the text, from memory, perforce, since I only have 45 min, goes "Go tell Hezekiah;- I have seen your tears, I have heard your prayers, behold, I have added 15 years to your life", and when I get really stressed up, I start... wondering, WTF that was supposed to mean, for me.Ok, I will start with my mother, whose... wiles... I had seen, and who I did not wish to have to kill, but I could not live the lie she wanted me to perpetuate, so, I had, for years already, been rebelling, but it was ONLY when I was certain I had no life left to live that I decided to start something that would get her off my back.
And I failed.
And tried patching whatever was left of my life together, KNOWING that God is YHWH-rapha, the One Who... Covers (read the exodus text;- "If you obey MY statuettes and ...I will not BRING OUT on you the diseases I brought out on the Egyptians, for I am YHWH-rapha") but not interested in healing, as you call it, and starting some kind of stable life, of which I complained to Him later and He sent the Isaiah text with the yoke thing.
this is the... sequence.
because later He said that about me, that He had added 15 years to my life, and looking at me NOW, as I saw myself a few moments ago in the library ...bat- ...fuck;-toilet, fit and with some flesh on me, you would NOT believe that I am supposed to be, by rights, terminally ill, and not even, by all accounts, alive.
if anything I said is true.
but then, why should I lie? i have no one to impress, and well, no one impresses ME so much that I must try to come up with some line to seem more than I am, so, who cares? Definitely NOT me.
Anyway, after my last post yesterday, I went back to the market, and ...saw things. And I have decided that it is way past time I made everyone responsible for their own actions, and started acting like i feel inside.
I made a promise, for example to the jew chick that she should stay out of my way, and not be used in anything, and she ... disobeyed.
And the first sign of THAT was her car parked right by the blue bottle entrance, so I could not miss it as I walked up to vinnie's stall.
well, I suppose you thought i had a heart, but I suppose you ought to know that my mother has made me so intolerant to ... women... that I will never overlook the least bit of nonsense your gender tries on men, like we thing we our hearts or dicks or something. the original man was made as a copy of God, which means he saw only what was ... necessary, and for him, the reason he left the... obvious... a nude woman, and probably never even had any ...knowledge... of her till after the serpent was because he knew of no NEED for that.
So, as i told you, after thinking it through, that if you defied me and did as you thought, I would punish you ina certain way, then so it stands. prepeare for hell, you, your family and everything you hold dear.
because for all of you on this planet, from now on, it is by MY word that you live or die.
The other fool was the gallery woman. She had her car parked behind the jew girl's, and she even showed up near me, and at one time I was even a few inches away from her as i decided that God was making my life impossible, and i did not understand why He should keep me alive when i have to dance to women's tunes, and I had gotten so depressed i went and slept, and maybe they assumed that i was reconsidering what I was planning. Yeah, right! I promised YOU that for your part in my humiliationg by that stupid apple chick, you would die. THAT stands, and that pile of rubbish you use to look down on me will be your burial mound, and i will reduce the whole thing to rubble and ashes, you and all that work in it. it shall be a day that I choose, and you will know it when it happens, for thinking me a fool.
I will NOT be mocked!
I told you many times to stay out of my business and you would not listen, and now, when you plead with me, i will NOT listen as well. You are dead.
let us see who has the last word on that.
then came the short and dumpy woman, who I saw with the idiot woman, as they walked from her CR-V, and i suppose that she was telling me that if i wanted HER near me, I would have to stop takling a hard-line stance and maybe stop all this about the deaths of all those who work for mike or in that building, et.c., and so, i have seen your ways, and for me, it is simple, you stand in my path, and start trying to dictate terms to the Unbending One, then you will pay for that with your life. I will even exchange your life for that of the apple chick, just to spite you. because NO ONE mocks me and gets away with it.
i have had it up to my eyeballs with women's folly. I have been amused that they have gone all out to convince ME, like I care, that THEY are the ones i should be thinking of when in effect it is their own responsibility to show what THEY, the silly ignorant fools want from ME? I really do NOT care about any of you fools, and i would NEVER lose sleep over you, if you die, nor will my life be in any way shortened or empty because you are not in it. Fuck, you, if i even looked at any of you, were seemingly better ... behaved... than what was pissing me off at the time, and it is NOTHING to me that you live or die. So, defy me and die, and see who is pained by that!
As for the apple chick, this woman is 100% total down syndrome. She had the gall to walk up to me, with a GUY, and walk past, and i was supposed to do what, start seeing her as the best thing to ever happen to me, Ha!
girl, I am making you come out in the open. IF you had a child with that asshole, then said child is dead, and if that gallery woman was your mother, then said woman is also dead, and those guys that you angered me with, they are also dead, but I am going to totally raze everything around you so that you, your self, have to end up ansqwering to me, about probably the most essential question to you, whether you will live or burn forever in hell. You will STAND face to face with me, and answer to me for YOUR actions, and I swear to you NOW that you will never escape from me till you come out in the open. And answer to ME! never has anyone ever angered me as you have, and for that, I will have your hide!
I did not see red-breeches, I think, unless the woman that walked quickly past me in some spotted long pants was her, and i only saw the back of her head. If it was in ... protest.. against the planned deaths of anyone in mike's family that she decided to throw her lot with that guy (assuming, as I said, that it was HER, to begin with) then woman, know that i will NOT relent. I will not spare anyone that I have earmarked for death, and i will not negotiate with anyone.If you had not brought that issue up with me, then you would not have to be reaping the consequences. you saw me as a MULE, you silly bitch? fuck, you will see what i think of THAT! And you still have to answer to ME. And there is no hiding from that.
then there is the swimmer woman, and i have had time to think of you wanting to insult me by offering me the other daughter so that i could be some kind of father. I will have her dead, before you and the other daughter even come near to me for judgement. every action of yours has consequences, and it is time to show that i am good at ... rewarding... actions. MY way.
And I failed.
And tried patching whatever was left of my life together, KNOWING that God is YHWH-rapha, the One Who... Covers (read the exodus text;- "If you obey MY statuettes and ...I will not BRING OUT on you the diseases I brought out on the Egyptians, for I am YHWH-rapha") but not interested in healing, as you call it, and starting some kind of stable life, of which I complained to Him later and He sent the Isaiah text with the yoke thing.
this is the... sequence.
because later He said that about me, that He had added 15 years to my life, and looking at me NOW, as I saw myself a few moments ago in the library ...bat- ...fuck;-toilet, fit and with some flesh on me, you would NOT believe that I am supposed to be, by rights, terminally ill, and not even, by all accounts, alive.
if anything I said is true.
but then, why should I lie? i have no one to impress, and well, no one impresses ME so much that I must try to come up with some line to seem more than I am, so, who cares? Definitely NOT me.
Anyway, after my last post yesterday, I went back to the market, and ...saw things. And I have decided that it is way past time I made everyone responsible for their own actions, and started acting like i feel inside.
I made a promise, for example to the jew chick that she should stay out of my way, and not be used in anything, and she ... disobeyed.
And the first sign of THAT was her car parked right by the blue bottle entrance, so I could not miss it as I walked up to vinnie's stall.
well, I suppose you thought i had a heart, but I suppose you ought to know that my mother has made me so intolerant to ... women... that I will never overlook the least bit of nonsense your gender tries on men, like we thing we our hearts or dicks or something. the original man was made as a copy of God, which means he saw only what was ... necessary, and for him, the reason he left the... obvious... a nude woman, and probably never even had any ...knowledge... of her till after the serpent was because he knew of no NEED for that.
So, as i told you, after thinking it through, that if you defied me and did as you thought, I would punish you ina certain way, then so it stands. prepeare for hell, you, your family and everything you hold dear.
because for all of you on this planet, from now on, it is by MY word that you live or die.
The other fool was the gallery woman. She had her car parked behind the jew girl's, and she even showed up near me, and at one time I was even a few inches away from her as i decided that God was making my life impossible, and i did not understand why He should keep me alive when i have to dance to women's tunes, and I had gotten so depressed i went and slept, and maybe they assumed that i was reconsidering what I was planning. Yeah, right! I promised YOU that for your part in my humiliationg by that stupid apple chick, you would die. THAT stands, and that pile of rubbish you use to look down on me will be your burial mound, and i will reduce the whole thing to rubble and ashes, you and all that work in it. it shall be a day that I choose, and you will know it when it happens, for thinking me a fool.
I will NOT be mocked!
I told you many times to stay out of my business and you would not listen, and now, when you plead with me, i will NOT listen as well. You are dead.
let us see who has the last word on that.
then came the short and dumpy woman, who I saw with the idiot woman, as they walked from her CR-V, and i suppose that she was telling me that if i wanted HER near me, I would have to stop takling a hard-line stance and maybe stop all this about the deaths of all those who work for mike or in that building, et.c., and so, i have seen your ways, and for me, it is simple, you stand in my path, and start trying to dictate terms to the Unbending One, then you will pay for that with your life. I will even exchange your life for that of the apple chick, just to spite you. because NO ONE mocks me and gets away with it.
i have had it up to my eyeballs with women's folly. I have been amused that they have gone all out to convince ME, like I care, that THEY are the ones i should be thinking of when in effect it is their own responsibility to show what THEY, the silly ignorant fools want from ME? I really do NOT care about any of you fools, and i would NEVER lose sleep over you, if you die, nor will my life be in any way shortened or empty because you are not in it. Fuck, you, if i even looked at any of you, were seemingly better ... behaved... than what was pissing me off at the time, and it is NOTHING to me that you live or die. So, defy me and die, and see who is pained by that!
As for the apple chick, this woman is 100% total down syndrome. She had the gall to walk up to me, with a GUY, and walk past, and i was supposed to do what, start seeing her as the best thing to ever happen to me, Ha!
girl, I am making you come out in the open. IF you had a child with that asshole, then said child is dead, and if that gallery woman was your mother, then said woman is also dead, and those guys that you angered me with, they are also dead, but I am going to totally raze everything around you so that you, your self, have to end up ansqwering to me, about probably the most essential question to you, whether you will live or burn forever in hell. You will STAND face to face with me, and answer to me for YOUR actions, and I swear to you NOW that you will never escape from me till you come out in the open. And answer to ME! never has anyone ever angered me as you have, and for that, I will have your hide!
I did not see red-breeches, I think, unless the woman that walked quickly past me in some spotted long pants was her, and i only saw the back of her head. If it was in ... protest.. against the planned deaths of anyone in mike's family that she decided to throw her lot with that guy (assuming, as I said, that it was HER, to begin with) then woman, know that i will NOT relent. I will not spare anyone that I have earmarked for death, and i will not negotiate with anyone.If you had not brought that issue up with me, then you would not have to be reaping the consequences. you saw me as a MULE, you silly bitch? fuck, you will see what i think of THAT! And you still have to answer to ME. And there is no hiding from that.
then there is the swimmer woman, and i have had time to think of you wanting to insult me by offering me the other daughter so that i could be some kind of father. I will have her dead, before you and the other daughter even come near to me for judgement. every action of yours has consequences, and it is time to show that i am good at ... rewarding... actions. MY way.
the final thing is this.
I was told by vinnie after i told him flat out last night that I would not be joining him in church ever again and refused to go for bible study with him, that, after the bible study, the pastor had said he could look for me for a place that i would stay, in Site 5. Like what i said about being exposed meant that i needed a place to stay.I will repay them hypocrites by wiping all of them, except brett and the other pastor who went to zim, from the ace of the earth. silly fools who do not take things as they stand but assume that there is a hidden meaning do not deserve to remain alive.
I have spoken
I was told by vinnie after i told him flat out last night that I would not be joining him in church ever again and refused to go for bible study with him, that, after the bible study, the pastor had said he could look for me for a place that i would stay, in Site 5. Like what i said about being exposed meant that i needed a place to stay.I will repay them hypocrites by wiping all of them, except brett and the other pastor who went to zim, from the ace of the earth. silly fools who do not take things as they stand but assume that there is a hidden meaning do not deserve to remain alive.
I have spoken
