or fear of being in her clutches, but regardless of how one looks at it, it WAS fear.
And since the Biblical standards seemed, from the time when I met God even to a few months ago, to favour the "honour your father and mother... " stuff; I ran away from God as well because i assumed HE would want me to be more inclined towards my mother's well-being.
But I hate her, and funny thing is, I was clinging on to the past even in how I went about things so much so that I ended up always having to either do things i was sure would piss her off, or giving up and just drifting back into her clutches.
Not any more
Everything has an expiry date, and my mother has long ceased to be the focal point of my rage. It has long been this piece of shit who calls himself 'holy' but can not stand water, the dirty arse-hole.
[Oh, and BY THE WAY, the deal with nicky? being spared and going to annoy my mother is off;- she dies, and if she wants, so does her daughter: my mother WAS right, it was disgusting to look after another man's piss, and got me laughed at by both the woman involved and the man whose piss it was; EVERYTIME, and I did THAT more than once, so I KNOW just how fucking awful it is.
Since I can NOT forgive the woman, and i am NOT interested in pleasing her mother, who I am debating just how severely to ... punish... I will kill her just like michelle, and since I HAVE women that already hear and 'desire' me, and I am a bit dis-interested in adding more, I think I will just ignore her and her other daughter and allison (who, by the way, is going to lose that man she was always showing up with, as WELL as the little boy, because i am in a bit spiteful mood, and then I will just walk away and leave the whole lot of them to struggle to make ends meet when the whole city is destroyed, if they live through it, YESSS!) and , since THIS is effectively my last post THIS side of anonymity,[tomorrow the library is closed, and monday is D-Day, so events will speak for themselves, as I call the fifteen women to myself and LOTS and LOTS of people ... DIE!] and after this it will be too late for anyone to try to get on my good side, I think I can safely say that I am finally RID of the tangled feelings that the mere mention of the OSC aroused in me, yesss!]
Now, as I was SAYING before taking this aside to... gloat, I am focused more on the piece of shit, the unclean [you are supposed to NEVER be forgiven if you call the 'holy spirit' UNCLEAN, so now i will call him the UNCLEAN spirit continuously] spirit, and I am bent on KNOCKING him out of orbit, because he spent such an inordinate amount of time making me hate God and confusing me on issues, and he has NO RIGHT to begin with, to be involved with anything to do with this world!
much less with ME!
So, I will make him pay, and start taking back lost territory.
he inspired this text in the bible;-
"for this reason a man shall leave his father and mother, and cleave to his wife, and the two shall becaome one flesh"
but, THAT was based on the 'fact' that the man and the woman were 'equal' to begin with. Now, personally, i am yet to meet a woman, nor am i certain such a one even exists, that i would actually consider even 'half' what I am.
I am the equal of no one, male or female, because I am above all that.
And i consider that the basic thing that i could have women for is sex, and that other than that I would find them rather annoying, so they had better be submissive or obedient and stay out of my way or I would make short work of them, which MEANS I generally and particularly do NOT like women at all, period, so having ME 'cleave' to a woman and make her something 'special' that i 'listen' to and pay attention to is more than silly, as far as i am concerned. women who stay safe do so by paying attention to ME and listening to ME and doing as I please, and not the other way round.
So, that said, I can now begin MY offensive by calling out:-"Bring me MY women, who heard MY voice and took notice", and Oh, by the way, destroy the rabble who stood in my way! YESSS!
That MEANS, if you want me to spell it out, that I am SAYING, let the obamas and such die, and let the [and her I use 'let' loosely, not like i am asking for permission] sun and earth do their things and then let the south africans perish, and the butt-heads and such, and et.c, et.c!
You get the drift!
