But, here I am, again at the library, and not for the first time in my life, I am wondering which I should go with, my gut or my own preferance.
Because, see, on ONE HAND there are women that I tend towards, the curvy, fab type, right?
but on the other, there are REAL women, women that I have seen, women that have ... acted... towards me in certain manners that have left me in no doubt about how high I am in their esteem, and for some reason, that does go some way in getting me to get past their lack of ... flesh in certain areas.
provided, of course, that those women were, or are, single, and not seeking to be involved with me for all the wrong reasons, right?
So, one would wonder what I am talking about, here.
let me be specific.
I think allison has a great ass and all that, but one can not live with an ass, and frankly her behaviour as far as I am concerned has made me hate her, and I will very happily boil that guy she is with, and feed him to her, and then, finally, just leave her to live with that.
Now, THAT is what will happen to her, because tramping on my face like she did, as if i am to be impressed by her being there like she is some... I do not know what she thinks, but then she IS French, or something like that, and everyone knows that these women think as little of faithfulness as a bitch in heat. Its normal to them, so she will pay for trying THAT on me.
Which brings me to the... list... of the... agreed... women.
There ARE 18 confirmed, yes, but scratch the library woman, because I have been both remembering her last night, and the things about her that put me off, AND also I have been looking at her for a few minutes now as she moves around in front of me, and well, her waistline... !
There is none, and well, that shows how much or how little she cares about being true to herself. She probably eats a lot and then wears tight clothes just so that they hide the flab that is very obvious, and she has a heavy tread that shows how she is really, herself, only on a sort of compromise-at-all-costs mode. I hate women like that, because they wear one down, and expect one to lift them up, look at them and all that so that they have a better opinion of themselves, and that is pathetic, since one either sees what is wrong and sorts it out, or one just gets going with it and to hell with secondary opinions.
So, there are 18.BUT
God speaks of 20, and even after I did away with the ... possible... meaning of "Dunkirk" which was that I should put myself in Hitler's shoes and deal with my 'enemies' and leave none of them to get away, I find that I can NOT, as I originally intended, kill off every non-black person, or the jews and such, because I NEED their land with its fuel, for now, till I have no more need of these, which is, when I have made my own type of vehicle that does not have to have fossil fuel, nor can I destroy the japanese, because of their technology [ I guess one gets the sense that I am going to be very... VISIBLE... and moving around in the future, NOT stuck in one place] so the ONLY people that wioll NOT exist anymore, wherever they are, are black, aboriginals, coloured or those south american breeds.
Just so that anyone who SEES me will KNOW that this is THE Prince, and not mistake me for Will Smith or some such idiot.
So, it brings me back to the missing two, and the fact that the ONE who has the FINAL say, the approval, the seal, is ME, not God, because He does NOT have to live with these people, and because the person has to be something that I have to find acceptable, or I will KILL her.
Personally, even if she has gone against EVERYTHING that I expected to find in a woman, the way she has gone ABOUT it has made me very impressed with this woman, who now, if I am wrong about her, finds herself in very troubled waters, because she will have to answer to the surviving relations after I leave about why she would offer her granddaughter to me, and been forced to EAT that same granddaughter so that I can have my revenge and leave her alive... OR... she fially shows some sense and decides to walk away from a situation that will probably get worse for her with her sons EVEN before I kill them, once I have my... food situation in full order.
I am talking about butt-head's mom, and I will even concede that her coming up to me and walking around in a dress could be interpreted as meaning that she did NOT think she was THE ultimate woman for me, but was trying to get into my good books and seeking ways to please me, [even though the best way would just have been to... ah... I do not know, maybe SAY something about it?]... OR it could be what I suspected off the bat, that she was mocking me.
She could also NOT have been seeking to palm off her granddaughter on me, but maybe the granddaughter herself could have been... interested, and she could have been trying to show me how they were... connected, so that I actually end up NOT killing nicky?, but leaving her to die another day?
or she could have been mocking me.
So, maybe these ARE the two, or there will be NONE more?
I do not know, because I am, as I admitted not long ago, NOT certain how this will pan out, but what I do KNOW is that as soon as I am set up foodwise, I am going, going, gone, and people start dying, dying, till they are dead, DEAD, DEAD
its not safe to go walk about
a slaughter-house from Baghdad to Waterhouse
a slaughter-house from Baghdad to Waterhouse
