Time to... REND

 Yesterday was a hot day, and I spent most of it drinking water because I was... working... in the sun. later, going back to the... mountain... I was also drinking some 'drink-o-pop', and so, it was hardly surprising that, before i had gone even as far as where the construction work on the road into Kalk Bay starts, I had to take an urgent leak.
There is an alley just opposite the bible institute, where a green house faces a white one, and i went and pissed against the wall of the green house, because I was so pressed i could not evn make it as far as the railway tracks.
this old man, who heard the dogs barking at the green house, and came out from the white house and stood at the small gate -it is, that white house, number 175; I checked this morning -  and started calling me 'bastard' and all that for ... defacing... his neigbour's wall.

now, normally, I would have remained quiet, but, yesterday, and the days preceding this, well, let me say, the God of WAR has been awakened, and I rounded on him, and said 'voetsek jou naai, who the fuck are you calling a bastard?'
It is thanks to him that all restraint has finally been worn away, and I am taking over.

Now, I left home, with a grim awareness that one of two things is likely to happen, neither of which is, to me of any great concern.
I was either going to die, or I was going to become greater than anything that has ever walked the earth, and I prefered, and still do, prefer, to die.

Unfortunately, for you and for me, God had other plans, and I must HERE and NOW state, emphatically, that I am NOT on God's side, and care nothing what He or anyone else has to say.
I am NOT in this of my own volition, nor am i inclined to either respect or honour the same God, or man, or ... ANYTHING.

While i was busy focusing on... people... I ... accidentally, and unwillingly... aligned myself with God, by choosing to reject alliance with people, and thus sealing myself for ever to have the... companion... remain with me.

i have no regrets over my choice, because I would still make the same one if I had to do so again, but i want it understood, now, publicly, that, if i could have known what it means, i would rather have died than ally myself with God, because He had no respect for my right to choose, and thus I can never have any respect for Him or for what matters to Him... ever.

What happened on the 18th of April means i can NEVER have Him on my side or be on His side, and so, I am doomed to spend eternity wrestling with my desire to be free of God... but then, as I said, I do not care much either way.

I only care when the burden chaffs too much.


Like NOW

You see, i am a historian; I see things from how they started to how they are now, and I have studied how the white people came and took the land from the balck people, imposed their rule on them, and now, when they are no longer nomianlly in power, still believe themselves superior to balck people and thus call them dogs and bastards.

I have declared that no single white person in the whole of the western cape will remain alive... except those who, when i was small and of no account, honoured me.
Since that means not a single male , but only females did that, and I can count but a few, then i will allow the families of  these to leave the western cape, and go wherever, if what i... thought... I saw really was what was there and the females, such as have families here, make their ways to me, when the places of the xhosa people go up in smoke.

I have determined to completely exterminate the whole brood of them that are in my locale, and not only that, but not a single memeber of the current UK 'royal family' under whose auspices the white people came and 'conquered' my homeland, will last a single moment from the time I howl and send Khayelitsha to hell.

Every last one of them will go straight to hell, alive and kicking, and I will BEGIN to show my unlimited fury on the whole land, voicing my anger at being caught up in something I have no interest in, and showing that, not a single living person is of such moment to me that I care whether the person lives or dies, or that I am worried about what you think, you pieces of shit!

Those white people who were stupid enough to cross me, like the butt-heads, michelles and their families, I am coming to rend you piece by piece, and I will do so without any weapon, without any armour, that you will know that i never needed any excuse to keep from harming you; I was merely determined NOT to do anything that God wanted me to do, but now, I have, and you all are dead, every last one of you will perish, and I will butcher you all... personally.

You have assumed that i was going to keep on talking, right?

Well, I am not interested in talk... anymore.


I am your worst nightmare, and the worst thing you thought could happen... well, I am worse than that!

You are going to see what i have fought a losing battle to contain, and this is NOT good, because I am a law unto myself, and I see no one as that important.... YESSS!!!
I will have a ridge all round the western cape, and any who wishes to cross it without MY approval will find him or herself going straight to hell.

Please, try it as soon as i stand, and you will see.

I have, however, beef not just with the white people, but basically all those that are in the area, but i will spare ONLY the following of all that are around:-

tinashe sabona and his cousin Godknows, somewhere in gugulethu there; mrs mcready of 13 3rd crescent;- she is th lady who gives out bread to the needy;- charles, nation and their families;- compared to tinashe in S/town, they have treated me like a person, and not cut the ground under me at every corner, so these guys, who I 'work' with, will get out; and daniel 'fletcher' who is tinashe's friend, and who I stayed with in red-hill.

i would like to ... have... added that ...allison... would be part of the group that lives, but I can NOT do her a favour like that especially as, while I realise that by some... weird... twist, I actually CARE for her... while she herself does not, apparently, return the sentiment.

I will therefore ignore her, and her family, and kill the rest, and when I do leave, she will perish with the rest because all who remain will die as the whole cape melts under their feet.

As usual, time is running out, and since I will not go online using cash anymore, i will have to wait till monday to show just ... HOW... this will be, and how I will kill everyone, and therefore, let it begin.

breathe a bit, till monday, and then I will begin, to rend, and none will mend.