Because for that to happen, I had to let go the general looking-down on myself that had led God to engineer the 'ark vision' which led to 15 women, ten to ... build ... my dominion, and five that I needed no... help... in bearing.
they are those who "did well [dwelt] in darkness" ... and did not have to be dragged anywhere for me to have ... pleasure. They showed their colours easily, and I can be confident that they will be ... mine... when I call.
It is not only the women but also the girl, the 'first' among 'seconds'. They ... helped ... me get over the thread that had been tied around me by the osc, the thread that left me feeling weak and miserable, because my mind was not made up about what to do about the women, or whether God would just stand idly by while I was left exposed by these... interfering women.
But, i will have you remember that, the first time I ever complained to God that He had given me a woman that I did not want, He sent the vision that showed just why I had picked the girl;- jealousy because of the attention she gave her son - and also He then went on to... write...
My yoke is easy, and My burden is light...
and my yoke is as academic to the fish [Isaiah 6 : 1-13]
and my yoke is as academic to the fish [Isaiah 6 : 1-13]
And this text, you will remember, contains wording like
...
What i have to... say... can only be heard by people who have ears that hear. And none of the people that have read these posts qualify.
But then, there are these that do.
The fifteen, for example.And the girl.
But you will recall that yesterday i was really... upset... because I assumed that God was behind the... inclusion... of allison into my life, based mainly on that 'Walker, Texas Ranger' vision.
I was very angry about it, because i seemed to be tied up again over a woman, and my... decision to have the Cape destroyed was because I could not bear to have... witnesses alive and in comfort who would remain after I had left who woould be able to sneer at me.
But NOW, I have no such worries, because I am comforted about that.
I was just remebering that the only episode of that series that stuck in my mind as far as the woman is concerned is one where she told Walker, out of the blue, that he must not forget their dinner date, and he went, perplexed, to CD, his workmate, and told him that he had made no such arrangemenet with her, and he was told by the old man that if a woman says you have a date, then you have a date, and he was encouraged to buy flowers.
he walks in, and when he does, flowers in hand, the woman is standing with an FBI agent, aho could not openly meet with Walker because of security concerns.
walker then presents the flowers to the woman and says 'CD wanted you to have these'
In MY case though, God was showing me that the woman was interested in me, although she was saying smething totalyy different, like, for crying out loud! "come to... church!"
I was ready, yesterday, to drop the woman because i would NOT have a woman appeal to god over an issue with me, but when i worked out that the woman I met at F/Hoek beach was the one who wanted me to be in church so she could show her interest in me, and not because of my soul, I was relaxed.
She had driven by yesterday again from the CBD, with the little boy in the backseat, and I she decided to turn towards Pick-n-Pay parking [though she drove straight past] and not past me as I sat on the stone bench waiting for the guy, charles, to show up.
the woman gets to be number seventeen, and you will notice that she ... happened at a time when I was
...
"Whom shall I send, who will go for Us?
And I said, "here I am, send me"
and he said, go and tell this people
'hear ye indeed but understand not
see ye indeed, but perceive not',
make the heart of this people fat, and make their ears heavy and shut their eyes, lest they hear with their ears, and see with their eyes, and turn and be healed..."
The point being that, believe it or not, the people for whom these post are intended do NOT read them, those who have read them have been unable to grasp them because their eyes are blinded by the obvious, and between me and them there is natural enmity, and they are all unacceptable to me, which is why I have steadily been working my way and rejecting these.and he said, go and tell this people
'hear ye indeed but understand not
see ye indeed, but perceive not',
make the heart of this people fat, and make their ears heavy and shut their eyes, lest they hear with their ears, and see with their eyes, and turn and be healed..."
What i have to... say... can only be heard by people who have ears that hear. And none of the people that have read these posts qualify.
But then, there are these that do.
The fifteen, for example.And the girl.
But you will recall that yesterday i was really... upset... because I assumed that God was behind the... inclusion... of allison into my life, based mainly on that 'Walker, Texas Ranger' vision.
I was very angry about it, because i seemed to be tied up again over a woman, and my... decision to have the Cape destroyed was because I could not bear to have... witnesses alive and in comfort who would remain after I had left who woould be able to sneer at me.
But NOW, I have no such worries, because I am comforted about that.
I was just remebering that the only episode of that series that stuck in my mind as far as the woman is concerned is one where she told Walker, out of the blue, that he must not forget their dinner date, and he went, perplexed, to CD, his workmate, and told him that he had made no such arrangemenet with her, and he was told by the old man that if a woman says you have a date, then you have a date, and he was encouraged to buy flowers.
he walks in, and when he does, flowers in hand, the woman is standing with an FBI agent, aho could not openly meet with Walker because of security concerns.
walker then presents the flowers to the woman and says 'CD wanted you to have these'
In MY case though, God was showing me that the woman was interested in me, although she was saying smething totalyy different, like, for crying out loud! "come to... church!"
I was ready, yesterday, to drop the woman because i would NOT have a woman appeal to god over an issue with me, but when i worked out that the woman I met at F/Hoek beach was the one who wanted me to be in church so she could show her interest in me, and not because of my soul, I was relaxed.
She had driven by yesterday again from the CBD, with the little boy in the backseat, and I she decided to turn towards Pick-n-Pay parking [though she drove straight past] and not past me as I sat on the stone bench waiting for the guy, charles, to show up.
the woman gets to be number seventeen, and you will notice that she ... happened at a time when I was
worried about allison... and her legs.
then there is the final one
this woman is maybe working as a chef, at one of the restaurants, and she is slim, wears thick glasses, and I was not really ... watching her... as such, but observing this other be-spectacled guy ,also white, who was making moves on her. he would walk and chat her up, probably as they both went to the same workplace, and at first, she used to walk alone, beu they were walking together, silently mostly, when I would bump into them.
yesterday, I was mildly surprised to see her without her glasses, and as I passed she gave ... me!... a brief smile, and when, later in the evening, I walked past them again, she had her glasses on and she had pimples.
today she did not show up, though I kept the same time.
She looks nice.
I have run out of time. I will have to speak later of what will happen NOW
then there is the final one
this woman is maybe working as a chef, at one of the restaurants, and she is slim, wears thick glasses, and I was not really ... watching her... as such, but observing this other be-spectacled guy ,also white, who was making moves on her. he would walk and chat her up, probably as they both went to the same workplace, and at first, she used to walk alone, beu they were walking together, silently mostly, when I would bump into them.
yesterday, I was mildly surprised to see her without her glasses, and as I passed she gave ... me!... a brief smile, and when, later in the evening, I walked past them again, she had her glasses on and she had pimples.
today she did not show up, though I kept the same time.
She looks nice.
I have run out of time. I will have to speak later of what will happen NOW
