the
reasonable man
adapts himself to the world
reasonable man
adapts himself to the world
the unreasonable man
adapts the world to himself
adapts the world to himself
and well, I am sure you can decide where I stand.
When I came out of my shell, and started to think, I decided to be totally unreasonable. A reasonable person would have said, "My mother may have tried to kill me, but then she sat up nights, working hard at this jersey knitting and exporting business, just so that I could have a decent education. I owe her something, at least". But then, I tried to pay her back, and that was when I decided, fuck this, I am NOT going to do such a thing, I am going to be totally unreasonable, and I walked away from the dutiful son bit, and it was with the greatest effort that I even bothered- it was under duress anyway, and I felt none too happy about it- that I bothered, while I worked here in south africa, to send money home. I was not interested in THAT kind of world.
But God, Whose word I purport to mull over and pay attention to more than reality itself, said that one should honour his father and mother, that it may go well with him in the land that He was sending him to possess.
Well, the mistake everyone makes is just like what sells movies; the empathic link, the fact that people automatically assume that when He said that, He said that to everyone. He said it to the jews, whom He had chosen to be His peculiar people, that as long as thy obeyed these commandments, God would refrain from the thing He had decided to do when they rejected Him at Mount Sinai, which was to destroy them. So, just as in the movies one feels like, if he is male, HE is the superhero, and emotes with the guy, it is no different from this case. I am NOT a jew, and so, this does NOT apply to me.
When I got locked up, a coloured guy came along, different from these spitting-with-every-word and accents-everywhere cape coloureds. This guy was from jo'burg, did not speak afrikaans and spoke his english the way I do, flat and direct. We became friendly- no not the bend over kind, I am a straight guy and my dick will go into the natural orifice of a woman which was created for it, and nowhere else, and also, I will not bend over for anyone, and I suppose that no one is stupid enough to want to take me as anything other than what I say I am- towards each other, and he was the guy who said this statement, "adapt or die", that was his motto for enduring life at pollsmoor. Me, on the other hand, I could not adapt even if I wanted to. While I am NOT hardwired with the ten commandments and all that bullshit, what I have in me is the inability to ignore God's words to me as mere "suggestions", and so, when He said, "Be Yourself", I could not help but be that, or start to be just that. I can not adapt to situations. I started out just as a crazy guy who wanted to wipe out certain people and leave some others, and slowly, slowly, the WAY to do it has become manifest. And i suppose only a fool will ignore the changes that are taking place even in south africa and think it is all a fluke, like unheard-of earthquakes just when I was grumbling about my need for them, and now, thunder and lightning and no resulting precipitation.
I do not adapt. I adapt everything to my whim, and right now, I am working on my exit plan, how to get OUT of south africa, and send everyone currently resident in it, and everywhere in the world except for the eleven people that I decided I would spare, to death, to hell. That is what I want, and I intend to get it.
there is a song by lexxus, on the same riddim as that marijuana song by vibes kartel, but which I have been unable to trace on You-Tube, which has the chorus
When I came out of my shell, and started to think, I decided to be totally unreasonable. A reasonable person would have said, "My mother may have tried to kill me, but then she sat up nights, working hard at this jersey knitting and exporting business, just so that I could have a decent education. I owe her something, at least". But then, I tried to pay her back, and that was when I decided, fuck this, I am NOT going to do such a thing, I am going to be totally unreasonable, and I walked away from the dutiful son bit, and it was with the greatest effort that I even bothered- it was under duress anyway, and I felt none too happy about it- that I bothered, while I worked here in south africa, to send money home. I was not interested in THAT kind of world.
But God, Whose word I purport to mull over and pay attention to more than reality itself, said that one should honour his father and mother, that it may go well with him in the land that He was sending him to possess.
Well, the mistake everyone makes is just like what sells movies; the empathic link, the fact that people automatically assume that when He said that, He said that to everyone. He said it to the jews, whom He had chosen to be His peculiar people, that as long as thy obeyed these commandments, God would refrain from the thing He had decided to do when they rejected Him at Mount Sinai, which was to destroy them. So, just as in the movies one feels like, if he is male, HE is the superhero, and emotes with the guy, it is no different from this case. I am NOT a jew, and so, this does NOT apply to me.
When I got locked up, a coloured guy came along, different from these spitting-with-every-word and accents-everywhere cape coloureds. This guy was from jo'burg, did not speak afrikaans and spoke his english the way I do, flat and direct. We became friendly- no not the bend over kind, I am a straight guy and my dick will go into the natural orifice of a woman which was created for it, and nowhere else, and also, I will not bend over for anyone, and I suppose that no one is stupid enough to want to take me as anything other than what I say I am- towards each other, and he was the guy who said this statement, "adapt or die", that was his motto for enduring life at pollsmoor. Me, on the other hand, I could not adapt even if I wanted to. While I am NOT hardwired with the ten commandments and all that bullshit, what I have in me is the inability to ignore God's words to me as mere "suggestions", and so, when He said, "Be Yourself", I could not help but be that, or start to be just that. I can not adapt to situations. I started out just as a crazy guy who wanted to wipe out certain people and leave some others, and slowly, slowly, the WAY to do it has become manifest. And i suppose only a fool will ignore the changes that are taking place even in south africa and think it is all a fluke, like unheard-of earthquakes just when I was grumbling about my need for them, and now, thunder and lightning and no resulting precipitation.
I do not adapt. I adapt everything to my whim, and right now, I am working on my exit plan, how to get OUT of south africa, and send everyone currently resident in it, and everywhere in the world except for the eleven people that I decided I would spare, to death, to hell. That is what I want, and I intend to get it.
there is a song by lexxus, on the same riddim as that marijuana song by vibes kartel, but which I have been unable to trace on You-Tube, which has the chorus
gotta get the dough
gotta get it now
by any necessary means anyhow
me nuh deal with fraud
burn a fire burn a whore
tell then that rasta nuh bow
And well, this guy, me, does NOT bow. I do not even know how. I mean, I have the impossible, incredible, and quite plainly VISIBLE support of the Living God, The Creator of Everything, to draw on and well, I am alive and kicking and heading on towards my goal, even when common sense says that that can NOT be done.
So, my POINT is, this is NOT about what anyone perceives to be right or wrong, this IS about me getting what I want, whether it seems silly, unheard of or plain ridiculous. I will KILL off everyone on the planet, and I will start NOW, or soon.
Which reminds me, this morning, before I went to the library, a ...funny... thing happened. It was still a quarter to nine, and i was too early for the ventersburg library, which I was only to realise a bit later, and so, when I came to the gates, saw them closed, I did a U-turn, and this funny merc, which was behind me on my way down, also did the same, and he headed down to the total garage where he parked while I, attracted by the cape town plates, and very ... upset... at the thought of being hunted down by these fools, went back to investigate, and true enough, the guy acted suspiciously, because as I drew even closer, he drove over to the truckers parking, and I followed, and then when I saw that it was no one I recognised, just some stupid white idiot, a male, I turned my back and walked away. But his actions were all too clearly affected by mine that I did not dismiss the encounter as a coincidence. Them fools really seem to want to get my goat, don't they? I wonder if there is a part of hell that is hotter than the rest, where they can all just ... go?
I would like it if there was. They definitely deserve THAT, at the very least. To make up for the harassment and the fact that I will not get the satisfaction of killing them with my own hands.
So, my POINT is, this is NOT about what anyone perceives to be right or wrong, this IS about me getting what I want, whether it seems silly, unheard of or plain ridiculous. I will KILL off everyone on the planet, and I will start NOW, or soon.
I would like it if there was. They definitely deserve THAT, at the very least. To make up for the harassment and the fact that I will not get the satisfaction of killing them with my own hands.
My main aim is to stay sane
because I never did like and I never will love fans
so listen me
those who player-hate and keep on dissing me
tell them say them cannot stop the synergy
them could are never limit me
them could are never limit me
matter how them mimic and them gimic me
tell them say them can not stop my energy
I'm giving them the trinity...
Now, I have discovered, about ten minutes walk from ventersburg library, the other library whose name is so... absurd ... I can not even keep it in my mind, it starts with a double 'm', and so, I go there sometimes, just to get more internet time, and right now, I think that while I still HAVE time, I have nothing further to say. I just need to think back a bit. There HAS to be a way out of this, and I MUST find it. I am sick of all this mockery!
