My mother means a LOT to me. I could never kill her nor live with myself if either she or my dad were to be no more and despite everythng, i can not, for anyone else, watch my family perish. So she tried to kill mebid deal, what about the couhtless times she wiped my ass, slaved to get me a decent education, and kept me... alive? She failed because God intervened and now I am ...this thing, capable of destroying everything,with God occasionally stepping in to stop me, or thwart me, like right now when we were listening to tuku's song "chengetai mai nababa " - look after your mother and father- and vinnie spoke of the typical sacrifices a mother goes through,andi came undone. I can not inflict my... personal, physical rage on anyone;- I am not made THAT way but then again, there is the trinity, and WE are something else entirely. My enemies MUST die and that terribly, and i must seek a haven so that I do not... accidentally kill those that give my life... meaning. And rescue those i tend to be naturally protective of, like my... sister. BEFORE I distance myself fromthem to save thm from me. Fuck, mylife IS complicated! On one hand I want the chicks and on the other I am boiling with rage and want to level the whole world at one go.! This is one tricky situattion here! Of course those that pissed me off AREdead, with NO mercy, as well as those i have personally labelled as undesirables, because i can Not be mockd and just lt it go, but I am likely to go easy on ... others. Provided none of them wanted me for a .. mulez of course, because i will not be mocked nooo. My pride is all i have, andno one steps on it and walks away unscathed. The king bows to none, and those who will not bow will be brokenz oh yesss! Unless they are my mom,dad sisters and a few others, in which case I run away to keep from damaging them, like I wanna do NOW
