Fortunately, for me, I HAVE done the whole theory bit, and the following should not only explain WHY in the end there shall be only ONE, but also, WHY Alaska is about to be made devoid of its permafrost, its ... whats the word for natural lifeforms? "biodiversity"...; and WHY I will turn the hearts of the fathers to the children, and WHY I will start killing people and WHY I will have many women, and WHY obama is about to die, and et.c.
Now, where do I start?
Let me begin by saying that, basically, all the problems we have NOW could be traced to one simple thing: SEX. in its various connotations.
I am a man, but I had no idea I was different from others till God, after He... happened, said pretty much the first thing He ever did to me; quoting that poem by whatsisface, "What tangled webs we weave, when first we learn to deceive", and that was because, after my initial ... approach... to a woman because I assumed she was looking at me because she somehow ... fancied me... and would be open about it, and the resultant humiliation when my mother had to be involved, I had turned my back on women, but felt that, like anyone else, I needed one, especially when a pretty girl showed up at school, and after she had rejected me because of my ugliness, she was won over after reading an English composition of mine [she was made class-monitor, and so had to hand in books], and gave me the speculative look that I once saw on my mother's fgace as she apparently decided i could be... useful.
funny enough, knowing all that, I thought it was to be my lot to get involved with a girl whom I despised for despising me, and was making plans to lie my way into her pants when God spoke.
Ended up stealing about a thousand books from the public library to... settle my nerves. I let her go, though.
Then I started observing people, or rather started acknowledging what made people tick, and was surprised to come up with the conclusion, which I will carry over to the proper, definitive scientific proving; that no man ever proposes to a woman because he loves her, but because he wants to humiliate her.
No man gets a woman pregnant unless he hates her, and there is NO love in parenting.
Which may be why I wrote, before, that I do not recognise either marriage or parenthood.
Now, my work in proving the above will be how i turn the hearts of the fathers to the children, because every man will have to acknowledge that at the moment he ejaculated, and caused the woman to conceive, he WAS in effect, expressing his hatred of the woman.
So, am I different?
HELL YESSSS!
I'm the only person EVER, by dint of God's involvement in my life from its beginning, who CAN NOT hide what he is feeling, and who is in... tandem... with his inner self.
What you see is what you get, there is no hidden clauses with me. If i dislike a person , I will never... [at least not now; before I did it because I was up to using anything just to die, and so, as I could not, I ended up having to leave it all as a bad job and be honest to myself, and be myself, as God said He wanted from me]... hide it, I will show it.
Unfortunately, or more to the point, FORTUNATELY, I can not LOVE a woman, because, again, of the circumstances of my birth; I am born, unwanted by my mother who would have prefered children she got from some other guy, and so, because I realised that this was how things went, I never tried to get a solid grip on life, and lived... live... each day with the knowledge that with the way things are going, I am going to ... prejudice my parents of THEIR lives and remain alive, when I do not think it RIGHT to do so, but rather that I die and they live.. only God does not see it that way, so I am FORCED to live and make changes that WILL make it a fait accompli that people will die.
So, in that context, having a respect for others' lives, when I have none for myself is an impossibility; how can I love my neighbour as myself when i do not love myself, but am kept alive because of the ... physical... interposition of God Himself?
So, count love out. But that does not mean I can not have sex. Which is why, of course, I will have a lot of women, with the proviso that none of them remind me by their actions,of my mother; if THAT is observed, then I can have a lot of them.
My heart will never be with the women, of course, because as far as i can see, nothing is greater than my death-wish, except God, and so, my heart will remain with HIM.
Also, because this... sexual hate... does not just occur with people but with every animal or sexually reproductive creature, at the end, all these shall be... gone.
And there wont exist a single creature that can procreate.
Showing WHY God allowed this to happen to begin with will be the APEX of my 'academic' endeavours, as I show the mind of God to people who will NOT benefit by it, because every word of mine will be just doom upon doom to them.
So, I am going to be... shaking things up, YESSS, and, because I can not... relent, then the fools who have angered me will have to die.
Thinking of, while I learn to fly a Concorde, getting myself my own smithy, and getting my hands on some tungsten, that hard metal, and fashioning a sword from it, like a Katana blade, and then, as soon as I come back... heads will roll.
Literally.
I have license to kill. I have license to do EXACTLY as I please, because, unlike all of you, what I imagine I can and will bring to pass, just as soon as I finish the theoretical planning.
Well, guess what, the planning is finished.
Now the clock are strike war!
