I am NOT as I said the other time, behaving as myself, but more like a person that is under some anaesthetic,and my... antics... as I speak to people have people sometimes splitting their sides in laughter... I realise I am human and that people are responding to me, my wit,and inside I am dying,crying out,because I am finding that THESE are people, and so how can I bully them, or dispossess them of their lives,or send them to hell, or spill unwitting blood? No, I have been hurt by people, disgraced,shamed, but the angrier I get, the more self-aware I become, the more I grasp the fact that i will NEVER spill blood unless it is entirely unavoidable. All flesh, yours, is just as grass, and I suppose,if you like I could do something to totally terrify everyone and end your lives at one go, but how can I? No one has EVER made me do something I did not want to, and for a long time now i have chaffed at how... powerless ... I have been all this time, but I suppose, all I want is my freedom, the acknowledgement by people that they have to bow out of my way or rather, stop fighting me, and then my honour is saisfied, and i ignore them and proceed as i wish, unhindered. So i don't want anyone dead, unless the one is on my remarkably shortened list, and, Ok, i got almost everyone off it, after today, unless the person specifically pulled MY balls or tried to act ... "superior"... to me. Such people, like michelle, butthead, faggot face, this asshole mike, the contemporary art chick...well, they have DEAD stamped over their faces like... unchanging. Those i have let off the hook better NOT though, assume we are friends. I "never did like and i never will love fans" so, do not piss me off, OK? I will not lay waste to the world as I originally intended, but I WILL do the bare necessary to have MY way, like get rid of ... every politician in south africa, kill a few hundreds of thousands / millions of blacks and coloureds because of my people killed with NO regard, and, of course, i am emptying ALL of the USA but I am cool with the neighbours, not because i have any ...feeling... for them, but because i DO have a lot of things to say, before I can face my parents again, just so that we can kiss and make up, and then i can leave in peace. I am NOT interested in indiscriminate killing, or searching for other women, no, because if I do,it will be terror, not affection, that moves these people, and i would rather have free love. So i need to find out WHO the five women are, and while i am partial to the five i lean towards, i do not KNOW,see so i am willing to ... find out, and then ... MOVE.Guess this is who I am, yes?
