it is ironic, is it not, that the person I am having to restrain myself for vinnie's sake from literally ramming his head into the wall has a son called noah.
always wondered at the ... relevance of this, but well, NOW I suppose I...have an idea, ha ha>
Wonder what nightmares daddy has as he considers that his dear little boy, regardless of whatever stupidity or crass remarks he makes, will NEVER see the year out, oh, what a pity, ha mr-not-quite-with-it-tony-beggar?
fuck, you hate me, i hate you too, a whole lot more than you do, but you continue breathing because for some weird reason I can NOT break vinnie's heart, ha ha!
i could NOT needle you today, because all it took was one look from vinnie and I knew, even before he spoke those words "if you really respect me you will NOT do anything to that man", that not while I was still KNOWN merely as the mountain man would I do anything to you, asshole. BUT I will take you out, literally, and you are irrevocably, unchangingly MINE, and your head I will show to your little kids before I send them to hell. Chew on that, asshole.
You picked the wronng guy to cross. Had you changed your tone to me, i would have been nice, and maybe spared you, but you prefer to go toe to toe with the unchanging fury, with the complet master of the earth, you little insect you DARE cross ME? You have not even seen or dreamed of the least of the bad things I will do to you while you are still alive. It is not enough for me to merely KILL you, i will make you writhe in pain, and make you wish you were dead a thousand times over before you do go down to eternal torment.
YESSSS!
Ah, fuck, I assume that everyone will start - no, they already do- giving me those weird looks, like, what kind of animal is this that does such things to innocent kids, and I wish i could give you clever, or deep, diplomatic or persuasive words that would make you agree with me>
Instead, I will do THIS
And that, for some weird reason, I can never forget that i was a kid, and now i am a grown up, and yet the rage I had even as a frustrated kid, the same rage that I felt up to a few days ago, and could never let out, the anger that all these things were being DONE to me and I was not even capable of retaliating, of even putting my own tow cents worth of self-defense in, well, THAT rage is what fuels me NOW.
And it is unleashed, and well, it is unstoppable, yes?
yesss!
I mean, fuck, when i was ... complaining... to my mother about her wanting me dead, and UNABLE to physically do anything to either defend myself or even to do anything to HER, I had no idea that I was in effect already IN total control, and it has taken me all of what, thirty years later to get a grasp of what I am eminently... capable... of just by THINKING it?
i mean, fuck, imagine just how... terrible... i can make things for people, ha ha!
And I have NO reason to be merciful to any of you assholes, except a few, a handful of people that i will spare for my own sake, and to balance the scales of ... justice... as i repay them for favours, see?
YESSSS!
So, this brings me to the ... other thing... the bat's wings, a number of people that were, like what, hanging out of the ark?well, I suppose they are the ones without a real awareness of what I am, because, of course, this, my crazed outlook on life, and my weird behaviour, is 'a little over [their] heads/ is not what [they] expected/but [I wonder if they] kinda like it?
Crazy shit I am pulling here, right? I mean, who can believe that someone can just .. destroy things because he is thinking coherently- and in physics they call that 'components working "in phase", but sean paul calls it synergy- and right NOW, my main priority is finding a way to distance myself from vinnie without ruining our friendship and yet at the same time assuming an independent identity so that I can , well, KILL the asshole, and others, as well.
sick, but well, there it is.
Oh, and by the way, i am.
mad, that is
but of course, that is NOT what should worry you. What should worry you is that I am perfectly capable of doing exactly as I say,a nd I will, because NOTHING can resist me.
Now, swallow THAT assholes, yesss!
I was also not THAT surprised that I saw no hair nor hide of the contemporary art chick today. guess when it comes to the real deal, she, like delilah, prefers her own to ... other things. I am almost getting fed up of telling God that I should have killed her first, long time ago. Ah, well, the time will come soon enough. But I hate wasted time, shit!
woman goes around with the jet-set, guys who exchange fancy cars like others change socks. Now, what would I KNOW about that, ha, mr beggar, since, like you who has the SAME shirt over and over again, I do not change my clothes, even if, like vinnie, who never could keep things to his chest, said, I DO shower everyday, ha?
Except for the fact that, good looking ass notwithstanding, I do not KNOW what the scooter chick is saying, because, well, being 'friendly' with me shows a bit of lack of perspective here. I mean, i am like, getting ready to exterminate everyone around this whole lot, and waving at me sort of does NOT seem like ... appropriate register. I mean, am I missing something here?
them girl dont know mad people!
