, we sorted that out some days ago, he stopped looking at vinnie as his 'boy' and I agreed to go and buy some panados for him when he had a headache, so i am coo, with him, and i assume he is still worried somwhat, but heck, there is nothing here that he should worry about, and i mean that.

So, I was relaxing a bit when my day turned all sour. I did not hear the car pull up, and the only indication I had that there was someone behind me was when vinnie said, "Oh, hi mike", and I turned to see this ... very dead... guy walking past, answering in a distracted way, and he had the audacity, the nerve, the in-your-face-i-flip-the-finger ... NERVE to pack right behind me. DEAD does not even begin to cover it. I will mangle him, and i will deliver the pieces to every one of his cronies, and I will mount his head as i promised right in the middle of the art gallery, and it will NEVER open again, NOOOO!
And i will take out every one of the people he surrounds himself with, and leave none of them alive, not here nor anywhere else, and I will destroy him totally and wpe out even the memory of him from the earth. even the girls he slept with, the people he went to school with, thoise who know him, work for him, or even associate with him, NONE of them will live, because i do not even want anyone who even  remembers him to remain alive, except in special cases where I am not despised, but the rest of them assholes, strangers or those who mocked me with him, will DIE, yes!!!

Reminds me of an episode in the book, 'colour of magic' where this inn-keeper decided to set his inn on fire and collect insurance, and when he found that the cat had pissed on the tinder box, he goes damn, only to hear a voice say, HERE, TRY THIS,  and he accepts the light, and then he realises WHO it is who said that and he goes, "Oh, no", only to hear, as death swings his scythe, "But, yes" and he dies.

Guess someone just ran out of insurance here, yessssss!

SO... STUPID!!!!

I must look like a doormat for some of these assholes to wipe their feet on, or maybe, they think I actually... CARE...WTF happens to them when they blatantly ignore EVERYTHING I say and yet expect some kind of ...sympathy from me, like any of you fools gets preferential treatment. FUCK, this is MY law, that if ... ANY... womany looked my way while involved with someone, then that woman,that guy, their families, cats and dogs, ALL will die, and,since I am at the moment concentrating on you assholes currently reading my posts, then them stupid idiots will so die WITH THEIR EYES OPEN,yessss!!! Of course, just to spice it up, if said person-woman- does not come out in the open, and give me NO reason to feel slighted because she either waves at or greets other guys while giving me the silent walk-by treatment, or associates with other people to discuss me and speaks nothing at all to me, OR she leaves grey areas where her associations are concerned because she may want me to focus on her or reciprocate because I, who am neither her equal nor suffers fools, well, if woman does any of these things, then those sge does them TO as well as herself,die. However if said woman learns the error of her way and decides to accept MY terms and conditions, then I will leave her and immediate members of her family alive, but workmates, guy-friends will die, and I will spare her ONLY if there never WAS anything between them, provided I am... appeased, because I HATE sharing my ... toys. And basically, since I ...obviously... can not appeal to a woman's brain, since every day passing assures me more and more such a thing does not exist, or is being sat onit is therefore left to ME to be plain;- i currently regard women as mere toys, which unfortunately for them, will tire me out unless they do start thinking, and the twist is, there are supposed to be five of them, here, and the three elsewhere, all this so i end up with 28 women that may have put feet wrong but did not actually CROSS my line as far as MY jealousy is concerned, nooo!!! Now, the reason i entitled my post thusly is that i discovered, again, just how... stupid... some people are. It starts with that house-by-the-container woman, called carol who yesterday caused me to flare up as she and hubby came to the tidal pool, and today i quizzed vinnie about her and then later had her come up with her female companions, one of them, asiatic, being on a journey "home" tomorrow so she wanted to donate a cooler box to vinnie. Good, you will think ofthat cooler box when you and all that are yours are burning in hell, yessss!!! Then came the hubby of the small mama, and me walking away when he was making small talk with vinnie was NOT hint enough, apparently, because the sprogs came out of the woodwork also;- I mean, I am naturally anti-gays, and to think such a person would humble himself near me, when I am looking for an excuse to execute every last one of them, is... provocative, to say the least!!! But then kalk bay modern chick- that, as i saw today, is tge real name of the "contemporary art" gallery chick, decided to drive in my face again and then park nowhere near the boyfiend's la parada restaurant/whatever. Like i am supposed to be appeased by thwt rubbish. The boyfriend was, later today on his way, after whoever spies for him had told him the coast was clear, since we had closed up, and i, still at the container, saw a porsche,probably a 911 and I came to the outspaan front entrance to eyeball tge asshole, and he must have seen me, because he either flew past or he decided to.. cut corners and go up clairvaux road. MY my my, who woukd have thought a frail little thing like me woukd strike so much fear in an overconfident asshole like that, ha? Is he ... mad... or something? I mean, hello, where the fufk is that derring-do he showed when he rubbed my face in the exhaust fumes of his cars? Hmmm, or when the four of them walked all over me because they wanted me to know MY place? Well, i mean if there ever exists ANYONE that I WILL KILLwith my own hands, it is him. I am NOT going anywhere till I put his head up in his restaurant... NO...at the gallery upstairs, so he can really look down on me, yesss! However, I have had one... interesting thing happen today, and I have ... liked... it. The daughter of the swimmer woman in her japanese style hairdo drove past as me and abisha walked after vinnie to his place, and i liked tge expression on her face. Hitherto, i have looked mainly below her neck, but the tension, and i was not even- OK then i HAD sort of ... threatened even her life, by implication IF her mother WAS involved with someone, so i suppose... fear played a huge part there, which well is as it should be, becuase otherwise I would be killing people soon after leaving, so, OK what I saw was fear, but ...SUBMISSIVE... fear, not the in-your-face-you-must-change-NOT-me defiant fear of the... art chick. Got me thinking, that. I, since i have something to say to MY mother in particular and the rest of the world in general regarding parenthood, have decided that, if the mother has not ... defied me... then i WILL take both mother and daughter. Maybe even rachel. Under the same conditions although THAT is a bit of a trial. Heard HER mother IS kinda fat. Means an ass, yes? The rest, well, i am not fucking looking. Whoever FIRST pleases ME yesss!!

I KEEP BLEEDING

I AM LOOKING AT...events around me... and people... and you know or maybe you do not, for how can you, because after all you worry only about your comfort, and everything I am is diametrically opposed to your current lives, and the only reason why I do not kill everyone at this moment is my curiosity. When you were free to do as you pleased to me, mocking me, stepping on my toes, it was... FUN... right? But now people walk around in sorrow;- I have started turning away from everyone, and am seeking MY way out, and people who pursued me while married star coming out of the closet, thinking that if i see then with their SO I would feel pity and turn back from my fixed purpose and say, oh OK then let us be friends, right? The ones that i condemned to death for so mocking me DIE ,as I said. Them, their males, their ENTIRE families from the eldest relative to the newborn babe, so that there does not remain even a distant relation to keep me tossing and restless because some scum still mocks me by its continued existence in my domain. So, you thought I would be merciful and kiss the wound and say we arecool? Fuck that no one mocks me and keeps breathing, and fuck this waiting for women; i am rejecting the whole lot of them. From now on, since their silence mocks me and i make a fool of myself everytime i say, "I think THIS ONE is it" well, fuck them, they will either find their own way to me or perish for mocking me! As for me I am leaving. Can not keep on putting myself in a difficult position simply because i want to carry some bitches that i DO NOT EVEN NEED Now i prepare to leave

HOKO

Ok,so I have been thinking a bit and I Could havecgotten things wrong, because 1) God woukd NOT offer contradictions like ME wanting a woman totally divorced from her family and at the same time allowing me to have mother and child and 2) I would be... insulted if a woman came to me and brought hrdaughter along, even if said daughter was good looking. So, i guess the woman that i KNOW as married but attractive to me THEN who later followed after me and presumably wanted me to be ... some foster father, since she brought her two daughters under MY scrutiny, would be the swimmer woman, and it is HER alone, I want,, without baggage. BECAUSE i hate having to dig too deep into people's pasts or being out of the loop of some insiders' stories. The woman is NOT of course, coventionally curvy, but the firstcutis the deepest, and i liked what i saw... and it was uncomplicated. And she IS attractive, reminding me, rathercuriously, of a better version of michelle. So, if the daughter's out and the reststay as is, then i suppose i am missing ONE woman. IT IS NOT=> the smart chick, sin e her mother is dead for her presumption, casting her eye s on me while married, and i think i cantake it that thdaughterof an enemy IS an enemy,nor is it the scooter chick because I hated thewayshe hugged that guy, said a lot about howfamiliar men's arms seemed to her andso WHOEVER it is is in my past somwewhere, with a mother who is .... inclined.... towards me but will seek to .... violate something or the other, like contradict me in some way while she eggs her daughter on, because maybe I want to leave her behind or kill her? Fuck, that means only ONE person, and that makes me rather... upset because THIS bitch, BITCH BITCH has galled me so much by her actions i feel like throttling her onsight, and NOT for thefirst time, too, the silly cunt. Wonder if she willever grow brains orif she REALLY is the first totally stupid blonde i willever see? Does that mean frizzled hair is her mothet, and she with kenneth were doing protective duty the day I wanted to strangle her with their displayed wooden figurines on the pavement when I came from the library that day? Wow, they can try to restrain ... ME... and yet let that eilly stupid fool make a monkey of me every day by her provo ative actions? Fuck AM I a monkey to THEM? IINTEND TO FIND OUT, YESSS! i will not remove the HOKO that was laid:- though shalt NEVER piss off the king and getaway with your heads on yoir shouders, NOOOOO!!!

I would rather be... obeyed, feared, by the women than given their... rubbish... that they call affection

I am by nature jealous, and, well, in case you did not notice, i actually view NO ONE as even remotely equal to... me,and do not tolerate, therefore opinions different from mine. It is therefore a GOOD thing that God had me ask for 10 women that would put themselves UNDER me so that what I thought would become permissible, even to my frustrated mind. It happened, and I... suppose... that the truth of this will become apparent soon, but, of course that is not my ...point, now: I never looked for these women, or the other 10 of whom I had been given notification by the vision of the texas ranger woman on the day I met SHOPAHOLIC GIRL, the woman who I met after the decided snub by the woman allison, who for some reason wanted me as some extra to her already attached life. I have hated that allison woman, because i did not seek her, and for her to so look down on me, well, it is unoverlook-able and so, of course that woman, and those that sought me out while still being attached to some other people, well, they are dead. I am simple, uncomplicated, and like to judge according to appearance, and so hate being in an uncertain position, and the ONLY reason I may back down from killing THAT woman in euch a position would be if the woman makes it clear where she stands, and then I may spare her life, but taking her anywhere near me is something _else. Even if it turns out the contemporary art chick was NOT involved with these guys that she has pissed me off with, I do say THIS;- she HAS made me so angry that i WILL NOT have her near me. She is a person i can never trust, and she is a person whose mind, if she HAS one,is too alien for me. I can never be with any such person, and simply because she has made me so mad, i will be damned if i will leave her alive to gloat and carry on, mocking me by the mere fact of her existence. She IS irrevocably DEAD. Now, let us see who laughs last, yessss! About the others i am not sure about, I am admittedly hesitant, because i have not seen hair nor hide of the RAV4 woman, since the first time, nor have I had any satisfaction from the swimmer woman, or her daughter, nor do i know what peaches was up to with the guy she called out and as for the woman-in-blue, I am also uncertain, but not like with the others, because she may NOT be the one i would like with me. This morning (still 1 & 1/2 hrs to 2moro) i went to soak myself in water again and this curvy woman i first saw the first time who had such a nice body was there again, and I ... liked, really. But i still do not know,see?

WHAT the... fuck ... have I become?

I am NOT as I said the other time, behaving as myself, but more like a person that is under some anaesthetic,and my... antics... as I speak to people have people sometimes splitting their sides in laughter... I realise I am human and that people are responding to me, my wit,and inside I am dying,crying out,because I am finding that THESE are people, and so how can I bully them, or dispossess them of their lives,or send them to hell, or spill unwitting blood? No, I have been hurt by people, disgraced,shamed, but the angrier I get, the more self-aware I become, the more I grasp the fact that i will NEVER spill blood unless it is entirely unavoidable. All flesh, yours, is just as grass, and I suppose,if you like I could do something to totally terrify everyone and end your lives at one go, but how can I? No one has EVER made me do something I did not want to, and for a long time now i have chaffed at how... powerless ... I have been all this time, but I suppose, all I want is my freedom, the acknowledgement by people that they have to bow out of my way or rather, stop fighting me, and then my honour is saisfied, and i ignore them and proceed as i wish, unhindered. So i don't want anyone dead, unless the one is on my remarkably shortened list, and, Ok, i got almost everyone off it, after today, unless the person specifically pulled MY balls or tried to act ... "superior"... to me. Such people, like michelle, butthead, faggot face, this asshole mike, the contemporary art chick...well, they have DEAD stamped over their faces like... unchanging. Those i have let off the hook better NOT though, assume we are friends. I "never did like and i never will love fans" so, do not piss me off, OK? I will not lay waste to the world as I originally intended, but I WILL do the bare necessary to have MY way, like get rid of ... every politician in south africa, kill a few hundreds of thousands / millions of blacks and coloureds because of my people killed with NO regard, and, of course, i am emptying ALL of the USA but I am cool with the neighbours, not because i have any ...feeling... for them, but because i DO have a lot of things to say, before I can face my parents again, just so that we can kiss and make up, and then i can leave in peace. I am NOT interested in indiscriminate killing, or searching for other women, no, because if I do,it will be terror, not affection, that moves these people, and i would rather have free love. So i need to find out WHO the five women are, and while i am partial to the five i lean towards, i do not KNOW,see so i am willing to ... find out, and then ... MOVE.Guess this is who I am, yes?

MY people perish for lack of knowledge

OK, so I am sitting in vinnie's house trying to both of us finish two sharks, and this may sound rather ... inappropriate at the moment, but,while we were in the garage a few moments ealier, this guy from nigeria who is an expulsatory preacher was put on by vinnie, and he was preaching on ... faithfulness, leading to success. With jesus as the mainstay of course, and stories like namaan's healing, joseph's faithfulness till he got to be top dog, and then the fact that God takes one 'out of' something and 'into'something, and now, I am a... literal thinker. I am probably the first person to choose to walk away from my mother without at the same time abandoning her, and well, in these past few days/hours I am also somewhat ... at a loose end. Now, them five here-and-now women are all rather good looking, and they are all ... sexy... but, heck=> out of, and INTO? is there any chance that ANY of these women will see fit to actually let me INTO any of them, or is getting ...laid... something i will stillh ave to dream of?

You raise me up

GREAT MINDS THINK ALIKE so said God to me as I complained at the start of another 'musarovane' day, before addding a line from an old cartoon theme song:- Ten to one you'll never guess the way the story ends; and so I knew i wasinfor somethingg unexpected,which answered a lot of MY questions except for ONE, which I could not help thinkingof as the woman hid her wedding hand as she walked past againand this after seeing the delicious-looking daughter first, with a sort of topknot on her like some japanese warrior;-Was the woman stupid enough to come near me while even symbolically... attached? I am talking of the F/hoek swimmer lady, the only one who can be said to have been 'with child' and in an aisle, who I admired and whose daughter i aso admired, and it probably pissed her off, this bi-play till i figured, she probably figured out the singular thing, after yesterday, that i do not have to play by the rules, since in effect I am the BE-ALL-&-END-ALL when it comes to the how and what for a long time, and so she probably stuffed her pride in her pocket, went the "conclusion?" route and with a stiff upper lip-meaning she did not like doing this- she sent her daughter my way this morning.Now I am rather still... mellow,mellow, and rather detached from everything, like my brain is divorced from the rest of me, like I am drunk or something, and i am not acting as myself at all. I mean, after, for example, seeing the smart chick walking with some guy, or the contemporary art chick's "in your face" antics just before closing, or tony's continued provocative behaviour, I am actually surprised that I am rather philosophical about everything; they are DEAD of course,and I am not even worried about how they feel about it anymore, because MY priorities outweigh everything else.And I am prepared to be on Cloud Nine till I distance myself from my friend and so spare him as i unleash MY rage on the world, yesss.But there is the matter of these "5" women. I REALLY want the RAV-4 woman, the mother and her daughter, and... maybe.. the dishy number in blue, but there is NO fifth one as yet. Fuck That, there is peaches,hell, she impressed ME, AND I WANT THAT ONE. Fuck, how can I overlook That one! Insha'llah, 'it will be as God wills'...because of course His will and mine co-incide 100% and so, fools, weep, wail,gnash your teeth, the mav. is unstoppable. I mean, go figure, "a child is 'born'..." to those who dwell in darkness, and He Himself says the firstborn male among you all belongs to Him, and He told ME that He had claimed me for Himself, and this I would grasp when I stopped offering 'sacrifice' and followed His advice, "Be yourself",and so, if some shithead thought he/she had some escape clause, well, snap, shoot, pitotty poot, you have just landed a noose on your own necks, and i am the hangman. Dead is what you will be in a little while, yessss

Inna your nose

Ha ha, even if you do not like this, you WILL pay attention, because you fuck with me you are playing with your lives, and I will tell you of a crew that has so pissed me off TODAY that I have decided that ALL of them will die, even the CA-67710 woman, yess, because for some reason they do not get the simple fact that I am NOT democratic, and the days of looking for a reason NOT to kill people are long gone, NOW I am for death, only.
Ok, I will start at the top> I wake up this morning, and am given dismal... advice... "musarovane", which means , literally, do not beat each other up, and i am like, fuck THAT, I am NOT backing down today or any day, and so, I go down and get to the container, vinnie is not there, and so I go to his house, and get the keys from his wife, and then open the container,  and while i take  out the stuff this lady who hated my abrasiveness at first, called me 666, but later changed that to 'sweetie' and my love gives me two pairs of jeans, and I find my hardness momentarily evaporating, and so, I am in a better mood to handle the crap that comes my way;-vinnie arrives and we take stuff out and he suggests we go swimming, which we do, and we find the little mother at the tidal pool and i go,  'oh shit', but then decide fuck this, and I wade in and then sort of just paddle in place while I soak up the chill, and vinnie points out my 'friend' the former dead-man-walking who has come to chill with that lady, his girlfriend, apparently, and I am cool, cool cool, and then we go to the stall, I am cool, sub-zero -I know enough about god NOW to know that some disagreeable business is afoot but He has already sort of anaesthised me by the act of kindness of the coloured lady, and so i just watch, sub-zero, as I said- and tony comes up, and there i have a bit of a struggle, because i want to strangle him, but I am not in the mood, and so, I just try to ignore him, and my day is not so bad, maybe I am high or something like that, and then johno's friend, luke comes and we chat a while, and he tries to put johno in a good light, but my... sentinel... was light years ahead of him, see, because i had figured out that the 'smart chick' bought a bag from the guy, but i hated the FACT that this woman would make a fool of me by walking around with anyone else while she does not even come up to me, and so, i had long decided NOT to kill the idiot, provided he gives me no advice, I hate that, it sounds so patronising, and i hate being patronised, and then i have to listen to tony asshole sprouting a lot of nonsense about funny people God sent to kalk bay, and I am watching all that and I am like, OK, you REALLY have no idea that you are dead, do you and that NOTHING will spare you, no power on this earth, nor in heaven,because I have decided that I will END your life, and I listen to his 'think before you ink' statement and I promise myself that for every word that he has spoken he WILL answer to me, when all this nonsense is gone and he faces me as I am, with no shield, and he gazes at the face of his doom, and so, I bide my time, because my dilemna is that i do not want to destroy my friend as well, not as things are, and so, I realise that my... indifference ... is another of God's ploys to stop me from taking inadvisable action, probably because he has spent a lot of ... resources ... to get me where i am now, and so, i wait, and then the good thing of the day is that peaches comes up, and stands right before me, on the other side of the display bench, and admires the craftwork, while vinnie comments that I made the pieces that she admires, and well, she takes off her glasses and I look at her carefully for the first time, and I like what I see, and she goes and buys stuff and promises to come back to buy things, all this after she had looked hesitantly at me. Now, the girl has some ass on her, and some thighs, and i am quite mellow, mellow, melloe and in a good, detached mood, knwing i should be angry here for some reason but not, and she goes to her mother's car, and they sit and vinnie asks me to get the other shark I had framed, so he also can plaster it with beads,. and I go to the container, get the bloody thing, and as i come back, tony drives back, and again I start coming unhinged, and then I go sit down, and try to work, but my heart is not in it... . 
But some time earlier, as we came from the pool, this lady with the frizzled hair who ... seemed... -lesson number 1, never give ANYONE the benefit of the doubt, because none of the people deserve that, so, they will DIE- to pay attention to me has her bakkie parked right where i would have to pass if i cross the road, and I ignore that, because, of course, it is a free country, and all that, and so, i start displaying stuff, and vinnie goes to his house, makes some tea for us and then comes back with some, and tells me to sit and drink while it is still warm, and I do so, and the other contemporary art woman, who does not seem to get the point that there is NO ONE 'special' to me or is on some crusade against me, like, what you can do i can do also, comes and parks her car across from her shop, the CR-V, and i am sitting and facing her and she gets out, and some guy comes out and helps her take something from the overhead carrier of her SUV, and I am like, OK, this is RED, a girl with a male, code red, battle stations, the girl, is dead, but i am mellow, mellow,and I do not understand it, but i am sure i could have acted even then, but she goes into the building, and I am like, inwardly, fuck this, God, but i am like a watcher, and watching everything happen, and I am thinking to myself, well, always prefered the sister anyway, she had a better ass and less trouble with listening, and I am wondering what happened to her, but I turn my back on the whole scenario, and when I do glance that way, I DO see a David Matthews bakkie, and I am feeling nostalgic, and well, mellow,and I wonder what is up with that chick, was she married, or did she extricate herself, or maybe she was just trying her chances with me, and I find that I really want to KNOW, OK, so that I can kill her if she was playing with me, and get her if she was REALLY interested, because there is something about her..., and when I look up again the bakkie is gone, and the day passes by, and then, this chick in a blue dress passes by, with slippers in her hands, going kalk bay harbour way, and she is... shapely, and unless i am telepathic, the girl is not 'just' walking by, because I ... NOTICE... that she is looking my way, and obnoxious tony is not there, and i watch her walk past, and then have my face stuffed in it, as the idiot blonde from upstairs, in a wet suit, walks out with the bald guy that she either works with or whatever, and I decide THIS;- the woman, and all of them up there, apparently DO read my posts,and so, they KNOW whet I do not like, and so being sick of having people disagree with me and not show their true colours, I decide that I will have them all dead, and NO exception, because over THIS I will NOT negotiate, since they have NO excuse for doing as they did, and are playing with me.
the juicy lady comes back again, and I make up my mind i want to have her, and her smile as I stare in unabashed appreciation as she sways her way past is all the egging on I need.
then the smart chick comes as well, alone, with no escort,and I am at least relieved that she is getting the... sense ... of my priorities here, what I want,and how to fit in, since hers seems a difficult... path. I mean, I have decided what will happen to her family, and so, it is her choice to defy me, or obey me, because she can die, or join me, and well, i like what I see anyway, as far as she is concerned. do not know what the ... mother.... thinks i think, because she decided to also show up, with her SO.
SOS;- Same Old Shit>
Dont really give a fuck, them two are dead, as well as their faggot son. It is not something i am willing to change.

There is a song by the oliver mutukudzi, the one above whose specific lyrics are:-

kuvhima masango anorura
to hunt in sacred forests
unotokumbira muridzi
you have to ask the owner
....

hapana chisina muridzi
there is nothing without an owner

hakuna chisikwa chiri nani kupinda chimwe
there is no creature that is better than another

That is quite succinct, yes?
I mean, from MY point of view, you all are just mere creatures, and i effectively own this joint for the time it will take me to get what I want and move on, and so, for you to walk on MY sacred, or holy, or clean, or just, or plain pavement, you have to have MY say-so, which means you please ME, or you DIE, and I am the FINAL word on who lives or dies, whether you like it or not, and so, fucking deal with it. Do not really care if you live or die, because what the statement "when the crocodile eats the sun" meant was this:- my mother has her totem as 'ngewnya' which even a south african would tell you means crocodile,and so, fill in the blanks! this is all about my mother, and whatever I have to sacrifice to have my way, I will so do, and like it or not, spew forth your nonsense or do not, you WILL have to answer to THAT, because none of you matters a shit when it all comes down to the wire.

So, I DEFINITELY am decided on the RAV4 woman, and on peaches [who seems to have found her learning curve]thanks to, apparently, her mom, so I suppose I can rest easy on that mother and spare HER; am, ... "maybe"... on the smart chick, because I do not know if she is acting on her own volition or not, and am "definitely maybe" on the sexy number in blue. Undecided on any other.
now, try THAT for inna your nose!

inna your nose
inna your nose
mike we stuff it up
inna your nose
little fool
inna your nose
inna your nose 

clear

when bad man are bust up the [Capa Capa]
gone and go so waka waka
jamaican badder than the bin laden  badder than osama sama
I'm not a human
I'm a suicidal
supersonic
universal homicidal suicidal....
[you get the drift]
Right, so, now, THIS is me, yesssss!

I never wanted to say "goodbye"
i never thought it would be over...

I can not help looking back over my shoulder, though, because this chick really disappointed me, this contemporary art chick. Do not know just what she was thinking, but i guess familiarity breeds contempt, or REALLY some blondes are just too stupid for words. Well, like the song goes, it was over in a minute when [he] tried to match the ranger with a big iron on his hip

I am the ranger, and the outlaws better watch out, because I am the law:-

he might have gone on living

but he made one fatal slip

when he tried to match the ranger with the big iron on his hip

warn dem

tell dem again

nobody fir the gully nuh afraid a dem...

so the God fir the gully nuh afraid a dem

you cant fight one war you have fir fight all...

Enough of the melodrama, THIS is my type of song:-

a chat them are chat

yap them are yap

gully side we are action pak

we no coos coos me nuh wear frock

gully side we are action pak

tell then anything are anything

any dj any scene

any vocal every string

fir rise again start this are heavy scene

mama  tell me say "son make your peace keep your karma

i'm getting old and me cant take the drama"

yeah but who sell me out are informer...

mavado, yessss

This is the part Capetonians say "damn", because the ... FURY... is NOW unleashed, yessssss!

Well, assholes, you are DEAD, yesssss!
AS I live and as I am about to do everything I have said, none of you who have seen the softer side of me and scorned my offer to walk away while you still could will live to see many more sunrises, this I declare.

ha ha, you remember the statement "Government Thor:- Cape Flats"!, well, I was always wondering when people would come down to MY level and think and reason as I do, but I never, ever assumed that the day would come when I finally decided, "to hell with this, I have had enough, it is time to take on everyone and everything and engage in battle, to kill, to destroy and to spare NONE but such as i choose.
DAY HAS COME.
Unlike in the movie, though, it is not just one statement that got me off, it was like the WHOLE day was set to piss me off, and I swallowed some, but seeing that smug asshole sitting there, in his car, eyeballing me and me wondering just how much of this bullshit I will take for my friend's sake, and I just decided that i would not take any more.
asshole comes up to vinnie in the morning and asks what the fuck we were doing at la parada, and I am like, fuck his concern with that? Do we have to answer to that asshole for everything? Fuck that! When vinnie wanted me to move because abisha had come with one of his numerous girlfriends and therefore there were too many people, according to the asshole's rules, I decided I would not. And stayed put. Only to have the shithead say to vinnie it was because I was eyeing the girls bare thighs, when I have strenuously or maybe NOT so strenuously stated my sexual preferences. A black girl would bring so many  memories flooding back that I would have no rest as far as my mother is concerned. if i flirt with the girls, I am doing just that, and there is nothing serious about it.
then of course, the asshole that is vinnie's landlord walks past, only to come back with the 'smart chick' making a beeline for his house, and tony, always ready to put in his two cents worth, looks my way and says, "prostitute", and I let that ride, for a while, and then I start wondering just waht the fuck is going on, and I make my way to vinnie's under the pretext that i am looking for vinnie, only to meet the tow alking bak, and the idiot johno greets me. It is his last statement that has made me decide that he has MY mark on him, that he is a dead man, "brother, take it easy", like I am, ONE, his brother, or TWO, I need to stop being so... uptight.

It is WAR, WAR, WAR!

as for the 'smart' chick, well, if she had any brains then she would know that coming anywhere NEAR me, with even a whiff of another male on you, regardless of whether it is a  brother, cousin, father or friend, is cause for instant enmity between me and you, and so, you WILL die for that, as I promised, because the gully God takes NO nonsense from any shithead.

 ha ha ha

Gully God

Every gully

 me have the power still

warn dem

make it clear again

nobody pon the gull nuh afraid a dem

warn dem

man treat like me fear  a dem

so the God pon the gully nuh afraid a dem

tell them again

warn dem

nobody pon the gully nuh afraid a dem

But that was not all. At least THIS was not so... bad... maybe the only thing that made me stop being more explosive than I had intended to. Yesterday, after looking the spots of a typical red head who reminded me of the scooter chick, I decided that i did NOT want to have someone LIKE that anywhere near me. I would end up being irritated by those spots, and anyway, a girl that tony beggar has the hots for is someone that automatically makes it on my "DO NOT" list.
so, the woman from near the container shows up when i was helping this sister taking her stuff from the container and she is standing at vinnie's with two other women, and I looka at her and she and one other both ask me if i am vinnie's brother> I say no, his friend, and then she says she was just looking at the stuff ans she introduces herself, but i notice the flash of a ring on her left hand and i get no chance to see which finger it is on on this carol's hand, and i let it go, because it is NOT my business to find things out, it is the woman's job to satisfy ME of what is going on, something this stupid blond contemporary art chick- who, because I complained yesterday, since i knew that part of the reason she parked her car alongside la parada was that she wanted me to see the car while she observed the effect from above, somehow can not seem to grasp because today the car was parked across the road and out of my direct line of sight.
i mean, fuck, these five women make it rather difficult for me to have an street cred, because they obfuscate everything and make me look bad in the process, this carol chick, peaches,  the contemporary art chick, the 'smart' chick, and of course the invisible toyota RAV4 woman.
i am starting to look like a real asshole here, and I really , really dislike that.

REALLY.I am starting to think that i will just kill everyone here, fuck

weh dem a do
weh dem a try

marrow will fly high into the sky
gun me nuh borrow
me money buy
smarty will die...
warlord


me nuh take talk

Of course, I mean, it is UNFORGIVE-ABLE that the smart chick's mother did as she did knowing she was involved with someone, and well, that means BOTH of them are dead, the woman and the man, and as for the moffie, i am damned if I leave a single ONE alive, on THIS planet, at THIS time. Hell, NO, that is an insult on nature.
so all homos that obama espoused and said they did not conflict with his beliefs, heck, they are dead, every living one, on this planet.
and, well, aside for the ... other races... asiatics or descendants thereof... currently in africa, specifically in cape town, I am killing off every single one, occidental, oriental, or whatever, in every other place. There will be only two places that have people residing, the southernmost part of africa, encompassing zimbabwe and ... well... the southern peninsular, cape town proper, et.c.,  because i still need the airfield, but everything else will be razed to the ground, and to me it does not matter WHO is... the daughter [ha, tony!]... because if the father has pissed me off, i do not need permission from anyone to rip the person apart. Guess, asshole you stepped right into it. Your head will be the last thing your son and wife see, as I hold it aloft> I told you that you are dead, and you thought I was like you. You mistook my regard for my friend for fear, but now, the hands are bared, and I will kill you, with MY hands, shithead!

My anger does NOT need to be manged, or to controlled> I said I was trying hard not to let it out, but what the fuck, why be something I am not. I will kill everyone that has pissed me off, even those that have not, and I am NOT going to count the cost, hell, NO!
Prepare, assholes to be consumed, because the motherfucking champion is on the rampage, yes!
oh, almost forgot. I must speak the words, and so, here they are.
the end is here, people will NOW start dying, and this time there will be NO stopping it.

Of course, the jews, everywhere, and all those other black people will die, everywhere. I will save a handful only, and if these are dazed for a few days so that I am relatively free to move about while they are still trying to get their wits about them, good, because i am ... THINKING...- being a person who is a perfectionist and not able to tolerate the least pretense, I would probably kill THEM as well if I had to encounter them, fuck, you have NO idea just how vengeful I am, idiots- that i need  to be able to get  them out of the way before i destroy them and with them my only reason NOT to empty the continent of ALL life, my mother included. And thus negate my reason for ever being... here... anyway.
vinnie and his family, and some others, like abisha, and some people that did not look down on me and despise me because they judged by ... appearance. Ok, then, i get what God was saying about the contrmporary art frizzled hair woman. She, without having had any dealings with me, took my words to heart, or something, and so, of course, she will probably move out of the way, unlike those others who decided to take me on. I guess the ONLY person who did face me and then back off who will live, aside from some women, will be the ... once... dead-man-walking, but as for the rest, I will happily send them to hell, yes!
to give my mother a taste of my RAGE, I am doing something that NO ONE has ever done or ever though could happen in THIS time, I am having my uncles, h.r.mashora and eland Ndlovu, the two soldiers who were the only people that gave me a shelter from her tormenting as a child, brought back to life, to make her know just how I could easily have snuffed HER life and ended it  and done as i pleased, but i could never forget the... other things as well. Though I was never sickly as a child, and never had a broken bone, nor cried to her or acted as  spoiled child in any way, yet from where I stood, she did NOT have to do the things she did. just as my father washed his hands of his family and just watched us while she struggled, she could also have done nothing, but I have never seen a woman who was so tireless in her efforts to shoulder a burden that was not to her liking> I owe her, and I can not pay that back, even in a million lifetimes, and THAT is the reason I am walking away, see?
Oh, and this means fuck-all about OTHER people's mothers. I suppose the only totally intact family that I will leave alive and their nearest, is that of my friend.
Because I owe him as well. No one takes in a person that was as heavy of tread and as bent on destruction as me and refuses to let go as he did. But now, if he continues to hold on to me while i transform, then he will die as well, and well, the new day is here, and I, by MY nature , can NOT back down as i seek out MY enemies, but the only way to do so now is with him THERE, which I do not want. No, there must be another way out, where I am not attached to him materially in any way so that what happens is like the blietz-krieg, I strike like lightning from somewhere else and he is left dazed, but alive, him and his family.
because i pay my debts, both good and bad. yessss!
now, try stopping me, assholes, yes!  


Just to cap it all off, try THIS on for size, see?
Last night vinnie made some trees, did not want me to come to wynberg and so left me in the idiot's garage with the tablet because we were supposed to later sell them, with lights, as we walked the streets.
That is why I was at la parada. My wars I fight alone, with no witnesses or backup. But as walked, God made me a promise, which I saw start coming true that very same night, that there would be change.
I was at vinnie's having supper after we sold a tree at la parada, when I realised that the crocodile MUST have eaten the sun, because I can see as well as i ever did. As for what remains in my pants, guess that is not gonna be the same for too long, yes?
i am healing, because finally, I have let go my mother, and I am thinking rationally, and completely. So, beware, the lion has slipped the leash.
Now,
THE GOD OF WAR is here!