So, yesterday, I decided I would kill my mother before I even got started on anything, since I could NOT bear to have her involved in ANYTHING I did, right?
Then, it follows [represented by, in mathematics, =>] that ANYONE who, in the course of my awakening, either contributed to, or was...of use, in the intended self-humiliation that I was set on, IF I had decided to let her live; that is, any mother who decided to show her colours as such to me, or any undesirable woman who decided that she would be ... acceptable to me by foistering her offspring or the offsprings good-will, on me, is DEAD.
I will kill such a person/persons personally.
that means, practically, that I am going to take my time to strangle or otherwise mangle butt-head's mother, because of her son and daughter; michelle, because of her presumption; nicky? for throwing in her lot with her friend and brother, and the other sister who showed up in her mini for being involved in my business, yes?
That also includes the various and sundry people who made it their business to show up in my face, either doing drive-bys, or thinking if they paraded they would get me to rave about them.
Which pretty much covers all the osc, because now that I have no blinkes on, now that I have no NEED to pretend, I do NOT have to accept any bullshit from anyone, or accept such rubbish as their assumptions that there actually exists a single person on this planet, now or ever, that I actually... LIKE.
That being said, I was rather upset a few days ago when I saw this mother who wanted me to come to church, and while i decided that she was the one who had been spoken of and that she was the answer to the "Walker, Texas Ranger" riddle, I also could NOT get over the... facial hair that she had, and fuck, I am NOT a tolerant person, and, as God meant when He pointed out that I should
seek not during the day what ...[I]... can not find at night, nor seek at night what ... [I]... can not find during the day,
meaning that there should be a... coherence... to all these things, and that the women I ended up with should be both acceptable to look at, at all times, whether sexually turning me on or subservient and eager when I am not ... on them, then
=> only those who went out of their way to both attract my attention as well as having no other agenda than to, to put it bluntly, get in my pants, well, then these are the ones I should ... accept, and forget about the rest, see?
because I have a... target, one i figured out when I decided for myself just what all these extra years I got given of this life were all about, if that did not mean MORE woman hunting.
Simple:- I hate everybody, and that, apparently, is cool with God, because so does He. Yesterday, I did not get to the point of my Jonah story, because what i meant to add was that jonah did NOT want to do what God wanted because he assumed that God belonged to the jews and had to have no jurisdiction over other people, since He should be for them, not anyone else, see?
he should have revised his way of seeing things, just as i have had to revise the way i see God, because He has made it abundantly clear that in this world, in REAL terms, there may as well just be ME in existence, because the whole point to all that He has been doing is that He refuses to let me wallow in the depths of the stupidity of everyone's opinions or customs, but rather that, if i am not satisfied with anything, be that thing be as hard to resolve as the hardest mathematical puzzle, than there will be no pains spared to make that thing right.
And, from where i stand, what pisses me off is the inherent inferiority complex attached to being black, and so, the MAIN thing is that, before I kill the assholes that are the rest of you, after I have done with the people HERE, I will have proved myself superior in every aspect, to everyone else, and unique as well.
That may be interpreted to mean that, among other things, i have to first of all get rid of ... everyone in the southern hemisphere who shares my pigmentation... ha ha!
Actually the thing is, i hate leaving an aunt of mine in australia alive if my mother dies, because the aunt never liked my mother and she would be smug about it, so, i will kill HER, see, and then there will be no one of my family to give me grief, and anyway, i have to colonise the colonisers in their back yards, and that means moving the center of operations to the NORTH, and sparing only THOSE that have , while being officially recognised as... superior... made themselves something for me to step on, see?
I mean the ten women.
THE 7 and 3.
And any who may have approximated to them, like the five that I set aside, although they each have bits and pieces to do away with, yes?
I mean, I had to THINK about it, in order to get to the bottom of it, but yeah, I guess they get to live, if they can fill in the blanks.
AND if they have not looked at any other person since me.
because THAT gets them killed, since I equate myself to no one.
And I am above all, something which, if i have to prove it, to THEM, would mean I get to kill them after.
No, I want these brought to me to just verify what i suspect. And then i will either have them live, or die.
then there is the German girl , verana.
let me say that she stole my heart, and well, I suppose that I will accept her as well, for a lot of reasons, the first being she probably never has had sex, and would be a great asset in that case, although in my view it is HER interest in me that makes her qualify, not mine in her.
I am incapable of ... liking... anyone, or bearing anyone, not for anyone or even for me.
Which brings me to the girl i have been avoiding in kalk bay.
Fuck, if SHE can not read that I have no interest in her by now, then she is stupid. I think that I can never have anything to do with her, and the visions amy be whatever they may be, but I have been lied to before, and i will NOT have someone who makes me growl everytime i see her.
Fuck, it stays at sixteen. Or seventeen with the woman at the library.
Except where allison, and that small one with her red cheeks are concerned. Now those two women are sexy, yes, and I want to KNOW just why they ... paraded around me me, and why those guys were involved, and WHO those guys are.
If I am satisfied, than I get to have them, but if not, I get to gut them, slowly, and make them suffer for treating me like a kid who is bribed with toys while being robbed of his milk.
I will NOT be laughed at.
ANYWAY, to get to the surprise of yesterday.
This chick with the nice looking gap betwen her legs decides to do a walk by as i pass... presumably... where...
