"we plan real far" ok SO I got that blasted part wrong, it actually goes, "as if I'm playing with fire", but ag, well, shit happens!
"Its clear, you dont understand it but the last thing on My mind, is to leave you, I believe that we are in this together". Of course, MY mood at present is bordering between frankly homicidal and plain desperate. So, I will try to break down things in order so that at least, fools, you get the drift.
Now, I took some time as soon as i left prison, to describe a dog, and I showed what I had been thinking when I befriended the dog, and the way I ultimately parted ways with it.
I actually was SAYING a lot even then, about how for example I have no deep roots about anything. So when today I came from the library, and went and was forced to sit again under the building because of the rain, I saw, after a fruitless search for obert, the woman that I have NOT had a good word for since I came back, park her car, that blasted slk, and walk into the building. Followed by that boyish... boy.
And I knew that the silly fool does not get the message.
Fuck, call yourself what you will, a recess project or what, but gone are the days when I actually CARE what you or your ilk think. I used to watch and wait, and play around with you because it was the only way I could freely move around, and get to know my strengths and weaknesses.
Now, I do not care. I intend to make you pay for what you did, and that is NOT something that I will back down from. So, do NOT think that I will let bygones be bygones, whatever happens.
The Game is OVER!
I have said over and over again that I am unlike any of you, and the worst mistake anyone can make is to assume that I actually consider ANY person to be so valuable that if they do not conform to MY requirements they can have any kind of hold over me. Matter of fact, NO ONE has any hold over me primarily because I do not bow down to anyone, nor give in to their demands. I was ... lost... before, but I know where i am off to, and I do not need to hold on to silly things, now, do I?
As I said, I am breaking things down, to chunks that I can manage, and sizing them up
It would be a fool who thinks he or she is ... safe... from me. Dis me and you pay. there are no hiding places, no people that are exempt, because frankly, something that stands, stands on its own merit, not because I danced around it. I do NOT pussyfoot around anything or anyone, and have NO respect for anyone, not even God, so what is a person that I should consider what makes her happy and put my own NEEDS in jeopardy. NO, That is NOT how the person brought back to life by God rolls, hell NO.
Nobody does as he or she pleases around me and gets away with it. NO.So, stuff your little bits of self importance right back into your breastless... breasts, and face the grim reality;- The debt collector is coming knocking at your door, and you WILL pay!
THINK THAT WHEN I SAY
I never did like and I never will love fans
I never did like and I never will love fans
I MAKE SOME KIND OF JOKE? HA HA, WELL, TRY ME! LETS SEE WHO LAUGHS LAST!
Iwill not even BOTHER trying to explain myself, but with me, way for a person to get even anywhere near me is NOT by assuming that I have weaknesses, like the rest of you, because for me, such things do NOT exist. If even this life that I live is no great loss to me, what the fuck do any of you THINK you have to even offer that will make me go, after I have been made aware of it, Oh, no, I can not afford to lose THAT? Fuck. I take a sledgehammer to even God's word, so really what in EXISTENCE is so ... sacred to me that I will walk softly on tiptoe around it?
Really, fools, sometimes it pays to read things first, because some things are glaringly obvious
So, I had an interesting day. First the imp shows up, right between my feet, and we stare at each other as he walks into that blasted office, and well, the fool thinks he is some kind of avenging angel for when I get too big for my shoes, or something-mmm, I will LOVE to cut Him down to size and real soon!- and the out he goes, and gets into his bakkie and presumably ( I mean, duh?) heads for the "cottage" in vinnie's road. She is out a few moments later with the ... boy, and I am like, well, couldn't care less. When they DO come back I do not see, because some cops show up, and i am seated with mwale standing by my side, and he is the one who says, those are cops, and I look them over. I tell him flatly that they are after me, and true enough, they are parked across the road and then they get out, and walk up to us. Private dicks, meaning, presumably, dicks for hire, on the take. They ask our names, starting with mwale, and we tell them, and then they go into the olympia bakery, and come out, and then focus on mwale, and take him aside and ask if he was in court, and he says no, and then they ask about me, and he says, ask him, he can speak for himself, and they ... decide NOT to, and leave.
Yeah, yeah, mwale was saying that it was about obert, who has become rather evanscent, who grabbed the ass of some white kid, and I was skeptical. When did he show up in court? I mean, do I look that DUMB!
I mean, really, I have the MOST sophisticated brain any of you fools will ever see and you persist in taking me for some silly FOOL. This is rather demeaning. Makes me wonder what is up with God not just giving me what I scream and yell at Him for every day and night, and letting me blast all of you to smithereens for presuming to think any of you fools are anywhere in MY league when it comes to mental acuity. Fuck, this is disgusting! Fucking pathetic!
So, I am like, I have been rather circumspect. I have not done anything overt that could be taken by anyone to be in anyway threatening, and if people did not read my posts, they would NOT know anything of my plans, so, really, I have NOT, technically broken any law. And that is the bit these silly fools can not get. They hit panic buttons and think that because they are being told, well, I have your heads in my crosshairs, they therefore have a right to jump all over like it is a fait accompli. Fools, you are dealing with a stone cold sober, indifferent and very thorough human being who is methodically digging to get to where he wants to be. I am ICE cold, and I want a lot of things, and I want them ALL, so MY plans take everything into account, even your stupidity.
because, end of the day, I will be able to say, "anywhere me go, clean stamp, clean stamp"
I am a KILLER, waiting to kill, it is that simple. Then after that I go my way.
I was a bit amused to see vinnie's pastor today, when I was debating whether to go and just sleep after seeing the pretender walk, without some of his customary panache, wonder if he is sleeping nights, and the guy decided it for me. I hightailed it out of there, leaving him with vinnie's wife, because see, all day I had been thinking, what if, after all, I end up going and knocking at my father's door, and I get "home", if they have not moved to borrowdale or some fancy locale, and I see him face to face, and what then?
Fuck, I thought, God, You will let me down, I know You, but even I could not quite put the whole supposed scene into reality, and I am as gloomily realistic as they come. Not with God living and capable. It just does NOT happen. It goes against everything that He Himself has instilled into me. I can NOT go home. It does not mean that if nothing happens I will not be getting on the bus and heading JUST for home, it just means that with everything I KNOW of God, it will NEVER get to that.
Fools, you are dying real soon.
Only possible solution.
This is the part where I just... gloat, because, see, I do not know if it actually SINKS in to any of you that , ummm, GOD is on MY side, and He has , not a vested interest, but an OBVIOUS interest in making sure that I get where i want to go and am not hindered. Maybe this is the bit that you all are struggling with, because you think of it all as being about... 'humanity', about ... 'love', and yet this same God, would you believe it, destroyed the entire earth with... water... would you believe it, for ONE man's sake at one time, and the only reason He said He would NOT do it again was because, He said, "the imagination of man's heart is evil from his youth", and when is a man a youth? Damn straight, when he is chasing pussy. Then he will lie and cheat and do all things, roll over and play like a donkey if need be, just so that he can hoodwink, trick, or bamboozle some woman into letting down her panties.
the results are kids, and no kid is born in love!
Guess I am THE different one.|
the one that can NOT really, at the end of the day, keep up a lie.
the one that has nothing to lose.
the one who wants NO tangled webs to deal with.
Damn straight!
There will be NO pretending with me. I am going to wipe out the entire planet of its inhabitants, because I can not afford to live a lie, or pretend that I would be comfortable sharing the planet with you fools. NO, I want to do my things with no fans, no interference, and NO advice.
I said it before, and maybe it failed to register:- I am a violent person, which means that I react violently to any situation that does not suit me, and I am going to show that violence NOW as I make my move.
Fuck, I may say it a million times but it still holds water:-
I NEVER DID LIKE AND I NEVER WILL LOVE FANS!!!!
