Speaking of my mind, and my inability to ... relate to people, I was just wondering, sort of, since you know, with God, what He says, even the least thing, HAS to happen, which is why He is so reliable, and it is easy to see where one is with Him;- anyway, He sort of hinted, more than once, in those visions that I have spoken so... copiously... about, that there are FIVE more women, and that fills me with a lot of unease.
I could, I suppose, pretend otherwise, but I know Him too well by now to assume that what He says will NOT happen simply because I want to make it hard for people, right?
because the people, one and all have to make u0p THEIR minds.
Which brings me to my dilemna.
cant think of anyone who I would want around me, unless these people that would be getting near me underwent some kind of mental shift, because, frankly, in their raw form they be heading for the grave, dig it?
take, for example, people I WOULD kill regardless of what they said, or did at any moment from now, like michelle.
because I am going to open her eyes to what exactly she was doing, stripped of all the pretense of what is called 'civilised behaviour' and THEN she will see why I itch towards really strangling her and mangling her, and why I do not look at ALL favourably towards people who thought she was 'right'. like butt-head.
guess the reason why I will kill butt-head is because he interfered, pure and simple.I was just going to get that bitch so riled up she would abandon cover and THEN I would have had her, but they all had to have their two cents worth, so for THAT they die.
same goes for nicky? maybe she was jealous, but only a fool interfers when someone is saying that some guy is harassing her, and when things like 'love' are involved, it would be best to stay clear, because the things tend to get... messy.
Or maybe she was thinking she could tame the beast, in which case the woman is REALLY in danger, because her meddling pre-supposes that I am... wrong, and that she ought to have 'corrected' me.
now, God, Who should know, tells me to be 'Myself', and she decides that THAT is wrong? Well, I wish she also would take NONE of this seriously, and stray into my path, because I am really, really itching to get very... personal with these people.
then there is the mother, the enigma, since she is one person I can not read, and these others, their agendas are easy to figure out.
Ok, so we say that she was worried about her son, and if so, well, I am STILL going to kill him, so that is not really something she can have any say in, right?
then comes her inexplicable behaviour, like she was actually ... protesting... on the day that I had written [actually, that was the day before] that I would 'look after' the kids of some of them people I had then been dabbling with, and she shows up the morning, and well, it LOOKED like she wanted to say something, concerning HER son, but then could not get her mouth to open.
but then these other sons had NOT pissed me off, yes?
And what was SHE thinking she had that could make me... change my mind... persuade me to STOP being me, or 'stop me in my tracks' as michelle so elegantly put it?
Well, whatever!
Right?
