I normally take time out to re-gurgitate what goes on in my life and in my thoughts, and yesterday, after thinking that maybe everything was NOT the way It ought to, I sat down on the steps leading to my mountain hideout and came to the conclusion that I am a person who definitely has nothing called 'a life'.
And so, I said so, to God, pointing out that there was absolutely NOTHING I could be said to... want... or to be good at so much that I could make something of myself out of it.
I have no life, I said over and over again.
He replied.
What do you think He said?
No, you are wrong?
No, He said nothing of the kind.
He let me know exactly that I was right by side-stepping the issue and pointing out the bleakness of my existence while at the same time focusing me in the direction I should take:- He said "You choose what kind of world you like", and I knew it was a tacit agreement that I am not much of a 'person' when viewed by others' standards.
But then, I am... taking over, and well, if I can not have anything to... do..., I can at least deal with what I do not like in this world.
Later on He showed me the 'theory' of how to... fly. But then, I remember that the first time He spoke to me about what I was doing, it took me about three days ato get from a 'this-is-crazy' attitude to a 'let me do this' mentality. And THAT was mathematics;- this is -or should be - practical, and my mind is still struggleing with the thought that my legs could actually get off the ground and stay off it without gravity reminding them of where they belong;- so I think I may take a while to actually ... DO... this.
Of course, I AM crazy.
I see it every day.
Does not mean I am wrong, though.
But I was way wrong about this; that I would NOT do anything to women because there may be misconceptions.
Now, look at it this way;- the ONLY female I owe anything to is my mother, and regardless of what happens, I am NOT going to see any harm fall on her, at least not while everyone else is alive and kicking, hell no!
The only woman I would never harm physically is her, because I am alive [despite her efforts] because of her. And my father.
So they are sacrosanct.
But no one else
I owe no one else anything.
Now, it has been puzzling me for a while why the ten women that I finally settled on were so... scared... of me.
I knew of course that I wanted people around me who would NOT need to be told who I am so that I did not have to explain anything, but their behaviour when they came near me left me with a distinct impression that these women were terrified. Of me.
more than even the direst situation warranted.
Till I remembered something jesus said, when he wanted to impress on the disciples that they should fear God;- he said
fear not him who can kill the body but afterwards can do nothing, but rather fear him who is able to cast both body and sould in hell
And he should know, right since he was there from the beginning, and he probably had seen how dire hell was, right?
MY POINT is that I am able to do just that. I mean that,if anyone ought to be feared in the whole of existence, then that person is none other than... me.
because not only WILL I do the casting in hell stuff, but also, I REALLY do not care what anyone may think, nor do I do waht anyone may consider... fair.
Since of course, I have no equal among you, and my word and my choice... alone... stands.
So, that being the case, it gives me great pleasure to announce that I have ALWAYS wanted to strangle michelle, kick her buck-teeth in and generally give myself the satisfaction of hearing her groan as I deliver bone-crsushing kicks into her ribs, and stomach.
I would love that, so I am not restraining myself.
I have decided that the first set of people to totally eliminate is the entire OSC.
men, women and children.
with my bare hands. All of them.
probably the ONLY person I will leave alive is butthead's mom. If she decides to walk away from the whole lot before I go ballistic.
Because she showed me ... some... respect.
but the males, i will gather ALL of them, all that can stand on their own two feet, and think they are ... men... and I will, without any weapons but my hands and feet, mow them down, and then go down with them to hell, to scout it out, to empty paradise, and to take over sole responsiblity for the whole place. So that when obama goes down, the place is ... ready... for him.
then I will come for the females, and start with michelle. And tear her to pieces.
because I owe her nothing.
then nicky?, then the remainder of the women and children.
not a single one will escape. Every single one of those fools who has ever read any post of mine, and all their relatives; kids, parents, siblings, cousins, will die.
I guara-damn-tee it!
And then go to hell.
because the time of showing that you people are 'but dust' has not arrived, has it?
See, the difference between me and you is this:- I have NO REMORSE for anything I do, because everything I do, I do knowing full well why I am doing it, and have no regrets about anything I have ever done, but you people have this inbuilt self-deception thing, and when I show you all just what you were REALLY doing, you will see just how shallow your lives are, and the 'knowledge' will kill you.
simple as that.
unless of course you happen to be ... on my side.
And I think there will only be fifteen of those.
And as things stand, I am almost at my full quota.
Can not decide between butt-head's mom and Carol's sister, because I am not so sure either of the two were ever really... wary (to say the least)... of me.
But, as I said, I am not waiting around to see someone who has read my posts a lot decide whether I am for real or not, since, as I said, I am not interested in anyone's opinion that much.
All that matters is one mantains a respectful distance from me, because I tend not to do anyone any favours, nor do i like anyone becoming familiar with me. Not now, not ever.
And as I pointed out, before, i will make sure that the families of the ten women do not just... die, but live till the end.But that applies only to the ten.
As for the rest, no concessions. NONE whatsoever!!
