Then, when I find out, I will deal with people, because my first priority STILL remains, after all these years;- I will NOT be used by God.
me could be a while through this bag of animosity
them try to set me up with such great hypocrisy
one sell me out and wan fir heal me and have the audacity
fir giddem a chance and them feel me and have everybody say
...
them try to set me up with such great hypocrisy
one sell me out and wan fir heal me and have the audacity
fir giddem a chance and them feel me and have everybody say
...
What got me off actually happened today, but yesterday, I was in a show all of my own. First, I get to see the mother of this 'smart'chick, dressed up LIKE her daughter, showing what I conceded were some good legs, and now, judging from what i have seen from others, I was wondering if she was thinking that since I said I could not see well -actually I can, but it is all too difficult to explain, both eyes are affected, and the one does not see at all except, ironically, in the dark, and then only bright things, but the other works, if i should rate it personally, at about 30%, which means, unfortunately, for people I can see quite well (I have given up long ago trying to compare myself with ordinary people, since nothing about me, or to do with me or anything of my body functions, is NORMAL,which is why I lay it all out there;- when I live on the bare essentials,. I am STILL head and shoulders above the rest, and it shows, because i am NEVER at a disadvantage)- then she could walk past, showing off, and ... hmm... it does not gell, does it? The woman was looking AT me, and it appears, from what i have seen of the woman, and from what i was trying to determine even today, that she can actually see both vinnie's house, the container where the stuff is stored, and also, my place on the mountain[judging from what i was being told, by my Friend], and when I did NOT say anything yesterday, was her action one that showed that she was giving up everything, even her daughter, or what?
I mean, as I said, trying to figure OUT a person who can actually SAY what the fuck she wants straight to my face REALLY pisses me off, because what stops her from saying it to me? I am NOT interested in spending hours interpreting sign language when someone can comer straight to the point and tell me wha'are gwaan. Now, if she, chewing gum and with her jack russels, wanted to say something, what was stopping her, ha?
I think I am ready to lose it, with her too, regardless of what she thinks about me, because being taken for a clueless fool that relies on God fro interpretations when the person can speak for herslf really gets me on edgeBut the contemporary art chick decided she would come past when I was closer, and not when i was still standing near the parking lot, working on vinnie's mannequins, and she had that sorrowful face and i felt i was supposed to stop feeling so heartless, and take her in, after all, the poor lady was heartbroken, yes?
I mean, as I said, trying to figure OUT a person who can actually SAY what the fuck she wants straight to my face REALLY pisses me off, because what stops her from saying it to me? I am NOT interested in spending hours interpreting sign language when someone can comer straight to the point and tell me wha'are gwaan. Now, if she, chewing gum and with her jack russels, wanted to say something, what was stopping her, ha?
I think I am ready to lose it, with her too, regardless of what she thinks about me, because being taken for a clueless fool that relies on God fro interpretations when the person can speak for herslf really gets me on edgeBut the contemporary art chick decided she would come past when I was closer, and not when i was still standing near the parking lot, working on vinnie's mannequins, and she had that sorrowful face and i felt i was supposed to stop feeling so heartless, and take her in, after all, the poor lady was heartbroken, yes?
Pity we made no money yesterday so i could NOT tell the world what I thought of someone who practically ignores everything i have to say about what it is about her pisses me off, and then when I decide that enough is enough, she decides to play the weeping maiden. I MUST check, because i am beginning to wonder if there exists in me anything that remotely resembles pity. Nuh, I am almost sure that pity is NOT part of my make-up.
About, well, 1000% sure.
which reminds me of her sister. I am still quite sure I want her with me, but then, everything with me is subject to ONE law, fuck, it is NOT an easy road for anyone, because as far as I am concerned, for me to take the time to try to figure out a person means nothing good for that person, because when I put, "QED" on something, it means I will be sealing the
About, well, 1000% sure.
which reminds me of her sister. I am still quite sure I want her with me, but then, everything with me is subject to ONE law, fuck, it is NOT an easy road for anyone, because as far as I am concerned, for me to take the time to try to figure out a person means nothing good for that person, because when I put, "QED" on something, it means I will be sealing the
fate of my prey, and since i have nothing in existence that can hold me down-try it;- remember today is the second anniversary where i ... celebrate rising up from the snare of this divorced woman whose fate was sealed on that same day in 2011- then it means I WILL get to the bottom of all this bullshit, and then, people, the irrepressible one will unleash the most destructive force in the universe;- MY-SELF, or is that my selves?
Ha ha!
BUT, that is NOT what pissed me off, yes?
THIS ISRemember chick with the red dress and super ass? Well, today she comes dressed in a coat that made sure i saw none of that ass, and then she walks into the bakery [remember all this is true, I do not care about any of you enough to lie to you, I actually hate most of you guys, and am inclined to kill you all without provocation,but by now you know what holds me back; the God enigma [so that if i find out the ... truth, I WILL then deal with people in MY way] and she comes out speaking on the phone [now, why the fuck, I want you to bear with me, as you watch this thing unfold did she come into my life to begin with?] and saying she is 0utside the bakery, come now, et.c.
Then she disappears down the walkway, and a little while later I have the pleasure of seeing her with some baldheaded cretin walk up, right in front of me, hand in hand, and then the guy puts his hand on her ass and then kisses her, and they disappear into the bakery, and then, decided to walk out some other way, I guess feeling they have put this upstart in his place.
Interesting, yesssss!
Well, i have a very thin skin, and all the tolerance of turbojet fans, so, hmm, it is just a matter of time till all that is sorted, yes?
YESSSSS!
Now, to say that God had said something about THAT already, is academic, but what 'murambatemwa' IS, was beyond me, and well, I have no time for that. I was pissed off the remainder of the day trying to see what then He meant by 24 August, or is it one 0f those 'now but later' things like the "Stop Drinking" thing, and was i supposed to then say, OK, if this one is wrong, then let me take the contemporary art chick, so I have 24 women?
Fuck, MY decision on that silly woman is final, I do not take my own vomit .
She is as dead to me now as if she already was, as is that woman.
}Which makes me wonder at everything else, because all along I have been thinking that i would take twenty five women with me, but with assholes and bitches with me like these, and me having trust issues that are getting more and more promounced, i suppose the door is firmly and finally closed to EVERYONE.
i will take the twenty women that at present know nothing, and then go for the dutch girl, and the german girl, and well, once i am certain about the small woman, and the english chick (because these seem to have less of a problem with hearing, and ... changing... but it is STILL not enough) then I am done, and the maverick will be unleashed, yes?
Ha ha!
BUT, that is NOT what pissed me off, yes?
THIS ISRemember chick with the red dress and super ass? Well, today she comes dressed in a coat that made sure i saw none of that ass, and then she walks into the bakery [remember all this is true, I do not care about any of you enough to lie to you, I actually hate most of you guys, and am inclined to kill you all without provocation,but by now you know what holds me back; the God enigma [so that if i find out the ... truth, I WILL then deal with people in MY way] and she comes out speaking on the phone [now, why the fuck, I want you to bear with me, as you watch this thing unfold did she come into my life to begin with?] and saying she is 0utside the bakery, come now, et.c.
Then she disappears down the walkway, and a little while later I have the pleasure of seeing her with some baldheaded cretin walk up, right in front of me, hand in hand, and then the guy puts his hand on her ass and then kisses her, and they disappear into the bakery, and then, decided to walk out some other way, I guess feeling they have put this upstart in his place.
Interesting, yesssss!
Well, i have a very thin skin, and all the tolerance of turbojet fans, so, hmm, it is just a matter of time till all that is sorted, yes?
YESSSSS!
Now, to say that God had said something about THAT already, is academic, but what 'murambatemwa' IS, was beyond me, and well, I have no time for that. I was pissed off the remainder of the day trying to see what then He meant by 24 August, or is it one 0f those 'now but later' things like the "Stop Drinking" thing, and was i supposed to then say, OK, if this one is wrong, then let me take the contemporary art chick, so I have 24 women?
Fuck, MY decision on that silly woman is final, I do not take my own vomit .
She is as dead to me now as if she already was, as is that woman.
}Which makes me wonder at everything else, because all along I have been thinking that i would take twenty five women with me, but with assholes and bitches with me like these, and me having trust issues that are getting more and more promounced, i suppose the door is firmly and finally closed to EVERYONE.
i will take the twenty women that at present know nothing, and then go for the dutch girl, and the german girl, and well, once i am certain about the small woman, and the english chick (because these seem to have less of a problem with hearing, and ... changing... but it is STILL not enough) then I am done, and the maverick will be unleashed, yes?
A touch of Gumboy yessss!
man are stay pon toppa tings
toppa tings
dis king selassie we crush them like wings
man are stay pon toppa tings
hotter tings
dis emmanuel we bust them heads like a chink
man are stay pon toppa tings
hotta tings
dis marcus garvey make them lose them legs
man are stay pon toppa tings
what are tings
dis king sellassie watch judgement coming
them nuh like we
them nuh like we
see why them are fight we...
we nuh trust dem
we nuh trust dem
even if you're bust dem
nuh trust dem, nuh trust dem...
dem are informer dem...
HEAR DIS..
SHE GIMME DI TING
AND ARE ME FIRE SHE LIGHT IT
she gimme di ting
and then she's gone
she gimme di ting, and me are go alone.
Or a hard fist when them turned out to be wasting my time, or double dealers. But this was the first time God directly said something about how someone, a person was not... consistent. So, I suppose I will tend to trust Him about the 'ten million dollars to build that thing, and then ten of the fifteen, and maybe the german girl,uh, definitely the german girl, but as for the rest, I will investigate, delve, and then conclude.
because what matters is that , one one hand, the person did do me a service to get out of a certain slump, even if the person also at the same time insulted me, leading to her demise, later. however, unlike you, once built up, I never crumble again... fuck is there no BUZZ by capleton here?
Ah well, better listen to THAT one there, then.
toppa tings
dis king selassie we crush them like wings
man are stay pon toppa tings
hotter tings
dis emmanuel we bust them heads like a chink
man are stay pon toppa tings
hotta tings
dis marcus garvey make them lose them legs
man are stay pon toppa tings
what are tings
dis king sellassie watch judgement coming
them nuh like we
them nuh like we
see why them are fight we...
we nuh trust dem
we nuh trust dem
even if you're bust dem
nuh trust dem, nuh trust dem...
dem are informer dem...
HEAR DIS..
SHE GIMME DI TING
AND ARE ME FIRE SHE LIGHT IT
she gimme di ting
and then she's gone
she gimme di ting, and me are go alone.
This is what God woke me up with early 2011 when I was still worrying over this coloured chick, Paula, who I thought... cared, for me when I came out of valkenberg on the 16th of February and she gave me a hug, the ONLY welcome I got when I walked again into Capricorn, and so, fully nine months later when I decided to find out< went looking for her, since i was ... loth... to live someone who actually cared for me behind as i left. It was obvious I could not stay around, even then,k because of all the bad vibes and memories, but I have always had a soft spot for people who had time for me.
because what matters is that , one one hand, the person did do me a service to get out of a certain slump, even if the person also at the same time insulted me, leading to her demise, later. however, unlike you, once built up, I never crumble again... fuck is there no BUZZ by capleton here?
Ah well, better listen to THAT one there, then.
