imagine, for instance, the fact that He made a plant grow, in one day, to cover the prophet Jonah from the sun, and then had a worm eat it.
because jonah was WATCHING the thing happen, it never struck him that what he was seeing was actually impossible.
My point is this:- a few days ago I asked God to remove from me the inhibitions and unsleash the wildness in me, and in such an... ordinary fashion... this has been happening.
I came to realise, through a young girl, what I had been.... WAITING... for, and found out that I oulc now trust God because He had given me proof that He was not out to use me, but had my ... best... interests at heart.
That was when I decided to take on the holy spirit, and have him out of my system.
THAT was not so easy, because he went on to try to prove to me that he had a thousand holds that he could use to make sure I was kept under, and basicaly begging for life.
BUT, I am adamant, and nothing matters more to me than that I have my freedom, so I have kept at him;- regardless of what he may be... capable of... I want him to have absolutely NO power over ANYTHING to do with me or mine, and I was busy with God, Who has repeatedly asked me what I wanted of Him, to remove his grip on me.
So, now I can say, seeing as how NOTHING has happened further to disturb me, the holy spsirt is on the way out, and I am ready to do as I see fit, and gather mine to me, and THEN go on a killing spree.
Starting in Simonstown.
Now, here again God has been very... visible, and being a person with an incapability of keeping secrets, i have been letting on exactly what happened, as it happened:
I remember butt-head's mom, the day she almost confronted me, and her mute appeal, which had me going, ''wow, no one has EVER done that to me before, maybe I should give her what she wants and take her instead" and I remember mentioning, on the very same day, that God had said earlier in the morning "I will not let you fall", because He had... treasured me so much He would not let me be deceived by false ... respect.
And, as it turned out, the woman had no interest in me anyway, but only in doing whatever it took to keep her son alive. Inclding sacrificing herself.
Ok, so I will kill her, and her son and every single person in her whole house, because she has shown me that no one can separate the memebers of a family. NOW, therefore, I will deal with ever ... enemy of mine... in that way:- I will not only deal with the person who has wronged me, but also with every single person that is related to that person, so that no one ever again interferes with me or my ... interests.
So, anyone who has ever shown up in my path, thinking to get me to notice that person, and sway me from the stated aim that I had taken, gets to die, and gets to have the whole branch of the family he or she is from, to join him or her in hell, after I deal with that person physically.
*****
Abba, Father, You have shown me that You have, indeed plans for me, in this life, which I would never have accepted had You shown me them.
Instead, I have gradually come to understand Your way of looking at me, and at all that goes on around me, and have seen that, though I, like the wanderer, seem like I am lost, You, the one in Whom we live and breathe and have our being,
KNOW exactly where I am and why I am at that place.
I have stopped being... ineffective...
and reluctant to have anything to do with You, and now,
I choose to walk with You, and no longer draw away.
Let there be from now on, a distinction between that which is mine
and that which is ... but dust.
Let it be that from now on, my enemies become unequivocally revealed as my enemies, and deliver such as have displeased me immensely directly into my power, that I may deal with them, and send them to hell when I am done with them.
Let those who ARE mine come to me, and let my place be made ready so that these and the rest do not mingle.
As I have said I want it to be, so have it done, in the manner I want it done, and let there be no grey areas or shadows that ANYONE may hide in, saying that they had no chance.
Father, AlMighty God, as You have begun, with me privately, so proceed to do publicly, so that TODAY becomes the last day that I am in any way bound.
let tomorrow mark the return of the king, and the end of ambiguity, and arm me so that I can destroy my enemies, and do so both with the arm and with words, that NONE may hide behind either professed ignorance or lack of follow through.
have Your spirit restrained so that he may have no hold on anything I turn my thoughts to, or my hands to, and have him have no hold on me or anyone that is mine.
Anything he touches is to me tainted, and I reject that emphatically, and will have nothing to do with it, because You said, of women,
"nevertheless, your desire shall be for your husband, and he shall rule over you";
and, of the man,
"My spirit shall not always strive with man, for he also is but dust"
But then, I am NOT but dust, because I look to You and You alone, and have no fellowship with any works of Your hands, because what NEED do I have of these works when The Glorious One is accessible?
You are everything for me, and whatever does not come from You is unacceptable to me, since all people are strangers to me unless You give them Your seal of approval.
Free my hands to work, and my legs to move, and let that which is mine not be restrained from me, nor let anyone put any boundaries on me.
Ever again.
My mind is set on war.
So have it be
*****
Abba, Father, You have shown me that You have, indeed plans for me, in this life, which I would never have accepted had You shown me them.
Instead, I have gradually come to understand Your way of looking at me, and at all that goes on around me, and have seen that, though I, like the wanderer, seem like I am lost, You, the one in Whom we live and breathe and have our being,
KNOW exactly where I am and why I am at that place.
I have stopped being... ineffective...
and reluctant to have anything to do with You, and now,
I choose to walk with You, and no longer draw away.
Let there be from now on, a distinction between that which is mine
and that which is ... but dust.
Let it be that from now on, my enemies become unequivocally revealed as my enemies, and deliver such as have displeased me immensely directly into my power, that I may deal with them, and send them to hell when I am done with them.
Let those who ARE mine come to me, and let my place be made ready so that these and the rest do not mingle.
As I have said I want it to be, so have it done, in the manner I want it done, and let there be no grey areas or shadows that ANYONE may hide in, saying that they had no chance.
Father, AlMighty God, as You have begun, with me privately, so proceed to do publicly, so that TODAY becomes the last day that I am in any way bound.
let tomorrow mark the return of the king, and the end of ambiguity, and arm me so that I can destroy my enemies, and do so both with the arm and with words, that NONE may hide behind either professed ignorance or lack of follow through.
have Your spirit restrained so that he may have no hold on anything I turn my thoughts to, or my hands to, and have him have no hold on me or anyone that is mine.
Anything he touches is to me tainted, and I reject that emphatically, and will have nothing to do with it, because You said, of women,
"nevertheless, your desire shall be for your husband, and he shall rule over you";
and, of the man,
"My spirit shall not always strive with man, for he also is but dust"
But then, I am NOT but dust, because I look to You and You alone, and have no fellowship with any works of Your hands, because what NEED do I have of these works when The Glorious One is accessible?
You are everything for me, and whatever does not come from You is unacceptable to me, since all people are strangers to me unless You give them Your seal of approval.
Free my hands to work, and my legs to move, and let that which is mine not be restrained from me, nor let anyone put any boundaries on me.
Ever again.
My mind is set on war.
So have it be
*****
Now, no one is going to be able to say that these things happened in the dark.
I have seen, over the past few days, women who have shown up and driven around, worried about their lives, women who, before all this, when they were all ansconced in their houses, laughed at everything I did, and said to themselves they could do better.
I have seen women who have tried to get into my good books by showing themselves near me, ploughing their fields using MY plow and my cattle, not bothering to get out of their comfort zones and doing something about it. These women have wanted me to come and pluck them from their nests, to be the father of their sprogs by other fools, to be amazed when they show me their asses and all that.
Well, THEY die as well. I will see them and they will answer me, as we stand face to face, only it will not be with open arms on my part, but with a sword, to end their lives, for mocking me.
I have seen, over the past few days, women who have shown up and driven around, worried about their lives, women who, before all this, when they were all ansconced in their houses, laughed at everything I did, and said to themselves they could do better.
I have seen women who have tried to get into my good books by showing themselves near me, ploughing their fields using MY plow and my cattle, not bothering to get out of their comfort zones and doing something about it. These women have wanted me to come and pluck them from their nests, to be the father of their sprogs by other fools, to be amazed when they show me their asses and all that.
Well, THEY die as well. I will see them and they will answer me, as we stand face to face, only it will not be with open arms on my part, but with a sword, to end their lives, for mocking me.
