Personally, as i have hinted on more than one occassion, I not only think all this is pure bullshit, but also, I would rather just let it rip and, you know, let heads roll.
the reason why THAT is not happening, as I also, said, is the fact that, a few moments, hours, days, years doen the line i will then turn to God and say, " You insensitive prick" [like now when I am staying, or sleeping, in a dump, or something like it]" do You have any idea how much that stings?", like Jeebs, the MIB scumbag would say, or said, when his head was shot off and started growing again.So, to avoid that, God is showing me the ropes, so to speak, and, well, last night, after gleefully realising that I did not NEED His permission to end life -wonder WHY He kept that tidbit hidden from me for , well, nine years- or to cause doom, I was going to say, "fuck everyone, let the end come", but he pre-empted me. Know that riddim mix I plonked on last night's post, the 'anger management" mix? yeah, just as my time ran out, and I was listening to it, the words i was listening to were
the reason why THAT is not happening, as I also, said, is the fact that, a few moments, hours, days, years doen the line i will then turn to God and say, " You insensitive prick" [like now when I am staying, or sleeping, in a dump, or something like it]" do You have any idea how much that stings?", like Jeebs, the MIB scumbag would say, or said, when his head was shot off and started growing again.So, to avoid that, God is showing me the ropes, so to speak, and, well, last night, after gleefully realising that I did not NEED His permission to end life -wonder WHY He kept that tidbit hidden from me for , well, nine years- or to cause doom, I was going to say, "fuck everyone, let the end come", but he pre-empted me. Know that riddim mix I plonked on last night's post, the 'anger management" mix? yeah, just as my time ran out, and I was listening to it, the words i was listening to were
you dont wanna start this
war
war
you dont wanna cause this
war
war
and, so, since that was exactly like me being told "wafunga imwe hondo, mumwe wangu we, nei uchitanga imwe hondo?" I decided i would... think things through,. and see where this bullshit is headed, because, apparently, evenif I do not think this is serious, and am waiting for Him to give up, GOD Himself does not think it is a joke.
i mean, if I had not worked out that I can NOT die, I would be saying, and you all would be agreeing , that it would not be an idle reason that would make Him give an unruly, unrepentant, and thoroughly foul-mouthed ... person... like me an extra 15 years of life, unasked for, and make Him guard my ife so I can not even succumb totally to illness or even to these things that affect everyone else, right?
So, THIS matters to God, and the fact that I can NOT be... affected as much as you assholes can be by anything shows just how much I, me, myself, matter to the Most High God.
So, I did the big bad wolf thing, and went, hmmm, "dis is gonna take some tot", and i started scratching my head and ... tot.
That I must sit-be idle, and do nothing -at His right hand till my enemies became my footstool. That them bitches that turned their noses up at me would have to crawl out of the woodwork by themselves, and not because of my words, but despite them ['academic' also means 'useless'] and that they would have to be 'heartbroken' all on their ownsome, and thus show themselves as they really are, and well, the prime example was miss-super-legs, allisonwho was so forlorn, after months of walking around thinkin she was the biz, and, same day the english chick, both of whom i had rejected, see? then, after my spiel about why I decided that all single mothers who decided to engage me deserved to die;- and I was not even looking at the zorro-moustache woman as i wrote that, I just wanted to piss of butthead's mom- the next day, she decides to back off and then there is her daughter coming out on her own, and then, what do you know, when I did the same thing i tried with micheele and nicky?, to get them split so I could have my revenge and then string them both up, and i was focusing on the contemporary art chick's sister, the girl herself decides to show up, maybe her pride was irked or something, and then, finally, there is this girl who pretends she knows things, and yet has so little knowledge that if it was NOT for the fact that I really do not want to keep on being in one spot i would LOVE to kill her [frankly]; the girl with the sharp face and nose, the one who has just a 'little' knowledge and yet ignores the rest.
fuck, yesterday was a day that almost brought out the best in me. First, she strolls out with a woman i presume is her mother, the woman that was the object of obert's fantasy the other time, as vinnie informed me the other day, and i can almost see the tortured cogs of her wee brain going "he is wrong, the solution to this puzzle about mother and daughter is me and my mother, so i will bring it to his face, so that he can SEE the truth", and while i was trying to be irritated, i found it impossible at the moment because, well, she has nice legs, and I overlooked her stupidity by wilfully tuning it out. I mean, I reasoned that it could not be easy for her to be in a situation where not only she, herself reads my posts, but maybe the whole of kalk bay, and,of course, her family as well, and to make a break with those people, if she WANTS to, must be difficult, even if one soes not take into account that I will END the lives of these fools, anyway.
but when she walked around with her red-head friend, then I got pissed off;- I mean, I had SAID that under NO cicumstances would i welcome the manipulative bitch, but she, of course, over-rode me, and thought I needed her help sorting out my affairs.
thought to myself that if this is the kind of crap that I would have to take from the silly slut, I may as well mangle her, but then, as i said, I had to give dis some tot... and I tot a lot
I can let her irritate me in a more entertaining manner
over the years, because frankly life would be boring without some kind of stimulation, and she seems stimulating. Her surprisingly loud voice, the kind that makes me go all aggressive when I first listen to it, and causes me to turn and look at her in surprise, and then relax, well, it must be fun having some variety in life.
ok, then, so the contemporary art chick is not a woman with the greatest ass around, and I ... THINK.. she has lost weight a bit, but i suppose that she, being so easy to read and all that, IS, frankly, not so stupid as to be... intimate... with anyone while she looks to me. I THINK she was just thinking I had some fixation on her and would bend to her will and give up my silly games and maybe go down on my knees and kiss her ass or something
But I do NOT care for anyone that much that I will bend. I mean, literally, I could be said to have no heart, at least NOT the type you all are used to, so how the fuck dows one like ME end up doing something so silly as THAT?
Now, does anyone even begin to understand ME? And more to the point, what the fuck am I ... supposed... to do with them women?These five? Huh? Look at them?
i mean, if I had not worked out that I can NOT die, I would be saying, and you all would be agreeing , that it would not be an idle reason that would make Him give an unruly, unrepentant, and thoroughly foul-mouthed ... person... like me an extra 15 years of life, unasked for, and make Him guard my ife so I can not even succumb totally to illness or even to these things that affect everyone else, right?
So, THIS matters to God, and the fact that I can NOT be... affected as much as you assholes can be by anything shows just how much I, me, myself, matter to the Most High God.
So, I did the big bad wolf thing, and went, hmmm, "dis is gonna take some tot", and i started scratching my head and ... tot.
That I must sit-be idle, and do nothing -at His right hand till my enemies became my footstool. That them bitches that turned their noses up at me would have to crawl out of the woodwork by themselves, and not because of my words, but despite them ['academic' also means 'useless'] and that they would have to be 'heartbroken' all on their ownsome, and thus show themselves as they really are, and well, the prime example was miss-super-legs, allisonwho was so forlorn, after months of walking around thinkin she was the biz, and, same day the english chick, both of whom i had rejected, see? then, after my spiel about why I decided that all single mothers who decided to engage me deserved to die;- and I was not even looking at the zorro-moustache woman as i wrote that, I just wanted to piss of butthead's mom- the next day, she decides to back off and then there is her daughter coming out on her own, and then, what do you know, when I did the same thing i tried with micheele and nicky?, to get them split so I could have my revenge and then string them both up, and i was focusing on the contemporary art chick's sister, the girl herself decides to show up, maybe her pride was irked or something, and then, finally, there is this girl who pretends she knows things, and yet has so little knowledge that if it was NOT for the fact that I really do not want to keep on being in one spot i would LOVE to kill her [frankly]; the girl with the sharp face and nose, the one who has just a 'little' knowledge and yet ignores the rest.
fuck, yesterday was a day that almost brought out the best in me. First, she strolls out with a woman i presume is her mother, the woman that was the object of obert's fantasy the other time, as vinnie informed me the other day, and i can almost see the tortured cogs of her wee brain going "he is wrong, the solution to this puzzle about mother and daughter is me and my mother, so i will bring it to his face, so that he can SEE the truth", and while i was trying to be irritated, i found it impossible at the moment because, well, she has nice legs, and I overlooked her stupidity by wilfully tuning it out. I mean, I reasoned that it could not be easy for her to be in a situation where not only she, herself reads my posts, but maybe the whole of kalk bay, and,of course, her family as well, and to make a break with those people, if she WANTS to, must be difficult, even if one soes not take into account that I will END the lives of these fools, anyway.
but when she walked around with her red-head friend, then I got pissed off;- I mean, I had SAID that under NO cicumstances would i welcome the manipulative bitch, but she, of course, over-rode me, and thought I needed her help sorting out my affairs.
thought to myself that if this is the kind of crap that I would have to take from the silly slut, I may as well mangle her, but then, as i said, I had to give dis some tot... and I tot a lot
I can let her irritate me in a more entertaining manner
ok, then, so the contemporary art chick is not a woman with the greatest ass around, and I ... THINK.. she has lost weight a bit, but i suppose that she, being so easy to read and all that, IS, frankly, not so stupid as to be... intimate... with anyone while she looks to me. I THINK she was just thinking I had some fixation on her and would bend to her will and give up my silly games and maybe go down on my knees and kiss her ass or something
Now, does anyone even begin to understand ME? And more to the point, what the fuck am I ... supposed... to do with them women?These five? Huh? Look at them?
