So i was apparently supposed to be eating my heart out - you know how it is with women once you let them know they have a corner in your heart that they occupy;- they think they can pull the strings- because the little mama apparently sent her son when i was standing at a spot from where she could casually spot my reaction, i suppose, with the aim of letting me know the ... "price" ... of her inclusion in my life, and me being basically the OVERLORD, THE
KING OF THE EARTH and well, she could have been dead for that presumption but for one small, tiny detail: She never had to fit these words into her lifestyle, since she knew exactly where I was any night
i have spent so many nights
wondering where you are
wishing you were here with me...
is it me you're thinking of, is it me you want
coz I live for you
and the joy you make me feel
Which words accompanied my vision which began with the woman in an aisle, said woman asking "What am I, a recess project?"
Well, the REAL McCoy showed up, and when I had resigned myself to not having anything to do with her
I suppose that anyone recalls the... swimming woman... the beauty... who I used to get up early to see at the fish hoek beach while still staying in S/town? Well even after i had given up on her because she was married, and i was getting my ... self respect ... back and decided I would kill her if I had to have anything to do with her, or her delicious-looking daughter, and that I needed to tread the straight and narrow and have the women come to me? and not the other way around.
Anyway these past few days, she has been showing up, and apparently, on the day I stood out of the rain and had the olympia chick greet me by name, she had another daughter of hers and their friends standing a few metres from me and she was greeted as "hi mom" by the daughter as she passed by me in clothes that made me wonder if it was the same person whose exposed breasts and figure i had enjoyed looking at ; she looked so out of my league, this sophisticated woman.
HONESTLY though, I did not look at the other daughter, but when the other day the delicious-looking one DID show up, I was not unaware of the fact that this sudden influx of the people into my vicinity could NOT be just a coincidence.
BUT,as i said, my self respect had gone into the cosmos, and my ego was star-high, and since i found it rather distressing to have a woman have me figure HER out, I decided to not bother.
GUESS a woman has to come out in the open.
So because of the small... detail that SHE ALONE could be ...said ... to "wonder" where I am, wnd because she AND Aher daughter BOTH took my fancy then, I suppose both of them, and no one else from THAT family -and only if the ring i saw as she passed by and I followed her on her right hand symbolises total separation from her S.O.wnd THEN only if SHE IS the one that was refusing to have the guy have what was between her legs beneath her mini in that OTHER larger than life vision, when my "labour was going right down the drain",like today, then, maybe, I will think about it, provided i get to " see" whether she IS prepared to REALLY give up everything, and be exposed, AND fulfill this "abisha" statement, and the "ashton kutchter" thing, and THEN I will probably NOT kill the small mother, because I have discovered that i like a certain, easy type of woman that I do not tire of, and NOT these challenging types that are like climbing mountains.
I mean God's way has been to show me what I WILL want before I want it, and make aware that THAT is what I want since i AM the mav. and can not stand stereotypes, and... you know the rest.
So, i guess i will wait and seez yessss?
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There is something i did NOT say, because it was all caught up in the fray. I came from the library rather pissed earlier, and when the guy I was supposed to be staying with decided to get pushy because I am somehow supposed to be subservient till the rent money was paid up, i, of course, blew up, promised him a thrashing, and so, in the jungle the lion sleeps tonight. Suppose some asshole wants to try his luck on me, the maverick is GAME
