I am, of course, still on a high from my discovery that I do NOT have to be so... limited... in my approach to the future life that lies in store for me, so much so that i have decided to let out something else that should set things right, and well, remove any ambiguity about stuff.For one thing, i am NOT in any way diffrenet from anyone else, physically, except that I seem unable to... die... for some weird reason, and also for the fact that I appear to have a ... cloak... around me, a presence, that amplifies my mood at times so that when I feel rather on edge, that feeling is transmitted sometimes so very 'overpoweringly' that some people's lives can come to a standstill. THAT is, basically, the simplest way to describe the ... companion... that God gave me.
but i am basically alone, and easily angered, by eevrything, because I really REALLY do not even want to be alive, which goes to show you all that if it is NOT God Himself ministering to me, and accepting that I hold Him responsible for everything that happens in my life, I would just cease to exist.
So, of course, all this Almighty God stuff, is basic bullshit, unless taken in the context that God is, and has been, from the time I walked centre stage, invisible to everyone else, and is quite willing that I "speak" about how i want things done, and He makes sure it happens, the mundane and the miraculous, and so, of course, by THAT displays his complete approval of me, much as you all may hate it.
I will give an example of this... preference of God's to me. Remember that at one time I wrote that I had met michelle, and she had been on the other side of the road and she told me to go home, and I had gone back to S/Town, to the fisherman's hut, and then lain down, and feeling obtuse, because I was not used to pondering people's points pf view, carrying on my warfare with God about just why the fuck i was still alive when i did NOT want to be and hated every minute of the life; I asked Him, the One who Sees [and thus "Foresees" everything] YHWH- jireh, just why I was still here, and He replied, "Tell them the source of the cloud that does not bear water",and well, it was onlyb yesterday that I figured out that I go where i want to go, and would only leave and go wherever if I had somethings that i PERSONALLY liked, not because I felt I had a duty to do something;- I can NOT relate to such things, ever. I am completely unable to be like normal people, and I find that, when push comes to shove, it is impossible for me to liten to anyone's advice, ever, especially about how to live.
I have said i will have women to go with me, but if God had NOT said something about it, i would not be saying it, not because i have no mind of my own, as some women who flock all around me seem to think, but because I really do NOT care. i am still looking to God's hand, to see if He REALLY has plans for me for me to get what I like in life :- fuck, i have a brain that can process things faster than all the people i have encountered or read about, and arrive at a dead-eye conclusion that does not account for the biases or prejudices of most of these great thinkers; and I find that most people bore me before they even open their mouths or even show up near me, because I could use 5% of my brain and still be able to be light years ahead of them, and so, I find it difficult to accept that a human being, a NORMAL human being could see fit to actually contradict me, and think I will reallyb STOP being me so that I accommmodate that said person into my life, or the person's views, when in effect I have what amounts to unlimited de-facto powers to change what I do NOT like and do as I please, regardless, as i said, of how anyone feels about it.
Like I have to, regretfully NOT kill those other people that are martial arts experts in america, because, well, I can only focus on people that have either pised me off, or have pleased me and made me the focus of THEIR attention, and everything and everyone else is really invisible to me. Which is quite a good thing because obama with help in the land could sabotage some of the plants [mechanical] that I want left intcat for my future plans, but if he is alone, all alone and just a scared little man, he would be unable, for example, to tell the diffrence between the stealth bomber the B2 and the singer group U2, and I am interested in the former, a lot, because I have plans for it.
I am, as God said, an academic, which means that, while I WILL leave the males and such in Europek, regardless of whether they are black or white, as long as they are nationals, and not Zimbabweans and NOT jamaicans [i like the music, yes, but imagine an asshole correcting me about the childish-english that they call patois!] then I am free to needle the assholes, and make them mad, and THEN they will respond, but as is the case here, it will be after I have tagged and collected the women I want that i will exact my revenge. So, since THIS is phase One of the two prong attack plan, and I currently have women under consideration, of whom 23 have a more than 90% chance of being... mine... I am at a stage where I can start rolling my sleeves, and start beating up and killing those fools that pissed me off, male or female, and then I can depart, see?
but first, I have to see my parents, and well, send them on their way. THAT is something that I am looking to The Most High about, because he promised that one should "honour one's mother and father" which paul said was the first commandment with a promise.
And I intend to break almost every one of them ten commandments. Almost. Except for the one that says that one shall not covet another's wife, because the 'wife' is described in that same commandment as belonging to the man, his possession, and well, biology does bear that out, as i remerked when it comes to the garbage disposal aspect.
now, since ALL males are totally invisible to me, unless they have pissed me off, I have somewhat, dont you think, to say to someone like allison, who has a lot to explain about her actions vis-a-vis me, since it appears that she actually has a MAN in her life and yet ...!
you get the drift?
Woman was actually putting me, the King, as something less than the asshole she is with, when i have the power of life and death over everyone that is alive, and dead, because I have figured out that I can even have those that are dead woken and sent to hell, as i will, because they ALL piss me off!
So, I have a ... question... even to the david matthews woman, as to whether or not she has been having the garbage disposal bit since she decided to look my way, or whether those ashes were already long dead before I appeared on the scene, because see, certain things me nuh inna, and that is ONE thing me definitely NUH INNA.
but i am basically alone, and easily angered, by eevrything, because I really REALLY do not even want to be alive, which goes to show you all that if it is NOT God Himself ministering to me, and accepting that I hold Him responsible for everything that happens in my life, I would just cease to exist.
So, of course, all this Almighty God stuff, is basic bullshit, unless taken in the context that God is, and has been, from the time I walked centre stage, invisible to everyone else, and is quite willing that I "speak" about how i want things done, and He makes sure it happens, the mundane and the miraculous, and so, of course, by THAT displays his complete approval of me, much as you all may hate it.
I will give an example of this... preference of God's to me. Remember that at one time I wrote that I had met michelle, and she had been on the other side of the road and she told me to go home, and I had gone back to S/Town, to the fisherman's hut, and then lain down, and feeling obtuse, because I was not used to pondering people's points pf view, carrying on my warfare with God about just why the fuck i was still alive when i did NOT want to be and hated every minute of the life; I asked Him, the One who Sees [and thus "Foresees" everything] YHWH- jireh, just why I was still here, and He replied, "Tell them the source of the cloud that does not bear water",and well, it was onlyb yesterday that I figured out that I go where i want to go, and would only leave and go wherever if I had somethings that i PERSONALLY liked, not because I felt I had a duty to do something;- I can NOT relate to such things, ever. I am completely unable to be like normal people, and I find that, when push comes to shove, it is impossible for me to liten to anyone's advice, ever, especially about how to live.
I have said i will have women to go with me, but if God had NOT said something about it, i would not be saying it, not because i have no mind of my own, as some women who flock all around me seem to think, but because I really do NOT care. i am still looking to God's hand, to see if He REALLY has plans for me for me to get what I like in life :- fuck, i have a brain that can process things faster than all the people i have encountered or read about, and arrive at a dead-eye conclusion that does not account for the biases or prejudices of most of these great thinkers; and I find that most people bore me before they even open their mouths or even show up near me, because I could use 5% of my brain and still be able to be light years ahead of them, and so, I find it difficult to accept that a human being, a NORMAL human being could see fit to actually contradict me, and think I will reallyb STOP being me so that I accommmodate that said person into my life, or the person's views, when in effect I have what amounts to unlimited de-facto powers to change what I do NOT like and do as I please, regardless, as i said, of how anyone feels about it.
Like I have to, regretfully NOT kill those other people that are martial arts experts in america, because, well, I can only focus on people that have either pised me off, or have pleased me and made me the focus of THEIR attention, and everything and everyone else is really invisible to me. Which is quite a good thing because obama with help in the land could sabotage some of the plants [mechanical] that I want left intcat for my future plans, but if he is alone, all alone and just a scared little man, he would be unable, for example, to tell the diffrence between the stealth bomber the B2 and the singer group U2, and I am interested in the former, a lot, because I have plans for it.
I am, as God said, an academic, which means that, while I WILL leave the males and such in Europek, regardless of whether they are black or white, as long as they are nationals, and not Zimbabweans and NOT jamaicans [i like the music, yes, but imagine an asshole correcting me about the childish-english that they call patois!] then I am free to needle the assholes, and make them mad, and THEN they will respond, but as is the case here, it will be after I have tagged and collected the women I want that i will exact my revenge. So, since THIS is phase One of the two prong attack plan, and I currently have women under consideration, of whom 23 have a more than 90% chance of being... mine... I am at a stage where I can start rolling my sleeves, and start beating up and killing those fools that pissed me off, male or female, and then I can depart, see?
but first, I have to see my parents, and well, send them on their way. THAT is something that I am looking to The Most High about, because he promised that one should "honour one's mother and father" which paul said was the first commandment with a promise.
And I intend to break almost every one of them ten commandments. Almost. Except for the one that says that one shall not covet another's wife, because the 'wife' is described in that same commandment as belonging to the man, his possession, and well, biology does bear that out, as i remerked when it comes to the garbage disposal aspect.
now, since ALL males are totally invisible to me, unless they have pissed me off, I have somewhat, dont you think, to say to someone like allison, who has a lot to explain about her actions vis-a-vis me, since it appears that she actually has a MAN in her life and yet ...!
you get the drift?
Woman was actually putting me, the King, as something less than the asshole she is with, when i have the power of life and death over everyone that is alive, and dead, because I have figured out that I can even have those that are dead woken and sent to hell, as i will, because they ALL piss me off!
So, I have a ... question... even to the david matthews woman, as to whether or not she has been having the garbage disposal bit since she decided to look my way, or whether those ashes were already long dead before I appeared on the scene, because see, certain things me nuh inna, and that is ONE thing me definitely NUH INNA.
