More I get to know about God, the more unreasonable His stance towards me seems, because He is unlike anything I expected. I am as amused by THAT as I always am.
So, yesterday, while counting down time and waiting and telling myself that I have till about 5pm today and then I get to send everyone else off to hell, I had to climb the mountain again, at night, after the rain had eased a bit, and I remember grousing to God that, hell, everyone was in their fancy houses and living their fancy lives and I am stuck sleeping in a kak place all because He is the Asshole that will NOT take offense at me nor let me die, or prosper in the simple things in life.
He answered me this morning that I actually DO have my own place. Once I had looked at yesterday's date and figured out what date it was, and the meaning of several things He had said to... me.
I am probably the ONLY person that does NOT look up to God or defer to a higher power in anything, naturally.
Deepset eyes my ass!
I go by what I see, and blame God for what goes wrong because, from my viwepoint, if He had let me die from the beginning as I should have, then it would never have come to this. I never asked Him for life, and I will NEVER thank Him for it, because I do not WANT it.
However, He has a ... point.
I have some people to displace from that continent and country, and set m,yself up and send my mother insulting messages that will make her writhe to her core while at the same time she will be unable to ignore them lest somehow I just decide to NOT wait till the 7n years are pfulfilled and then kill her anyway.
See, I have a dilemna here.
I could, I guess, find a way off-planet, and be able to live in outer space and so NOT have to end the lives of the few people that I have come to care for:- yeah, right! Just FYI, people, you are all dead and just do not know it, I am in the process of educating you about it, but most of you, because we rubbed each otyher the wrong way or because I do not know yopu or beacuse I know you and just do not care, well, you die ... NOW, and the rest, well, at the end when I find out whether or not it IS possible to exist independent of the earth. I have a feeling that I will ultimately fail, but it takes a .... LONG time for me to change my direction in anything so, well, I will give it a shot.
But I want to go back to zim first.
For my stomach.
See, unlike anyone else, I have the unfair, unreasonable ability to DO excatly as I please, if I just STOP thinking that (I have to answer to anyone, even to God for my acftions. I am sure them fools were all gloating and congratulating themselves when I came from prison and wrote that pice which had the title, "when he does wrong I will correct him", like maybe I was acknowledging that I was nin the wrong and God was right to send me to prison. Yeah, right. God has been correcting me the same way from the beginning, He tells me, when I grumble about how this or that is NOT right, whay I am in that mess anyway, and what it will take for me to get out of it, or when. He does not take a whip and ex-amine me, NO, because I am the king of the earth, and well, kings rule, I do not lead, I RULE, which is why it is inherentoly IMPOSSIBLE for me to actually TEACH anyone anything about life, or behaviour, or stuff, I just come to put a fiery fullstop to it all, with judgement, and this is the thing;- till NOW, I have not grasped the simple truth that I am the one limiting myself by giving God room to act, when in effect I am, and will always be, the one with all the power.
So, that endd. I am fed up with waiting on stuiff and people, I am moving out. I will kill , umm,all of you, and since I am now resigned to a celibate life since the closest person to a suitable mate turned out to be damaged goods with neither a conscience, nor shame nor a spine of her own, to at least make a stand for herself one way or the other, there will be well, very few people left alive in the area when I depart, first for Zim via a roundabout route;- I need to see this South Africa's Largest Telescope [SALT], and get a feel for space and all that, and then retrace my steps, but behind some wheels now;- no nothing fancy, I have decided to stick to what is relevant only, liike a Nissan Hardbody, the woman and her ilk took away my craving for fancy cars, and anyway, these things pollute the earth, I will have to come up with something better for myself if I am to remain to enjoy the fruit of this earth... alone.
dust to dust,
if you dont use it
its going to rust .
I am talking avbout my unique capabilities as far as dominion is concerned.
So, prepare to burn, and the rest, I will squash and kill on my own, and then move on, yeahsss!
He answered me this morning that I actually DO have my own place. Once I had looked at yesterday's date and figured out what date it was, and the meaning of several things He had said to... me.
I am probably the ONLY person that does NOT look up to God or defer to a higher power in anything, naturally.
Deepset eyes my ass!
I go by what I see, and blame God for what goes wrong because, from my viwepoint, if He had let me die from the beginning as I should have, then it would never have come to this. I never asked Him for life, and I will NEVER thank Him for it, because I do not WANT it.
However, He has a ... point.
I have some people to displace from that continent and country, and set m,yself up and send my mother insulting messages that will make her writhe to her core while at the same time she will be unable to ignore them lest somehow I just decide to NOT wait till the 7n years are pfulfilled and then kill her anyway.
See, I have a dilemna here.
I could, I guess, find a way off-planet, and be able to live in outer space and so NOT have to end the lives of the few people that I have come to care for:- yeah, right! Just FYI, people, you are all dead and just do not know it, I am in the process of educating you about it, but most of you, because we rubbed each otyher the wrong way or because I do not know yopu or beacuse I know you and just do not care, well, you die ... NOW, and the rest, well, at the end when I find out whether or not it IS possible to exist independent of the earth. I have a feeling that I will ultimately fail, but it takes a .... LONG time for me to change my direction in anything so, well, I will give it a shot.
But I want to go back to zim first.
For my stomach.
So, that endd. I am fed up with waiting on stuiff and people, I am moving out. I will kill , umm,all of you, and since I am now resigned to a celibate life since the closest person to a suitable mate turned out to be damaged goods with neither a conscience, nor shame nor a spine of her own, to at least make a stand for herself one way or the other, there will be well, very few people left alive in the area when I depart, first for Zim via a roundabout route;- I need to see this South Africa's Largest Telescope [SALT], and get a feel for space and all that, and then retrace my steps, but behind some wheels now;- no nothing fancy, I have decided to stick to what is relevant only, liike a Nissan Hardbody, the woman and her ilk took away my craving for fancy cars, and anyway, these things pollute the earth, I will have to come up with something better for myself if I am to remain to enjoy the fruit of this earth... alone.
I think that if I get myself some of the choice indigenous food and fruit from my land and am able to transplant it elsewhere for the meantime, I may even be able to forget about women, and just live my life one meal at a time, while worjking on new inventions and cursing God loudly while hoping that someday I can invent something that will enable me to escape from the planet and thus say to Him that it would have been easier to just let me depart to begin with and let everyone live.
Yeah, I have dreams, but right now, I have the ways and means, and well, ashes to ashes,dust to dust,
if you dont use it
its going to rust .
I am talking avbout my unique capabilities as far as dominion is concerned.
So, prepare to burn, and the rest, I will squash and kill on my own, and then move on, yeahsss!
