I have had a problem with the holy spirit from as far back as I can remember, because the things God does NOT do, he takes on himself to do. I know that I seem just a stubborn, WRONG, person in everything I do, but then, I am the guy that was tossed into this with nothing but my eyes, ears and mind open to figure out just how things really are, and well, I actually turn out to be the ONE person that is RIGHT, while every one of you is WRONG.jpg)
So, this is the deal. God said, and well, my POINT is that He always knew what He was doing so He was not wrong about this; He saw that his spirit was 'striving against man', trying to shape the man in what he thought ought to be the way he must go, and God said that he would NOT always do so, but that whenever he tried, he would nevertheless have 120 years. The operative word is 'nevertheless'. Which means a MINIMUM of 120 years. If God meant man, then the man would have lived, any man, for at least 120 years, and since God's word is immutable, it follows that no man should die before 120, but since that is not happening, then it means God was saying that the holy spirit, like the man, did not look UP to God, but carried on as he wished, thinking that God was in his pocket, and in agreement with everything he did. Hell, he is not even ashamed to imitate God, not knowing that The Holy One is NOT to be trifled with. Which psalm is it that He said, "these things you do, and think that I am altogether like you"? Should be psalm 51, I will check now.It is actually psalm 50, and another mistake even jesus made was to say things like, in prayer, "your kingdom come..." when God is in effect, and has always in effect been saying, 'the earth is Mine', meaning He already is King, and there is NO coming, which makes on wonder, if that is the case, what is He waiting for, why does He not do something about all these people and spirits and angels that carry on as they wish? On His earth?because of what I tried to explain before, in my post, which was it, about the firstborn, and all that, the friday one, because He made this world for one man, who was to have dominion over everything, and from the beginning, the spirit has been messing things up. God made the first man, and in effect said to the spirit and to jesus, get out of the way, and I will make a man out of My own image, and in My likeness, and as soon as the man was made, the holy spirit entered into him, and tried to make him over.
he tried with me, and we went into battle mode, because the person he tried to make over was a person God had surreptitiously brought back from death, without telling anyone about it, and equipped with a helper, and well, the thing about people who are already dead is, you can not really lure them into being what you want because they have no grasp of life. I am a dead man walking, and so, when the holy spirit came in and tried to make me see what I had to lose, it was easy to walk away from it all, because there was nothing I cared that deeply about. I can not bear to compromise, to get steeped deeper into life, and so, where he fails is in thinking that I can be bought, threatened, cajoled or coerced into anything.
Like he tried over the weekend.
So, because the place I sleep is not one where lazing around the whole day is encouraged, I wake up every morning and go stand by the truck parking behind the total garage. I get to see some homies, and well, I trot out the story that I got left behind by the heartless people of chihwa buses, and that is how I get some 'loose change' to buy bread and stuff. Now the staff at total got to know me, because at times, when really pissed, I try to hike to cape town, just to escape the life, because I am not interested in going home. Well, this is what the fool, the spirit of God, tried to do with me, which makes me mad, and leaves me feeling impotent at the same time:
Because God used the lyrics, "i will be gone in the morning/when/ you awake and find/ I'm no longer there" when i was still searching and had not found out the core truth, about myself, about life, about what I wanted done; just to indicate that I was looking for something better, he decided to do the same, saturday night, as i walked to sleep. And I smelled a rat, because I KNOW myself by now, and i am NOT likely to change, I am 100% aware and not going to be 'gone' anywhere, till, as I said, I solve my ONE problem, and then kill off everyone I have no wish to see live for the next seven years, and go off to the US.
Anyway, sunday morning, I did not wake up as early as I should have, I actually tarried more than a bit under the bridge, and when I did get to the garage, the staff at total were frantic.They had looked everywhere for me. The chihwa bus had been here, left 30 minutes ago, they said, and they were aware that they left someone behind and they were waiting for you. They will come again sunday.(funny thing, they now want me near-by, to wait for the bus, and, after I came from the ventersburg library this last time, I had a nice, long, hot shower, and well, I feel good. Was starting to really gripe about the way my skin was looking like a lizard's) And I knew that the asshole had tried his luck, again. Again and again, fools think I am wrong, and again and again, they tamper with my plans. And for WHAT am I stuck here? I am getting rather upset, and thinking, fuck this, why not give in. God said He watches over His word to perform it, and now He is making it like I MYSELF must fight to make things happen. I mean, fuck that, come on, this is bullshit! BULLSHIT!
For those I said I will kill, there will be NO mercy, I owe NO one any favours, and I will spare no one but those I said I will. I have NO idea just how I will get past this one obstacle, but fuck it, get past it I will. Because while I may not know how, I also know, not only from biblical experience but from firsthand knowledge, that God will never lie, but will do as He promises, which is why I am as arrogant as I am, knowing that, come what may, I will ultimately prevail. So, THIS week-remember 'week'- anyone, this week, something will change, and when it does, you will die. There is not going to be another option, no, not one. I am sick and tired of having to put up with a lifestyle of lies and make-do. I am the lord of the earth, and it is time that was obvious, to all, and every other power that seeks to pit itself against mine was melted like candle wax before a blaze.
Anyway, sunday morning, I did not wake up as early as I should have, I actually tarried more than a bit under the bridge, and when I did get to the garage, the staff at total were frantic.They had looked everywhere for me. The chihwa bus had been here, left 30 minutes ago, they said, and they were aware that they left someone behind and they were waiting for you. They will come again sunday.(funny thing, they now want me near-by, to wait for the bus, and, after I came from the ventersburg library this last time, I had a nice, long, hot shower, and well, I feel good. Was starting to really gripe about the way my skin was looking like a lizard's) And I knew that the asshole had tried his luck, again. Again and again, fools think I am wrong, and again and again, they tamper with my plans. And for WHAT am I stuck here? I am getting rather upset, and thinking, fuck this, why not give in. God said He watches over His word to perform it, and now He is making it like I MYSELF must fight to make things happen. I mean, fuck that, come on, this is bullshit! BULLSHIT!
For those I said I will kill, there will be NO mercy, I owe NO one any favours, and I will spare no one but those I said I will. I have NO idea just how I will get past this one obstacle, but fuck it, get past it I will. Because while I may not know how, I also know, not only from biblical experience but from firsthand knowledge, that God will never lie, but will do as He promises, which is why I am as arrogant as I am, knowing that, come what may, I will ultimately prevail. So, THIS week-remember 'week'- anyone, this week, something will change, and when it does, you will die. There is not going to be another option, no, not one. I am sick and tired of having to put up with a lifestyle of lies and make-do. I am the lord of the earth, and it is time that was obvious, to all, and every other power that seeks to pit itself against mine was melted like candle wax before a blaze.
When it comes to powers
and principalities;-
In The End
In The End
There Shall Be ONLY ONE
and that will be ME!
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