For the first time ever I have shown myself as i ... think, and allm that without any frills and no pretense, and the reason why I did not even want to start on this course to begin with was that I would hate being like God,, living with someone that I KNEW I held as too... important to me to just let go, but at the same time as not being above my wrath, and I am talking about the person I explained as the one I made up my mind that if i have tyo break her to get her to bend to my will, then so be it, but I will prevail and have her to myself;- nicky?Yet, from yesterady at the library, to today, even AFTER I had explained everything, even my own reluctance to have this blurred line where I act as judge, like God promising the woman that she would have pain at childbirth but only from birth caused by the man and no one and nothing else, STILL some stupid women wait like hawks to let me know just how wrong I am and pounce on my perceived ... weaknesses.
I am warning you NOW, try me THIS time, assholes, because I have laid everything in the open, and I am not a merciful person that you can reason with, nor should you expect that thre is some higher authority that you can depend on to defend you.
I am done NOT being myself. I am the king, and I will judge as I have promised, and I ... await... the responses of the four women that are at present aware of what I expect, and any fool that thinks she is included, well, if you were NOT on my death list, then I beg you invite yourself to it, by trying me this time.
oh, and nicky?, I know more about how you think than you think I do, and if you have seen the tone of my explanation about you yesterday, then you will know that I meant to speak but ONCE,a nd have a response. Anyone else I may overlook, and giove some time, but not you. So, try me THIS time, and let us have a test of wills, and this time, the worst thing you may fear will be to me less that the least you can ever expect. THIS I tell you!
Well, I suppose the blonde english chick knows herself, and i have no need to say anything more about her, although I would not even be here if it had not been for the fact that I was so sick of everything i decided to only go down to get some food, and found my money inadequate to get anything in kalk bay, and would have walked to fish hoek except for the fact that vinnie delayed me, and i ended up sitting all day with him, and got paid for some work, and had my one worry put in a differnt light, dont know if it is good or bad, because a woman passed by with a dog that she was looking after for the girl and mother i spoke of, who are said to be in Zimbabwe, and i did not know what to make of it, because i have gotten too fed up to look for another woman, and my mind is set on those. If these ones can not make it into my life, then fuck any other replacements. God, this is YOUR thing. You see to it, I am not interested in running after women, so, it is in YOUR hands. I will NOT allow anymore of these fools into my life, not now. I need to leave, and THAT is my priority. I hate this place, these eyes, and I want to start doing something about this discomfort, so, fuck any more adjustments! It is enough!
GGGGRRRRRRRRRRRRR! It is time to kill!
I am warning you NOW, try me THIS time, assholes, because I have laid everything in the open, and I am not a merciful person that you can reason with, nor should you expect that thre is some higher authority that you can depend on to defend you.
I am done NOT being myself. I am the king, and I will judge as I have promised, and I ... await... the responses of the four women that are at present aware of what I expect, and any fool that thinks she is included, well, if you were NOT on my death list, then I beg you invite yourself to it, by trying me this time.
oh, and nicky?, I know more about how you think than you think I do, and if you have seen the tone of my explanation about you yesterday, then you will know that I meant to speak but ONCE,a nd have a response. Anyone else I may overlook, and giove some time, but not you. So, try me THIS time, and let us have a test of wills, and this time, the worst thing you may fear will be to me less that the least you can ever expect. THIS I tell you!
Well, I suppose the blonde english chick knows herself, and i have no need to say anything more about her, although I would not even be here if it had not been for the fact that I was so sick of everything i decided to only go down to get some food, and found my money inadequate to get anything in kalk bay, and would have walked to fish hoek except for the fact that vinnie delayed me, and i ended up sitting all day with him, and got paid for some work, and had my one worry put in a differnt light, dont know if it is good or bad, because a woman passed by with a dog that she was looking after for the girl and mother i spoke of, who are said to be in Zimbabwe, and i did not know what to make of it, because i have gotten too fed up to look for another woman, and my mind is set on those. If these ones can not make it into my life, then fuck any other replacements. God, this is YOUR thing. You see to it, I am not interested in running after women, so, it is in YOUR hands. I will NOT allow anymore of these fools into my life, not now. I need to leave, and THAT is my priority. I hate this place, these eyes, and I want to start doing something about this discomfort, so, fuck any more adjustments! It is enough!
GGGGRRRRRRRRRRRRR! It is time to kill!
