War Lord iii

get the sequence:- i use a girl to try to get my mother to back off and acknowledge my right to be MYSELF,  even though I am  dying and end up entangled with the girl, blame God for putting her onto me and He responds with the yoke thing,  and Isaiah 6,later tells me He has added 15 years to my life, to put my house in order, and NOW, once I acknowledge that I really just want THAT freedom from the woman who has prejudiced my life from the onset before I can even be free to be ... me, well, it makes sense like a mother fucker.
Of course it is NOT about the women, they are just means to an end, and it is NOT about everyone else, which is why i am going to considerably add to the ... body count.. as I will explain just now, but first, let me speak about what this other guy whose wise-ass remarks pissed me off so much at one time i was ready to bite his head off, the zulu guy, who spoke of what bennie mac had said about  the use of the word motherfucker:-
Guy goes, "Ok, in the streets, the word motherfucker does not  sound out of context, because a guy may go, ' that motherfucker lennie owes me my mother fucking money,  and he has not been answeing his motherfucking phone or returning my mother fucking calls, and so when I showed up at the motherfucker's motherfucking house, the motherfucker's mother opened the door and told me the motherfucker was not at home and I told the mother that the motherfucker had better pay me my motherfucking money or I will fuck up the motherfucker' Now, maybe the use of the word 'motherfucker seems more than a little overdone, but when you get right down to it, it makes sense like a motherfucker".

So, I guess, people, this is NOT about yur motherfucking rights or whatever you motherfucking think you are motehrfucking owed, it is about the ONE and ONLY lord of the arth doing what is necessary to get out of being fucked up by his motherfucking mother so he can fuck off out of the motherfucking place, and leave whatever motherfuckers may remain to their motherfucking lives, see?


I remember when i was -and should have been better occupied seeking a life- at the back of happy valley home, having rejected a  chance to pick myself up and stop this suicidal stuff, and had walked oput of teh shelter, which fish hoek hospital staff had put me in after I drank the rat poisonand did NOT die, and I was thinking of revenge, God did NOT come to me and say i should shape up, He showed me an image of a leopard, in a cave, and, as if to clam my fears that I was being 'made over' and He was instigating it, He said the words that are also linked with the ONLY words that God Himself ever said about a black man " can a leopard change its spots?"

And so, some days later, i got fed up with being rained on and decided that i would try to climb the mountain, and found this cave, and basically made it my habitat, for a while before self respect wore out and i tentatively moved on to better things. Guess i have been worried about living with a woman, in a house, and especially with the chances of there being a woman that is especially interestdin having just that being very large, and I was about to write everything I wrote yesterday off because i am scared of a 'better' life, like a shower and sex, and regular meals, and being out of the rain, and not worrying about what the weather will limit me from doing, et.c.

Ok,then, so i THINK I am willing to stop the mountain life, if there is anything... interesting out there for me.

However, about the body count, let us call it a surgical, tactical move guaranteed to make sure i have my own way without hindrance.
you have the governing bodies of countries, with their respective,  constitutions and such, and these will not permit a freeloader like me to just move as he pleases. i have my priority, and I hate having to be stopped by silly man made laws, so, to make life easier for myself as I pursue my goals, i just have to make sure that any 'governing body' or enforcing arm of such a governing body, be it the police or the military, cease to be in existence as i pursue my goals.Ergo, every person included or affiliated with the above, or a satellite of the aforementioned [do you know just how much blood legal jargon can cover up while seemingly being innocuous] will have to be removed with immediate effect, or effect as at the time I deem it necessary to be unveiled totally, like when I start having sex- God's ways are too rigid for me to assume that i will be having my own way academically unless the groundwork is covered, exhaustively- and then, i can get me a plane, fly myself and mine off the continent, pick up the remainder, and then, as I arrive in the states, have the riff-raff removed and the holes filled up, because i want a first hand witnessing of the things that are and are not necessary for myself.
this has the added impact of me having what is known as maximum disruption while i am at hand to take immediate advantage of it, and then, with everything out of the way, i will be able to relax, get my hands on some data from NASA and stuff, keep online, and wait while the rest of you, that are alive, recover from the shock, become resilient again, and start picking up the pieces.
While i myself am getting the hang of relative peace.

I guess i will leave only the Zim ruling party going, with the one condition that MY family gets preferential treatment, OR ELSE.
i do not even have to be there, because as things stand, I have to just say it, and i will have things obey me, I mean, what can resist the SCION of the ALMIGHTY, the one made out of His image and in His likeness. I mean, i only have to think it, and it happens!

ah, well,now i guess i have to go find out where I stand.
c'est la vie! such is life!
What a drag!