If someone were to tell you that he thinks better than you do and thus knows exactly what you need so shut up and enjoy what he has got for you, you would call it abuse, right?
Even if that someone happens to be The Most High God?
Would you still do the same thing?
of course not, right? Because you know what happens when someone messes with a God who says, 'come, let Us reason to get her; though your sins be scarlet, they shall be as snow, though they be ... If you are willing and OBEDIENT, you shall eat the good of the land, but if you resist and rebel, you shall be devoured by the sword'
You know, then just how REASONABLE He is, right? Especially since He says , after the "My ways are not your ways...", bit;- 'I will NOT alter the word that has gone forth from My lips', which means if he says it, it WILL happen, regardless of how many stand against it, be the ten,a thousand, or a billion .
But then, that was befopre He met me, someon whose mind works this way:- I do not care much for anyone or anything, and everything has to be... logical, comeing in rorder from that which came before, no assumptions, no leaps, no gaps, and I was asking myself, over and over again, just what the fuck gave Him the right to SAY anything in my life, AT all, and I think I said it, more than once, in my posts, that I wanted Him to just expose Himself just ONCE and I will have Him out of my life, and now, I find that The Immutable One, who is celebrated as having "no variation nor shadow of turning, is really just as vain and pompous as everybody else, hiding His true essence behind clever sounding and deep words, so I say this, NOW and for ever: "Fuck You , you arsehole!"
He made the ... mistake... because His hatred for women blinded Him -and silly fool, He MADE the woman- of thinking that just because my mother had made my life miserable, so if He showed me a way of getting even with HER, of getting over her, then I would kiss His arse, but He overreached Himself. See how everyone of His.. pronouncements ... were all to do with... women?
"Sepetember 18;- Independence day", 'Sunday 21 October'; the Cunt can not get cunt out of His mind, and to Him I was something to be fought over , to be won from women, so that He could say, with pride, "I have claimed you for Myself"
Well, Fuck Him, because I will NOT play His game. If anyone wants to know just who I hate the most, it is Him, becauseI have decided that I will wage war on Him till the end, till He gives in, and leaves, so that I die, because He is definitely in my crosshairs.
He said there was nothing I could do that would make Him change His... love... for me, so here goes.
Now that I know that He spoke of nicky?, of that girl in that 'inkfish' studio, and so assumed that if I had these, among others, I would stop... looking, and be content, well, guess what, I have them on a death sentence, and fuck, I WILL do as I said to allison, even if she had nothing going on with that guy she was with who had come to get his driver's license or some such bullshit! Because apparently, after she saw that I was so easily swayed by the 'employment' woman, and welcomed her, she thought she could maybe borrow on the God leaning and come and pose.
Any woman who0 thinks anything of God and thinks He has any influence with me is dead, dead, dead!
By my hand.
SO, both her and the other French sounding girl are dead, and what is more, after I make them eat their 'significant others', I will have this whole South Africa rezed to the ground, and the lands where these other women, all of the eighteen, may have been where they had ... men.
Just so that there is no son of a bitch out there who will gloat when my back is turned to say I am taking his leavings, because, well, practically women are nothing more than glorified garbage cans on legs, who may seem as good as anything on the outside, but are repositories for men's piss.
And, anyway, what started this whole shit thing to begin with was michelle, and God used that to point out my mother and to point out the fact that I could get two birds with one stone; get some women who 'looked up' to me to get over -supposedly- my mother's 'rejection', and then take women close to michelle to gloat over HER, even after I have killed her, and thus never keep myself turning over and over in my mind the fact that she should NEVER have messed with me, and refuse to... move on.
So, because i had said to michelle on Thursday15 September, that I would be going to the USA and would probably get a Latino woman, and she had asked what that was, and I had said "spanish american', He decided that He would provide one here, so I would stop looking, and there she was, with chunky boy of all things, and it was as if she had a sign that said 'here I am!'.
yeah, and she always was with that guy. except that once when she drove by alone in her Pajero, and made me realise she HAD been readin my posts.Because I had gone back on my colour thing.
And as for nicky?, God went on and on about how stupid she was, as if she was NOT responsible for her actions, and then, later, when I asked to see her, and she showed up, I guess the only thing about her that did NOT make me throw up was that she leaned towards me.
I guess that kind of supplication means I will not kill her as I intended, but the ONLY way to stop me from doing that is if she - and here I hate butt-head's mom for her 'offer'- decided to relinquishe her daughter to me.
That would, if you are counting, make it two females.
Then there is butt-head's mom, who, surprisingly, I 'saw' after I had said, and here God seems to have given in without quibble, that I did not even agree with His way of doing things,( and I surprised myself by saying I wanted HER as my first white woman)so I want someone who sees as I see, and she showed up that very same day, after I had rejected the other girl who made me realise that nicky? visions did come from God, because of her nose, and that she was therefore nicky?'s sister.
Then, of course, there is the little one with her red cheeks who I described before, and who I comapred favourably with michelle, and thought that because she lived somehwere 'up there' where michelle seems to also stay, it would gall michelle no end to have her with me while I turn my back on the bitch.
Then there is the other snmall one with the funny gap between her legs, and here I was, as you all know, disconcerted because God did that, "do you really have a mind of your own?" thing, so that I could just accept the rubbish like that Kalk Bay girl and get my mind off women and focus on other things. Now, what, I ask you, is more... interesting... than sex?
Well, I think about it more than anything else,day and night, and there is nothing that stops me paying attention to the smaller things like living.
So, fuck, I intend that there be sex, sex, sex, till God gets fed up, and when I leave I am going to look for pussy, and fuck His opinion of things.
Now, of course, I was going to wash my hands of all these other women, these five, and just kill everyone and take my 18, and leave, but what do you know, I am still to get paid for my frames, and the gusy said ither today or tomorrow, which means I will buy food later, meaning tomorrow, and watch as He kills people, this armchair adviser of mine, the pussy!
