I would rather be... obeyed, feared, by the women than given their... rubbish... that they call affection

I am by nature jealous, and, well, in case you did not notice, i actually view NO ONE as even remotely equal to... me,and do not tolerate, therefore opinions different from mine. It is therefore a GOOD thing that God had me ask for 10 women that would put themselves UNDER me so that what I thought would become permissible, even to my frustrated mind. It happened, and I... suppose... that the truth of this will become apparent soon, but, of course that is not my ...point, now: I never looked for these women, or the other 10 of whom I had been given notification by the vision of the texas ranger woman on the day I met SHOPAHOLIC GIRL, the woman who I met after the decided snub by the woman allison, who for some reason wanted me as some extra to her already attached life. I have hated that allison woman, because i did not seek her, and for her to so look down on me, well, it is unoverlook-able and so, of course that woman, and those that sought me out while still being attached to some other people, well, they are dead. I am simple, uncomplicated, and like to judge according to appearance, and so hate being in an uncertain position, and the ONLY reason I may back down from killing THAT woman in euch a position would be if the woman makes it clear where she stands, and then I may spare her life, but taking her anywhere near me is something _else. Even if it turns out the contemporary art chick was NOT involved with these guys that she has pissed me off with, I do say THIS;- she HAS made me so angry that i WILL NOT have her near me. She is a person i can never trust, and she is a person whose mind, if she HAS one,is too alien for me. I can never be with any such person, and simply because she has made me so mad, i will be damned if i will leave her alive to gloat and carry on, mocking me by the mere fact of her existence. She IS irrevocably DEAD. Now, let us see who laughs last, yessss! About the others i am not sure about, I am admittedly hesitant, because i have not seen hair nor hide of the RAV4 woman, since the first time, nor have I had any satisfaction from the swimmer woman, or her daughter, nor do i know what peaches was up to with the guy she called out and as for the woman-in-blue, I am also uncertain, but not like with the others, because she may NOT be the one i would like with me. This morning (still 1 & 1/2 hrs to 2moro) i went to soak myself in water again and this curvy woman i first saw the first time who had such a nice body was there again, and I ... liked, really. But i still do not know,see?