Song goes:-
You hear strike one
talk about strike two
wont be a strike three
coz I dont play fair
You hear strike one
talk about strike two
wont be a strike three
coz I dont play fair
For the first time ever, I FULLY empathise with God, because for the first time ever, I am in a position to really see why He said;-
I will never again destroy the earth for the man's sake, because the imagination of man's heart is evil from his youth.
The guy, Noah, saw what was happening with his grandfather, father and all the males choosing to sleep with animals, and loathed it, and when God told Him to build an ark, he agreed, but waited -you can do the math- till five years after his father had passed away to complet a thing that should NOT have taken 100 years to build.
His mentality was that God must first of all deal with the issue of his father, because he probably could NOT afford to carry on and openly rebel against his father unless there was something done about him.
he would obey God, but ONLY if God did NOT have to have him stand up and deal with issues where his father's open contempt could be felt.
he wanted to play it safe.
There, I have to deal with MYSELF a bit, although that is NOT the reason I am... bitter.
I would cheerfully have killed my own father long ago, and he is the reason why I took up fighting to begin with, to protect my mother, till I realised that my mother was even worse than him, because while he was unsure, and I think, regarding my ... third sister... with reason, that we were his kids, although of course anyone seeing me would not doubt that i amflesh of his flesh ;- i may be uglier, but I am a copy of the guy.
And I have no heistation about him dying, no sir, or his wife either, because the world is NOT big enough to house the three of us.
BUT, I will NOT let anyone else poke fingers at them, so, they, and my sisters, and my two female cousins, my nephew Delight, and curiously, the ONLY person that I have no malice against, sydney, will HAVE to die,but NOT go to hell.
Because I have the RIGHT to decide what happens, see?
But, every black person, every coloured person, will have to die, and every woman that I have ever said i would like in my life, (because I can NOT afford to turn my back on anyone) and decided NOT to choose afterwards. Rumble can take care of all that.
And, of course, those I choose to... kill... personally, all go to hell.
And there is NO turning back about THAT!
BUT, this is about MY bitterness, and the fact that there, apparently are NO women worth .... doing things for.
ALL of the twenty women, when I sat back and looked at them, and ... SAW... their needs, filled me with despair,because THEIR minds were crystal clear about what I was ... needed to do.
Take care of THEIR problems, first, and then give them my back so they can walk all over that.
I am actually supposed to go... after them,which is why they did their curious acts and then ... waited for me to re-act, and come after them.
When the point to all this is I am NOT ... the type... to run after anyone.
Over the weekend, my heart was sore, because I realised that what I had seen that other Sunday was actually what it was;- that although the sexy woman, number 18, WAS divorced, she had NOT broken ties with her ex., and the body language of the guy as he walked past, the frustration written all over him (he MUST have been VERY frustrated to give her two kids in such a short time) and the way she had a curiously stiff back as she walked on by, as if to say she was waiting for a dart from me to pierce her back, spoke volumes.
You humans do not know that whatever lie you tell, you always give yourselves away, because you are NOT designed to lie, and while I knew that God would NOT have referred her to me if she was even on... kissing terms with the guy, I found out the grim truth all the same, that no woman is worth the bother, because they always let you down.
every single one of them.
I will never again destroy the earth for the man's sake, because the imagination of man's heart is evil from his youth.
The guy, Noah, saw what was happening with his grandfather, father and all the males choosing to sleep with animals, and loathed it, and when God told Him to build an ark, he agreed, but waited -you can do the math- till five years after his father had passed away to complet a thing that should NOT have taken 100 years to build.
His mentality was that God must first of all deal with the issue of his father, because he probably could NOT afford to carry on and openly rebel against his father unless there was something done about him.
he would obey God, but ONLY if God did NOT have to have him stand up and deal with issues where his father's open contempt could be felt.
he wanted to play it safe.
There, I have to deal with MYSELF a bit, although that is NOT the reason I am... bitter.
I would cheerfully have killed my own father long ago, and he is the reason why I took up fighting to begin with, to protect my mother, till I realised that my mother was even worse than him, because while he was unsure, and I think, regarding my ... third sister... with reason, that we were his kids, although of course anyone seeing me would not doubt that i amflesh of his flesh ;- i may be uglier, but I am a copy of the guy.
And I have no heistation about him dying, no sir, or his wife either, because the world is NOT big enough to house the three of us.
BUT, I will NOT let anyone else poke fingers at them, so, they, and my sisters, and my two female cousins, my nephew Delight, and curiously, the ONLY person that I have no malice against, sydney, will HAVE to die,but NOT go to hell.
Because I have the RIGHT to decide what happens, see?
But, every black person, every coloured person, will have to die, and every woman that I have ever said i would like in my life, (because I can NOT afford to turn my back on anyone) and decided NOT to choose afterwards. Rumble can take care of all that.
And, of course, those I choose to... kill... personally, all go to hell.
And there is NO turning back about THAT!
BUT, this is about MY bitterness, and the fact that there, apparently are NO women worth .... doing things for.
ALL of the twenty women, when I sat back and looked at them, and ... SAW... their needs, filled me with despair,because THEIR minds were crystal clear about what I was ... needed to do.
Take care of THEIR problems, first, and then give them my back so they can walk all over that.
I am actually supposed to go... after them,which is why they did their curious acts and then ... waited for me to re-act, and come after them.
When the point to all this is I am NOT ... the type... to run after anyone.
Over the weekend, my heart was sore, because I realised that what I had seen that other Sunday was actually what it was;- that although the sexy woman, number 18, WAS divorced, she had NOT broken ties with her ex., and the body language of the guy as he walked past, the frustration written all over him (he MUST have been VERY frustrated to give her two kids in such a short time) and the way she had a curiously stiff back as she walked on by, as if to say she was waiting for a dart from me to pierce her back, spoke volumes.
You humans do not know that whatever lie you tell, you always give yourselves away, because you are NOT designed to lie, and while I knew that God would NOT have referred her to me if she was even on... kissing terms with the guy, I found out the grim truth all the same, that no woman is worth the bother, because they always let you down.
every single one of them.
Which makes me think that I would rather have ... women that are easy to have, and this is where the 'terms and conditions apply';- I am willing to let people remain alive in RSA, even those of their kids who are NOT among those I have put on my 'death list' [either because they are femnales I salivated over or because they pissed me off] and leave everyone else alive who is a stranger to me and does not know me, if of course those women who are... interested and gave out the... subtle signals, will come out.
Like, for exaple, I have had to... think... that allison came out, plenty of times, and even did that driving-by thing when I last was in S/Town, and to then assume that she was... involved... with the guy she showed up with, waited till i walked into the library before walking with him to the ID place (the reason why I saw her at all was that i turned at the entrance and saw her walking off, and glancing at her watch, with the guy with her, and then showed up near me, and I gave her a baleful stare, and shge walked off, and I walked to the toilet to wash my face, in disbelief at her audacity;- well, maybe she assumed I was running after her, and then came back with the guy, and they were all over each other, and I wanted to strangle her.
The ONLY reason i am even looking at her at all is that, seeing that God seems to homour me above everything else, I HAD asked Him not to let me be humiliated, and if they are involved, then He would not have shown Himself as ... serious as He says, so...
Then there is butt-head's mom. If she was so... totally engrossed with her kids, she wouldNOT have been after me, but it appears she wanted me to ... take care of her kids, and then free her, but it is NOIT going to be that way. Her offspring are all dead
And she herself also if I have to leave her alive.
And the Latino chick,who showed up on Wednesday and tied her dog to a tree conspicuously in Kalk Bay.
And the ... diffident come-to-st-peters woman, who I passed -with her daughter? a few moments ago as they waylaid me at the beach. Well, both are welcome, if the one is NOt yet a woman.
And the inkfish French girl, who gave me a hint that she was NOt with the guy by taking off her glasses.
Of course, I CAN change and just kill off everyone anyway. I am ticking like a time bomb, and there wont be strike three!
I do NOT play fair
Like, for exaple, I have had to... think... that allison came out, plenty of times, and even did that driving-by thing when I last was in S/Town, and to then assume that she was... involved... with the guy she showed up with, waited till i walked into the library before walking with him to the ID place (the reason why I saw her at all was that i turned at the entrance and saw her walking off, and glancing at her watch, with the guy with her, and then showed up near me, and I gave her a baleful stare, and shge walked off, and I walked to the toilet to wash my face, in disbelief at her audacity;- well, maybe she assumed I was running after her, and then came back with the guy, and they were all over each other, and I wanted to strangle her.
The ONLY reason i am even looking at her at all is that, seeing that God seems to homour me above everything else, I HAD asked Him not to let me be humiliated, and if they are involved, then He would not have shown Himself as ... serious as He says, so...
Then there is butt-head's mom. If she was so... totally engrossed with her kids, she wouldNOT have been after me, but it appears she wanted me to ... take care of her kids, and then free her, but it is NOIT going to be that way. Her offspring are all dead
And she herself also if I have to leave her alive.
And the Latino chick,who showed up on Wednesday and tied her dog to a tree conspicuously in Kalk Bay.
And the ... diffident come-to-st-peters woman, who I passed -with her daughter? a few moments ago as they waylaid me at the beach. Well, both are welcome, if the one is NOt yet a woman.
And the inkfish French girl, who gave me a hint that she was NOt with the guy by taking off her glasses.
Of course, I CAN change and just kill off everyone anyway. I am ticking like a time bomb, and there wont be strike three!
I do NOT play fair
