Part 1: Inferno (what else?)
After insistently and repeatedly coming against the very same thing, and wondering just waht I should do about the 'spirit of God', I even went to God himself and wondered aloud just what I ought to do, because I could not imagine a life where I would be doing... battle... with the dirty thing, for EIGHT years!
I mean, He DID say that it was not by might nor by power but by His spirit, right? And that He was going to pour out His spirit out of all flesh, and all that.
So, last night, i laid it out on Him, and said something to the effect that, well, You know that it REALLy did not sit well with me when You,m because I had deigned to listen to a woman's... suggestion... had to step in and 'claim' me by sending a vision / dream to the girl about what would take place, and so, well, YOU said that people would see visions and all that, and that You would pour out Your spirit, but, hell, I would rather die that see You ... help me like that, so, I HAVE to have everything in MY hands, and basically send Your spirit... NOW... and all the angels and demons and even christ, to hell, because they are in a place where they are all NOT supposed to be, and i hate having anyone interfering in my business and blinding people, since it is people I would have unlimited access and control over if i have no more interference from these fools :. what do You say:- can I DO this and have all these , at ONCE thrown into hell? After all, You did say I choose the kind of world I like.
I think one can take it that the... answer was an affirmative. After all, I have to be in complete control, and I have hated having the so called 'holy' spirit running my face into the dirt every chance he got.
So, to hell with him, and all the meddlers in human affairs!
I mean, He DID say that it was not by might nor by power but by His spirit, right? And that He was going to pour out His spirit out of all flesh, and all that.
So, last night, i laid it out on Him, and said something to the effect that, well, You know that it REALLy did not sit well with me when You,m because I had deigned to listen to a woman's... suggestion... had to step in and 'claim' me by sending a vision / dream to the girl about what would take place, and so, well, YOU said that people would see visions and all that, and that You would pour out Your spirit, but, hell, I would rather die that see You ... help me like that, so, I HAVE to have everything in MY hands, and basically send Your spirit... NOW... and all the angels and demons and even christ, to hell, because they are in a place where they are all NOT supposed to be, and i hate having anyone interfering in my business and blinding people, since it is people I would have unlimited access and control over if i have no more interference from these fools :. what do You say:- can I DO this and have all these , at ONCE thrown into hell? After all, You did say I choose the kind of world I like.
I think one can take it that the... answer was an affirmative. After all, I have to be in complete control, and I have hated having the so called 'holy' spirit running my face into the dirt every chance he got.
So, to hell with him, and all the meddlers in human affairs!
Part 2:- The women ( of course)
Now, I am a cynic, in case you may not have noticed, and from where i stand, i have been having doubts about God's disposition towards my... well-being... so to speak, because of the flak i have been having from certain... women.
I mean, you tell a woman you are DEFINITELY going to kill her, and maybe she thinks you are joking or that you are all talk, or something, and then, when you decide, since it is a holiday, that you will go and sit at the beach in Fish hoek a while, and maybe wash your clothes and then walk back up the mountain and stuff, this very same bitch sticks her face into yours, and ruins your day.
I mean, what the fuck?
Maybe she did NOT read my posts, and maybe she thinks I am... compassionate or some such shit, but fuck, I HATE the bitch {i mean YOU michelle}, and NOTHING is going to stop me from physically mangling you, and tearing you to pieces as i promised.
I have been busy devising more... painful ways of extracting the maximum pain from you while keeping your body and soul together. I WILL make you pay. Bank on that!
But, THAT is not the reason why I was seeing God in a different light, although at the end of the day I am still more than a little morose.
Wednesday, I come to the F/H library, and write this preceding post, right, and then, because I do not have the time to finish it, i do not post it, but afterwards i go to this nearby museum, and work in the garden for a coupla hours, and then go to the internet cafe, via Pick 'n' Pay. As i pass the through the parking lot and head for the entrance to the mall, who but butt-head's mom should exit her vehicle some 5m ahead of me, and walk quickly into the same mall? None other than her, thats who!
And she was dressed in a dress, and now, maybe i was being acerbic [meaning i was being myself] but i took one look at her and the scales fell from my eyes.
the woman looked... pathetic.
she has as much sex appeal as a short gate post, diameter 50mm, and I was asking myself if THIS is the kind of person i am writing and mooning about?
Anyway, I am slow on the uptake;- i went to the internet cafe, wrote the last bit about the OSC, and then came out, and walked to some of the guys who are at the corner of the -once- pharmacy [soon to be Clicks] who sell some of the beaded works and we started talking. Guy decided to walk me halfway, and that is when i went gaga.
Literally.
I am not the type of guy to be impressed by anything, but i must confess, I was very impressed.
because, cool as a cucumber, allison walks down, towards us, and damn, she looked so sexy!
Those legs of hers, which i had always seen encased in those stockings, were bare underneath her one pice sleeveless dress, and I would have gone literally "WOW!" if i did not have company and if i was not sure that I have no idea whether that was for MY sake she was walking or she was just walking {I mean, i did see her the other time in Pick 'n' Pay, about a month or two back, and she took narry the slightest notice of me} but if she HAD walked up to me, then my clwas would probably have literally come out. She did not.
went into this shop calle 'cna' or some such stuff, then came out and went Pick 'n' Pay-wards, and when the guy i was with showed me the public toilets, I did not go checking, because for the first time in my very un-impressed life, I was actually impressed by a... PERSON.
Aside from the fact that she is one the other side, and is probably involved with someone else at the moment [which means I am going to kill her if I do discover that and she does andy more of her walking around or near me] - I mean the guy I complained about as being her constant companion ; and aside from the fact that she probably is a mother and would be loath to leave her kids for me, and aside from the fact that to her i am probably some kind of whacko... if she thinks about me at all... and aside from the fact that she probably, if she DID think about me, was walking around trying to get me to rescind what literally amounted to a death sentence i had posted the day before on her; and aside from the very salient fact that even if she is interested she has to show her true colurs HERSELF somehow, BEFORE i take over literally and just shaft her off, much as i am attracted to her;, well aside form those facts that make me very... depressed, I reached this conclusion:-
there is noone else i would rather have in my life - especially from the osc- because as far as the cahrts are concerned, on a scal of one to ten, she is a perfect sixteen.
I have never been so smitten by anyone in my whole life, and even now, i am having to struggle to keep the... hope... away from me that this woman REALLY could be aware of me.
because I sincerely hope she is. Hence my depression. she probably thinks awful things about me.
Or even if she does not, she probably does not satisfy MY pre-requisites.
I mean, fuck, why would God ALLOW such a thing, a woman who is so very drop dead gorgeous like her, to come into my life, to ... tease... me?
I am wondering alot here, about my Father's benevolence.
I mean, you tell a woman you are DEFINITELY going to kill her, and maybe she thinks you are joking or that you are all talk, or something, and then, when you decide, since it is a holiday, that you will go and sit at the beach in Fish hoek a while, and maybe wash your clothes and then walk back up the mountain and stuff, this very same bitch sticks her face into yours, and ruins your day.
I mean, what the fuck?
Maybe she did NOT read my posts, and maybe she thinks I am... compassionate or some such shit, but fuck, I HATE the bitch {i mean YOU michelle}, and NOTHING is going to stop me from physically mangling you, and tearing you to pieces as i promised.
I have been busy devising more... painful ways of extracting the maximum pain from you while keeping your body and soul together. I WILL make you pay. Bank on that!
But, THAT is not the reason why I was seeing God in a different light, although at the end of the day I am still more than a little morose.
Wednesday, I come to the F/H library, and write this preceding post, right, and then, because I do not have the time to finish it, i do not post it, but afterwards i go to this nearby museum, and work in the garden for a coupla hours, and then go to the internet cafe, via Pick 'n' Pay. As i pass the through the parking lot and head for the entrance to the mall, who but butt-head's mom should exit her vehicle some 5m ahead of me, and walk quickly into the same mall? None other than her, thats who!
And she was dressed in a dress, and now, maybe i was being acerbic [meaning i was being myself] but i took one look at her and the scales fell from my eyes.
the woman looked... pathetic.
she has as much sex appeal as a short gate post, diameter 50mm, and I was asking myself if THIS is the kind of person i am writing and mooning about?
Anyway, I am slow on the uptake;- i went to the internet cafe, wrote the last bit about the OSC, and then came out, and walked to some of the guys who are at the corner of the -once- pharmacy [soon to be Clicks] who sell some of the beaded works and we started talking. Guy decided to walk me halfway, and that is when i went gaga.
Literally.
I am not the type of guy to be impressed by anything, but i must confess, I was very impressed.
because, cool as a cucumber, allison walks down, towards us, and damn, she looked so sexy!
Those legs of hers, which i had always seen encased in those stockings, were bare underneath her one pice sleeveless dress, and I would have gone literally "WOW!" if i did not have company and if i was not sure that I have no idea whether that was for MY sake she was walking or she was just walking {I mean, i did see her the other time in Pick 'n' Pay, about a month or two back, and she took narry the slightest notice of me} but if she HAD walked up to me, then my clwas would probably have literally come out. She did not.
went into this shop calle 'cna' or some such stuff, then came out and went Pick 'n' Pay-wards, and when the guy i was with showed me the public toilets, I did not go checking, because for the first time in my very un-impressed life, I was actually impressed by a... PERSON.
Aside from the fact that she is one the other side, and is probably involved with someone else at the moment [which means I am going to kill her if I do discover that and she does andy more of her walking around or near me] - I mean the guy I complained about as being her constant companion ; and aside from the fact that she probably is a mother and would be loath to leave her kids for me, and aside from the fact that to her i am probably some kind of whacko... if she thinks about me at all... and aside from the fact that she probably, if she DID think about me, was walking around trying to get me to rescind what literally amounted to a death sentence i had posted the day before on her; and aside from the very salient fact that even if she is interested she has to show her true colurs HERSELF somehow, BEFORE i take over literally and just shaft her off, much as i am attracted to her;, well aside form those facts that make me very... depressed, I reached this conclusion:-
there is noone else i would rather have in my life - especially from the osc- because as far as the cahrts are concerned, on a scal of one to ten, she is a perfect sixteen.
I have never been so smitten by anyone in my whole life, and even now, i am having to struggle to keep the... hope... away from me that this woman REALLY could be aware of me.
because I sincerely hope she is. Hence my depression. she probably thinks awful things about me.
Or even if she does not, she probably does not satisfy MY pre-requisites.
I mean, fuck, why would God ALLOW such a thing, a woman who is so very drop dead gorgeous like her, to come into my life, to ... tease... me?
I am wondering alot here, about my Father's benevolence.
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Anyway, just so you know.
I am going to add zuma to the list of people to die; yes the RSA president, because
1) he let my fellow people die and nothing was done to the perpetrators...
2) It would not do to leave him alive because he would assume i tolerate his womanising and sould thus assume that we are... alike.
So I will fry the bastard, and his whole family or families.
Also, i have decided to add the following to my personal hit-list.
Chucky boy and his girlfriend with the dog:- they irritated me.
butt-head's mom, for her interuptions
The guys who drove by in her car the other day:- I mean, 3 is too little for me to kill. I need more.
Anyway, just so you know.
I am going to add zuma to the list of people to die; yes the RSA president, because
1) he let my fellow people die and nothing was done to the perpetrators...
2) It would not do to leave him alive because he would assume i tolerate his womanising and sould thus assume that we are... alike.
So I will fry the bastard, and his whole family or families.
Also, i have decided to add the following to my personal hit-list.
Chucky boy and his girlfriend with the dog:- they irritated me.
butt-head's mom, for her interuptions
The guys who drove by in her car the other day:- I mean, 3 is too little for me to kill. I need more.
