the guy was furious that I did not have it the day after, and I blew up because he said words that implied that I was something of his lackey, and then I made him back off, see, and then, the last day, the day I told him I would NOT have anything more to do with him, I wanted to avoid having to beat him up, because the alley where tinashe works is NOT the same place as this busy road, and I was tired of being always angry with people, so I settled for R60 for something which, truthfully, goes for something like R350, but I did not get it.
Today, when I was unhappy with the glass beads that I had, for they were too large, I decided to go see him and get a bigger horse I had framed and had had nothing for. I was NOT interested in the other white horse.
I found him not there, took the horse anyway, and as I was going to phone the lady with the rest of the money, I bumped into him, and I told him what I had done and that I had left word, called the lady, who told me she would be free tomorrow or the day after, and I thought, well, here is me on a hunger strike, and so I was even more pissed off, see, and so when he tried his cajoling and threatening, I told him, after he started speaking and pointing fingers into my chest, that if he knew just how close he was to having me plaster his face all over the road - and by then, my familiar, the berserker, was FULLY in control, and all I was seeing was death for the guy -then he would finish all his deals with me and try NOT to piss me off, because I DID not want to have anything more to do with him, and he told me to take everything i had made that had '?' attached to it, and he even handed the stuff to me.
I took it went to the beach, along with two warthogs, and there met this lady with some guy and the guy said he would talk to the lady and see if she would let him buy the thing for the R50 I had said it was for.
this is part of the $ that I am using now.
After all, all i need is something like R16 to go eat, right?
the rest is so much nonsense to me.
Anyway charlie comes with a mach1 guard - I hate those fuckers- and the two try to intimidate me, and as usual, i start from mild, to really pissed off till I as much as told them I WOULD tear them apart, and if they are so riled, call the fucking police because i will NOT talk anymore, assholes, and if you point a finge to me anymore I WILL take it personally, shithead.
The guard hightails it, and charlie tells me about his beads that I used on the horse, so i give him the R12 I had on me, R10 which this whitelady gave me because I probably look destitute, and R3 which this xhosa lady also gave me, for the same reason, minus R1 that I used to call the woman about the horse.
he speaks about the R15 I had got for the horse, and I tell him to take the warthogs and get the fuck out of my face, and he does, and as he left, the man comes, buys the thing, and I am suddenly in the internet cafe.
Which background covered, let me say something that I only grasped because of something God said to me this morning and also because of what I wrote as i concluded my earlier post.
There was, way back when, a vision I had, which vision caused me lots of consternation, see
This vision was something I got as a HUD, meaning it happened as i was in my waking mode. I was literally getting off my bed in my parents' home when the spoon flashed in front of my eyes and I read, on the handle,
those who dwelt in darkness
And i obviously have told some of it, but the circumstances eluded me till I just off-hand, today said, that as soon as I got over my anger with women I would deal with other issues.
All this after i had said I have my eye on 25 women, and had listed them.
now, of course, the women probably think, from the way i have spoken, that they are assured things, see, and that since GOD said this and that, they are of course in the gold, so to speak, but what maybe they do not acknowledge is that I have nothing to lose here, and since God started all this nonsense all I have to do is say, 'fuck, its Your business how this happens;- I am STILL going to punish those who pissed me off, and whther they live through it, is up to You and them, not me'.
I do not carry any baggagem, so if someone decides to piss on me thinking God will say, Ok, I am with you, hey, think again, I WILL have my revenge, and if God is in one corner and them in the other, I am caught in the middle, and from NOW on i intend to RULE, and have my way, regardless of what anyone may think or say.
Now, this is what God said this morning, a quote from the song by red rat:
and you have your own place
And I knew He was NOT talking about the mountain but rather the place that has been -meaning is about to be- prepared for me, since NOW I will focus on the people and deal with the scum that you all are, and have things as I dictate, without negotiation.
the reason is that allison the woman with the super-legs (the like of which i have never seen, granted) decided she would piss me off yesterday, and she was the last straw, that made me decide I am really going to pummel people regardless of who they are, and she WILL eat that guy, and as i said, whether she will live through that or not is NOT my concern;- I HATE everyone so fiercely that NO ONE is allowed any room to mess with me.
So, I am going to be starting the trouble, as soon as I go back to the mountain, finish my food, and come down.
I normally have three or four pots of rice per day, but if I am doing nothing, it is normally more, so the 2.5kg rice will be finished before m
All this after i had said I have my eye on 25 women, and had listed them.
now, of course, the women probably think, from the way i have spoken, that they are assured things, see, and that since GOD said this and that, they are of course in the gold, so to speak, but what maybe they do not acknowledge is that I have nothing to lose here, and since God started all this nonsense all I have to do is say, 'fuck, its Your business how this happens;- I am STILL going to punish those who pissed me off, and whther they live through it, is up to You and them, not me'.
I do not carry any baggagem, so if someone decides to piss on me thinking God will say, Ok, I am with you, hey, think again, I WILL have my revenge, and if God is in one corner and them in the other, I am caught in the middle, and from NOW on i intend to RULE, and have my way, regardless of what anyone may think or say.
Now, this is what God said this morning, a quote from the song by red rat:
and you have your own place
And I knew He was NOT talking about the mountain but rather the place that has been -meaning is about to be- prepared for me, since NOW I will focus on the people and deal with the scum that you all are, and have things as I dictate, without negotiation.
the reason is that allison the woman with the super-legs (the like of which i have never seen, granted) decided she would piss me off yesterday, and she was the last straw, that made me decide I am really going to pummel people regardless of who they are, and she WILL eat that guy, and as i said, whether she will live through that or not is NOT my concern;- I HATE everyone so fiercely that NO ONE is allowed any room to mess with me.
So, I am going to be starting the trouble, as soon as I go back to the mountain, finish my food, and come down.
I normally have three or four pots of rice per day, but if I am doing nothing, it is normally more, so the 2.5kg rice will be finished before m
onday. Fuck, I may even buy pork, as well, or log off now and go shopping. I am fucking hungry after all.
nuh go deal
see me .... say the hitman are come
then one time to come are them funeral
then think say them think say
then are the general
nuh go deal
then one time to come are them funeral
then think say them think say
then are the general
