One THING I have never thought could happen is actually happening to me, and the reason for that is simple; I have finally figured out that simply because I hate someone, can not stand him or her, want him or her dead, and want that person to KNOW it, does not mean I have to make a fool of myself in the process. I have developed, slowly and gradually, a measure of self respect, and I figure that when it conmes really down to it, I mean, REALLY, no one matters that much to me. Frankly, words can not express just how very little I DO care for the well being of anyone.
Lets face it, I am either dying if hiv and so am not a catch for anyone, and so, anyone with a modicum of sense should stay away from me, because where is the future in that, OR God is the ONE that is keeping me impossibly alive. hell, I could have lied all this time, made up stories about how I tried to kill myself when in effect I never had the guts, and so, when it comes right down to it, the question begs an answer, "why would anyone go online and state the things he stated unless he really, really did not give a fuck about what anyone thinks of him?"
because all the other times, I let my anger get the better of me, I wanted to get even, and play the game acording to others' rules, and that is why I have ended up so ... low.
Not anymore.Frankly, I have only one rule in my life, and that is to do things the way I want them, and not to ever do them as anyone else may want them, because if someone else wants things in a certain way, then that person had better take charge of their own destiny and do something for themselves.
I am taking charge of MY own life, and I have decided the things I decided, and I see no reason to change any stance I have taken on anything, because when it comes to a conflict area, and someone decides that I ought to do 'b' instead of 'a', my question is and has always been, "who the fuck are YOU to tell me what to do?" Only God tells me what to do, and He is impossible NOT to listen to because He has my life wrapped up and tied into everything with a cord that I can not break.
I am a reluctant .... living being, and so, whatever issues of life you may have and think I ought to stick to, well, my answer is simple, fuck you, I never did like and i never will love fans
Lets face it, I am either dying if hiv and so am not a catch for anyone, and so, anyone with a modicum of sense should stay away from me, because where is the future in that, OR God is the ONE that is keeping me impossibly alive. hell, I could have lied all this time, made up stories about how I tried to kill myself when in effect I never had the guts, and so, when it comes right down to it, the question begs an answer, "why would anyone go online and state the things he stated unless he really, really did not give a fuck about what anyone thinks of him?"
because all the other times, I let my anger get the better of me, I wanted to get even, and play the game acording to others' rules, and that is why I have ended up so ... low.
Not anymore.Frankly, I have only one rule in my life, and that is to do things the way I want them, and not to ever do them as anyone else may want them, because if someone else wants things in a certain way, then that person had better take charge of their own destiny and do something for themselves.
I am taking charge of MY own life, and I have decided the things I decided, and I see no reason to change any stance I have taken on anything, because when it comes to a conflict area, and someone decides that I ought to do 'b' instead of 'a', my question is and has always been, "who the fuck are YOU to tell me what to do?" Only God tells me what to do, and He is impossible NOT to listen to because He has my life wrapped up and tied into everything with a cord that I can not break.
I am a reluctant .... living being, and so, whatever issues of life you may have and think I ought to stick to, well, my answer is simple, fuck you, I never did like and i never will love fans
so listen me
matter how them mimic and them gimmic me
tell them they can not stop me synergy
them can not really limit me
those who player hate and keep on dissing me
tell them say they can not stop my energy
I'm giving tham the trinity
I'm giving tham the trinity
