So, people, I am NOW signing your death warrants. I WILL leave here, but ONLY with scalps of my enemies on my belt, meaning i am going to kill people, and no more trying to be what i am NOT.
yesterday I almost exploded...
Maybe it was the 'fact' that I had said i would NOT kill anyone that made that woman who appeared before me in red and then exhibited her male ... wahtever... before me, come and try to 'talk shop' with vinnie while a woman waited in a blue car, reading my reaction to the woman.
i was not interested;- I KNOW enough of myself now to know that if ever she came near me, though she may have been insincere in her affections to the guy -because no real man would be so used unless he had no dick between his legs;-I mean I would KILL the motherfucker who eyed my girlfriend, and NOT just show that she is taken-- yet STILL the fact that she DID what she did shows just where she rated me; as something beneath her feet, and someone NOT to be taken seriously, unless he acts as UNDER those same feet.
then there was the little mother, and her tentative walking by to see if I reacted violently or not.
Now, where SHE is concerned, i have a bit of a hard time deciding what to do, because she is STILL, unless I KNOW just how stupid she thinks me, someone that i would NOTb mind having around.
BUT i WILL still kill her offspring, no question of that, and I was a bit upset that there was talk, by vinnie of her being married. Upset because I am sooo tired of LOOKING for women since i want to find out just WHO the fuck the "x= 2x-3" women are, so I can have .... but wait, THAT is NOT my job, that is THEIR own decision, and I would hate to have to go searching for people who ought NOT to play hide and seek with me, and then have to watch them relax their limbs and settle down in MY world after making me do the donkey work>
turns out this guy showed up, yesterday, tells vinnie he had been out of the country and vinnie, having seen the little mother with the guy, tells me that the guy is the woman's husband, and well, I HAD seen the two of them, till I complained about it, and she started walking on her own.
Now, that raises questions. Like what if the 'cop' in the vision was THAT asshole? Or maybe I am trying to twist things because the reality is that I do not much fancy that blonde that was with the apparent dead-man-walking.
then there is the woman i laughed at for her handbag thing. She showed up yesterday, and well, after i looked dispassionately at her, I decided she was not so bad looking after all.
She is quite better looking than the funny haired cloven chin girl, because she at least does not have all that hair on her face. Try thinking of the feeling i would have when trying to run my tongue all over her face. It would be like kissing a guy.
then there is the stupid , stupid woman, who as i have concluded, spends the whole day watching me, and does not even GET the point.
When i wrote the last post, which came out as two posts because i was on someone's phone at outspaan restaurant, Idid not sign out because the phone takes some getting used to, so I needed to be sure. The following day, I was trying to do that and she so silly, decided to remind me that she is alive; so concerned is she with being cut off is she yet the stupid fool does NOTHING to ease the anger i feel at HER for her ambivalent stance.
I do not know if i am barking up the wrong tree as far as this contemporary art chick is concerned or if she has selective hearing. I am beginning to suspect that there is something she is hiding, and as things stand, i am most likely to kill her first.
Since, of course, i am out to KILL
