I have been taking stock of my life and there is NO way that someone, if he were to describe me, would call me a "decent" guy.I have words that spring to mind, and none of them are complimentary, and well, the funny thing was that, growing up, I thought I was a pretty decent guy!
I am by no means rich, but if rich is being able to pick and choose and discard what you do not want, and what with everything I got up to, and the fact that despite all my shenanigans I am quite shameless about it all, I could say that yeah, what with the ark thing, I am probably , in a way rich and shameless.
Of course, to you people, it makes no sense how God, the Almighty, could allow such an aberration like me to prosper, and keep on sprouting nonsense, but the fact of the matter remains, that me and God, we have a thing going. Forget a staid and regular life when you explode and yell at God, "God, what do You want from me?!" and He answers, "Be Yourself", and of course, it is a well known fact that God does not tell you to do things that He can not empower you to do, and so, me quitting university because there was NO way I was going to labour to please my mother when I felt my own life stymied, and then me deciding I will test this hold God has on me by seeing if I can not break it, even at the cost of my life, and THEN... of course, the women, that very sordid part of my life that I am sure everyone agrees ought to land me in the coldest darkest cell in the worst prison... and well, God is cool with that, I am free, and I am thinking, hell, I want everybody dead, why the fuck are they still alive, and all I want to do is get gone, so I can finally be busy and DO something with myself that involves using my idle mind...
But yes, the women!
So there I am, infected the previous year, hiv positive and therefore in no way supposed to be INVOLVED with a woman, if things were run normally, and human decency prevailed, and God sends a vision of my cousin, my favourite cousin, holding a book... bla bla, and so, I go ... looking. Technically I sort of figured one should blame God for encouraging me in falsehoods, and when I do end up entangled with this woman, two years younger than me and a single mother, I am, after a while, blaming God for saddling me with this silly bitch and He defends Himself- no word about the fact that I should NOT be having sex with that woman( what kind of animal am I?) and then speaks about His yoke and my yoke and concludes with the Isaiah 6 statement, which the bible readers will find, speaks of dire things to the world, an earth desolate, et.c.
Anyway, we split with the girl, I almost kill my mother and then have to leave home to pursue this "I have prepared a place for you says the president of turkey" statement, and realise that there is a place where I can GO where my energies will NOT be spent wanting to kill people like my mother.
I come to south africa, and get involved with three other women on a basis that is longer that the usual one night stands, and, well, I act shamefully as well, and none of the relationships last any longer than seven months, and I counted.
Of course, the LAST one was a bit complicated, because home had come calling, the guy I used to work for had broken my cardinal rule and actually DARED to tell me where it was none of his business, WHAT to do, and so, I decided to be unreasonable, and thankfully, God was silent all that time, because if He had had to put His two cents worth into it too, I would have exploded. Anyway, I try to hang myself, and it does not happen, and after I even try to drink poison and end up at Fish Hoek Hospital, with no ill effects and from there to happy valley home in S/Town, I belatedly decide to tackle God 1v1, and see if we could negotiate about this weird life.
And He starts talking, and I get visions, and even I ask myself what the fuck I could want in turkey, because I was not really keen on doing research that proved the existence of God and then arguing about it with people, to prove my point. I finish the Goldbach Conjecture, try obama, and then, after he responds, decide to insult him, and from then on, the die was cast as far as I am concerned. I wanted to TAKE the land from the guy, and while there were and are moral objections on the whole issue, I suppose I wanted to get to the US as a conqueror for a long time .
Of course, the question, WHY was never answered, then, and it was only after I came out of prison;- and by the way fools, when a PROSECUTOR stands up in court and says, "your honour, because of length of stay of the defendant we have decided to DROP all charges", and then the judge SAYS, "mr mutasa, the court has decided to be merciful and drop all charges, you can go home, do not point fingers at anyone", it MEANS there is NOTHING outstanding against me, and so, I could legally sue the pants out of anyone who says that I have a restriction order against me, but then, I have something else in store for you all, as you know. I am going to burn you all, and fry you for eternity, simplay because, hell, I am NOT a GOOD guy, I am BAD, and BAD to the bone. And I do not particularly like people
So, anyway, to round things up, there was this last woman, who for some reason assumed that the sun shines on her behest, and that she had a right to step in to my life and muck it up as much as she wanted.
Well, I have THIS to say to the blond bimbo, the ONLY person that I actually once I started getting rather grasping when it comes to... the world... had time for because she has/had this way of always seeming to want to make eye contact or get approval before she acted.
Now, being told by me that I care about you and then having me find you the following day in this other guy's arms, and you are kissing, is something that I consider insulting, and as far as I am concerned, something that made sure that well, that guy, in my world would have no place, nor would you.
But well, as I have pointed out a whole lot of other times, me, I like clean and simple things. Now, if some stupid woman decides that she will give me terms and conditions, I will reject them, because I do not bargain, and the funny thing is, I am actually the LAST word on everything as far as your lives are concerned.
And this is MY word. You are all going to die. This whole bullshit with me being in court and coming out and still being hounded has taught me one thing and that is, I have no one outside of my home country that actually means fuck all to me, and so, I am going to kill you all.
I would say now, but the truth is, for some reason, I can not get angry enough.
maybe some full will try to piss me off and then, when THIS ark lifts off, I get to personally send you fools to hell, first!
I am by no means rich, but if rich is being able to pick and choose and discard what you do not want, and what with everything I got up to, and the fact that despite all my shenanigans I am quite shameless about it all, I could say that yeah, what with the ark thing, I am probably , in a way rich and shameless.
Of course, to you people, it makes no sense how God, the Almighty, could allow such an aberration like me to prosper, and keep on sprouting nonsense, but the fact of the matter remains, that me and God, we have a thing going. Forget a staid and regular life when you explode and yell at God, "God, what do You want from me?!" and He answers, "Be Yourself", and of course, it is a well known fact that God does not tell you to do things that He can not empower you to do, and so, me quitting university because there was NO way I was going to labour to please my mother when I felt my own life stymied, and then me deciding I will test this hold God has on me by seeing if I can not break it, even at the cost of my life, and THEN... of course, the women, that very sordid part of my life that I am sure everyone agrees ought to land me in the coldest darkest cell in the worst prison... and well, God is cool with that, I am free, and I am thinking, hell, I want everybody dead, why the fuck are they still alive, and all I want to do is get gone, so I can finally be busy and DO something with myself that involves using my idle mind...
But yes, the women!
So there I am, infected the previous year, hiv positive and therefore in no way supposed to be INVOLVED with a woman, if things were run normally, and human decency prevailed, and God sends a vision of my cousin, my favourite cousin, holding a book... bla bla, and so, I go ... looking. Technically I sort of figured one should blame God for encouraging me in falsehoods, and when I do end up entangled with this woman, two years younger than me and a single mother, I am, after a while, blaming God for saddling me with this silly bitch and He defends Himself- no word about the fact that I should NOT be having sex with that woman( what kind of animal am I?) and then speaks about His yoke and my yoke and concludes with the Isaiah 6 statement, which the bible readers will find, speaks of dire things to the world, an earth desolate, et.c.
Anyway, we split with the girl, I almost kill my mother and then have to leave home to pursue this "I have prepared a place for you says the president of turkey" statement, and realise that there is a place where I can GO where my energies will NOT be spent wanting to kill people like my mother.
I come to south africa, and get involved with three other women on a basis that is longer that the usual one night stands, and, well, I act shamefully as well, and none of the relationships last any longer than seven months, and I counted.
Of course, the LAST one was a bit complicated, because home had come calling, the guy I used to work for had broken my cardinal rule and actually DARED to tell me where it was none of his business, WHAT to do, and so, I decided to be unreasonable, and thankfully, God was silent all that time, because if He had had to put His two cents worth into it too, I would have exploded. Anyway, I try to hang myself, and it does not happen, and after I even try to drink poison and end up at Fish Hoek Hospital, with no ill effects and from there to happy valley home in S/Town, I belatedly decide to tackle God 1v1, and see if we could negotiate about this weird life.
And He starts talking, and I get visions, and even I ask myself what the fuck I could want in turkey, because I was not really keen on doing research that proved the existence of God and then arguing about it with people, to prove my point. I finish the Goldbach Conjecture, try obama, and then, after he responds, decide to insult him, and from then on, the die was cast as far as I am concerned. I wanted to TAKE the land from the guy, and while there were and are moral objections on the whole issue, I suppose I wanted to get to the US as a conqueror for a long time .
So, anyway, to round things up, there was this last woman, who for some reason assumed that the sun shines on her behest, and that she had a right to step in to my life and muck it up as much as she wanted.
Well, I have THIS to say to the blond bimbo, the ONLY person that I actually once I started getting rather grasping when it comes to... the world... had time for because she has/had this way of always seeming to want to make eye contact or get approval before she acted.
Now, being told by me that I care about you and then having me find you the following day in this other guy's arms, and you are kissing, is something that I consider insulting, and as far as I am concerned, something that made sure that well, that guy, in my world would have no place, nor would you.
But well, as I have pointed out a whole lot of other times, me, I like clean and simple things. Now, if some stupid woman decides that she will give me terms and conditions, I will reject them, because I do not bargain, and the funny thing is, I am actually the LAST word on everything as far as your lives are concerned.
And this is MY word. You are all going to die. This whole bullshit with me being in court and coming out and still being hounded has taught me one thing and that is, I have no one outside of my home country that actually means fuck all to me, and so, I am going to kill you all.
I would say now, but the truth is, for some reason, I can not get angry enough.
maybe some full will try to piss me off and then, when THIS ark lifts off, I get to personally send you fools to hell, first!
