every time i am not online, I am assimilating info, doing double checks and wondering exactly what I, ME, want.
in amy fighting skill, once one distills the bullshit from the practical, they tell you that to be proficient you have to find inner peace, because as long as you fight yourself you can not prevail and I NEED to prevail, now, especially NOW.The Thing is, I have discovered, the way a person views me is not likely to... change... even if I show my true colours. That much is true of my friend, who despite my being very aware of his faults and nature, I have determined to stand true to my word about, which is the source of my present embarrassment, because while I see his side of it, I also know that I can not be limited in my approach to life by his needs and perceptions. I AM, whether it makes sense to any of you or not, IN CHARGE, and I inetend to exercise that right to the fullest extent possible, while NOT actually harming those I seek to protect, which, currently are the people that would cause me great grief if they were to... perish. Like my father and mother, and sisters, and two cousins. The rest can die, and good riddance.
Therefore, since I am NOT interested in keeping excess garbage, or people who have sneered at me, or people who ave caused me to be very, very very pissed off, alive, I have had to reach down deep and see where I wanna be, as far as my progress is concerned.
Because one thing you people should bear in mind is that EVERYTHING I do, is NEVER for someone else, but for myself, and well, I have taken a fancy to being... free, and leaving whoever remains alive after I am gone with NO doubt about just what is what, about life, and removing the veil from God, so that all of You will see Him as He is, and if you can not stomach it, you will die.
obviously, I am deeply biased, but NOT towards God, or as, I mentioned, you all, but towards my own agendas, and so, everything that happens will happen MY way, at MY tempo, and with MY finger on the trigger, and I do NOT take counsel from anyone.
Now, I was going to take the battle to anyone who cared to cross me yesterday, because the .... DANGEROUS thing I have found out about myself is that I am not particularly, interested in what happens tomorrow, because if I were to care that much, I would end up becoming worried, so I am settling for the here and now.
I personally depise the arrogant asshole who is vinnie's landlord, but then, he has a friend, a guy called luke, who has tried to intercede -maybe he thought subtly- on the shithead's behalf, and so, I am giving him, as horse-owners say, 'his head'> he is free to do as he pleases, but if he ever corsses me before I am gone, then i am FIRST going to beat him up, bad, and then do what i am totally able to do since i can not personally kill anyone without having to release the anger on my parents as well,- send him to hell. So, that is the deal as far as he is concerned.
As for tony beggar, the owner of outspan, whose absence was very... conspicuous ..yesterday, hell, call me names one more time, or even NOT watch your tongue, then I will have you for dinner. I have already LOST my head, lost my mind, and I do NOT care anymore what the consequences may be for my actions, but I am eyeing you with an eye full of malice. because I intend to NOT be exposed to vinnie till I am ready to go- think of his trauma- I am keeping you alive ... for NOW, but I can dance the other dance as well.
Then there is the contemporary art chick, and basically every female that HAS pissed me off, and their ... gangs. You all are DEAD, and that is NOT something I will back down on. YOU are going to hell, and you have the choice of FIRST pissing me off if you want to, and then you die anyway, or you just go to hell.
funny thing, though, about some OTHER contemporary art chick;- she saw mw walking from blue bottle towards the train station, like, maybe a month or more back, and she was going to some white car that was parked in that lot next to the haven night shelter. She broke into a run, as if seeking her own shelter in her car, and I was just walking, and I was checking her out- during those days when the contemporay art chick went AWOL- and I saw she had a better ass than the obnoxious one, but why the hell was she running away, in her boots? The day I got pissed off with the four of them;- she was the other blonde, was when I remembered where I had seen her before, and well, I may NOT have a true composite picture of her, but hell, someone who runs when no one is chasing is probably NOT wanting to be found out, as to her true feelings, and hell, if she thinks what I thinks she thinks about me, then I find her thoughts about me quite acceptable, if I am right, which shall only be seen if she does something about it, yes?
then comes the rest of the world!
Now, I need to leave, yes?
And so the problem is first of all local, which means that since NO ONE is going to give me a free plane ride, I am going to have to TAKE what I want by REMOVING the ... law. So, every member of whatever governing body will have to be totally exterminated, and go on 'vacation' in some warm place.
then, just to make sure that no one gets any ideas, I am having soweto, the xhosa homeland [eastern cape], and zululand totally wiped out, as well, as places in Strand where them xenophobic assholes- and some 'friends'- stay, as well as Site 5,go up in flames.
So that I can walk to Rhodes' former home, and take over without anyone raising their head. It is called maximum disruption. I am turning over your lives and knocking out everything you have put your trust in, and i do not even care about putting in a new world order, because i am thinking that i will have 27 women as i leave, and then along the way pick up- some 40 more so that we make this a true race thing, since MY aim is complete dominationm, but to have fun while i am doing it. God and 'turning the hearts of the children to their fathers' is a secondary thing, a by-product, because I DO NOT serve God, and NEVER will. I see where it makes some kind of sense, but hell, I think I am more interested in what happens here and now and pleases my sensuous senses than some high moral deeds.
Now, assuming that the dutch chick is kosher, and the eerman chick as well, then I have twenty- two females, with the twenty already confirmed between me and God, all these without their knowledge.
then, because well, every 'married' woman who looks my way is actually dead meat, anyway, no matter how attractive, and I have grown tired of physical violence, since I want peace in my home, and also because i could not get over the fact that when the Glencairn woman was smiling as i looked her over till the S/Town blonde started doing those "are you watching ME?" motions because i was quickly fed up with her presumtion, I can not help thinking that I will have the two that ARE here , the scooter girl and the olympia chick as well, and THEN over there, provided they all are amenable to my will, the canadian chick, but I have decduced that I NEED two more here before I am raised up, which is where the other contemporary art chick comes into consideration, as well as teh one that got out of the pool as I showed up, and showed her ... wares... as she whowered. Fuck, I am very lustful, am I not?
Dont you just hate having a life decided by a dick?
Ha ha!
in amy fighting skill, once one distills the bullshit from the practical, they tell you that to be proficient you have to find inner peace, because as long as you fight yourself you can not prevail and I NEED to prevail, now, especially NOW.The Thing is, I have discovered, the way a person views me is not likely to... change... even if I show my true colours. That much is true of my friend, who despite my being very aware of his faults and nature, I have determined to stand true to my word about, which is the source of my present embarrassment, because while I see his side of it, I also know that I can not be limited in my approach to life by his needs and perceptions. I AM, whether it makes sense to any of you or not, IN CHARGE, and I inetend to exercise that right to the fullest extent possible, while NOT actually harming those I seek to protect, which, currently are the people that would cause me great grief if they were to... perish. Like my father and mother, and sisters, and two cousins. The rest can die, and good riddance.
Therefore, since I am NOT interested in keeping excess garbage, or people who have sneered at me, or people who ave caused me to be very, very very pissed off, alive, I have had to reach down deep and see where I wanna be, as far as my progress is concerned.
Because one thing you people should bear in mind is that EVERYTHING I do, is NEVER for someone else, but for myself, and well, I have taken a fancy to being... free, and leaving whoever remains alive after I am gone with NO doubt about just what is what, about life, and removing the veil from God, so that all of You will see Him as He is, and if you can not stomach it, you will die.
obviously, I am deeply biased, but NOT towards God, or as, I mentioned, you all, but towards my own agendas, and so, everything that happens will happen MY way, at MY tempo, and with MY finger on the trigger, and I do NOT take counsel from anyone.
Now, I was going to take the battle to anyone who cared to cross me yesterday, because the .... DANGEROUS thing I have found out about myself is that I am not particularly, interested in what happens tomorrow, because if I were to care that much, I would end up becoming worried, so I am settling for the here and now.
I personally depise the arrogant asshole who is vinnie's landlord, but then, he has a friend, a guy called luke, who has tried to intercede -maybe he thought subtly- on the shithead's behalf, and so, I am giving him, as horse-owners say, 'his head'> he is free to do as he pleases, but if he ever corsses me before I am gone, then i am FIRST going to beat him up, bad, and then do what i am totally able to do since i can not personally kill anyone without having to release the anger on my parents as well,- send him to hell. So, that is the deal as far as he is concerned.
As for tony beggar, the owner of outspan, whose absence was very... conspicuous ..yesterday, hell, call me names one more time, or even NOT watch your tongue, then I will have you for dinner. I have already LOST my head, lost my mind, and I do NOT care anymore what the consequences may be for my actions, but I am eyeing you with an eye full of malice. because I intend to NOT be exposed to vinnie till I am ready to go- think of his trauma- I am keeping you alive ... for NOW, but I can dance the other dance as well.
Then there is the contemporary art chick, and basically every female that HAS pissed me off, and their ... gangs. You all are DEAD, and that is NOT something I will back down on. YOU are going to hell, and you have the choice of FIRST pissing me off if you want to, and then you die anyway, or you just go to hell.
funny thing, though, about some OTHER contemporary art chick;- she saw mw walking from blue bottle towards the train station, like, maybe a month or more back, and she was going to some white car that was parked in that lot next to the haven night shelter. She broke into a run, as if seeking her own shelter in her car, and I was just walking, and I was checking her out- during those days when the contemporay art chick went AWOL- and I saw she had a better ass than the obnoxious one, but why the hell was she running away, in her boots? The day I got pissed off with the four of them;- she was the other blonde, was when I remembered where I had seen her before, and well, I may NOT have a true composite picture of her, but hell, someone who runs when no one is chasing is probably NOT wanting to be found out, as to her true feelings, and hell, if she thinks what I thinks she thinks about me, then I find her thoughts about me quite acceptable, if I am right, which shall only be seen if she does something about it, yes?
then comes the rest of the world!
Now, I need to leave, yes?
And so the problem is first of all local, which means that since NO ONE is going to give me a free plane ride, I am going to have to TAKE what I want by REMOVING the ... law. So, every member of whatever governing body will have to be totally exterminated, and go on 'vacation' in some warm place.
then, just to make sure that no one gets any ideas, I am having soweto, the xhosa homeland [eastern cape], and zululand totally wiped out, as well, as places in Strand where them xenophobic assholes- and some 'friends'- stay, as well as Site 5,go up in flames.
So that I can walk to Rhodes' former home, and take over without anyone raising their head. It is called maximum disruption. I am turning over your lives and knocking out everything you have put your trust in, and i do not even care about putting in a new world order, because i am thinking that i will have 27 women as i leave, and then along the way pick up- some 40 more so that we make this a true race thing, since MY aim is complete dominationm, but to have fun while i am doing it. God and 'turning the hearts of the children to their fathers' is a secondary thing, a by-product, because I DO NOT serve God, and NEVER will. I see where it makes some kind of sense, but hell, I think I am more interested in what happens here and now and pleases my sensuous senses than some high moral deeds.
Now, assuming that the dutch chick is kosher, and the eerman chick as well, then I have twenty- two females, with the twenty already confirmed between me and God, all these without their knowledge.
then, because well, every 'married' woman who looks my way is actually dead meat, anyway, no matter how attractive, and I have grown tired of physical violence, since I want peace in my home, and also because i could not get over the fact that when the Glencairn woman was smiling as i looked her over till the S/Town blonde started doing those "are you watching ME?" motions because i was quickly fed up with her presumtion, I can not help thinking that I will have the two that ARE here , the scooter girl and the olympia chick as well, and THEN over there, provided they all are amenable to my will, the canadian chick, but I have decduced that I NEED two more here before I am raised up, which is where the other contemporary art chick comes into consideration, as well as teh one that got out of the pool as I showed up, and showed her ... wares... as she whowered. Fuck, I am very lustful, am I not?
Dont you just hate having a life decided by a dick?
Ha ha!
