Come on, a girl in one of these shorts that white people seem to favour so much shows up and is looking so... absorbedly... at the atr display while I summarily dismiss her from my mind, especially after she says, its Ok, I am just looking, and I turn back to whatever I was doing, that is four days before... I think.
Then she walks up to me and when she wants a key-ring with her name on it, I suggest a better colour than the drab green and offer to make her one, if she will wait.
Remember, she is just a girl, and I have no real interest in people who are clad... scantily.
She starts quizzing me about what I like, like do I listen to reggae music, and I say, hell yeah, and she goes, so do I, and we find much to talk about, so much so that, in between me trying to interpret her German English, and me trying to forget speaking like a shona person, we laugh at each other's grammatical mistakes, and then she leaves, comes back and ...
ANYWAY, after all that, she shows up yesterday, better dressed, at least her jeans cover everything, and then she sits on the ground, just to talk, and it is then it occurs to me that maybe she wanted all along to talk to me.
Weird because it takes me back to the year 200, when I walked out of the physics lab saying, when I come back I want to see if God loves me, and then I walk back in, and the math teacher is waiting for me, and he says that I have won the national math prize and everyone starts clapping, and I feel so... exposed.
Because I knew that I neither liked these people who were showing such... jubilation at my 'success' nor did they particularly like me, and I felt like screaming at them and at God that I did NOT want THIS type of exposure.Turns out it was the holy spirit who both put words in my mouth and did the 'exposure thing'!
I would rather have people who WANTED to be around me, because they wanted ME, and nothing FROM me, and not this empty type of life.
Funny thing is that this girl, Verana made her ... entry... into my life at the place where I was rather unhappy because of the empty... attention... I was getting from every asshole at the osc.
And it is only NOW that I find out that I REALLY want to smash every single one of these people, and get them really really DEAD.
Because they all want something from me, but I will take the one thing from them that they can not afford to lose, and make them suffer before they die, and die horribly.
This is not only about the one girl, but also about the fifteen women, and they shall be witnesses who will make sure that these fools have nothing to say after they see, because they will die ONLY after they have seen, since they like to spy, all my women come, and they will die only after I have attained the... recognition... that I SAID, on 21 October... would come FIRST.
Then I will kill them with impunity.
SO, watch, and prepare to weep.
Because your doom is knocking at your doors.
