I left kalk bay, and well, I feel like a snake that has shed its skin, and not gotten a replacement, and after a few scant hours, I was on the phone to vinnie, apologising and telling him the basic truth, that I do not have anything but gratitude for all he has done, and I am horrified that I yelled at him, but the simple truth is, I am in pain, over the girl, and would rather work at home than be exposed to the pain. He said he understood, andwould support me. I am now making a ... horse. I made various other pieces but thisis the only one I have invested all my effort into. It is blue, with a brown mane, and I intend to give it to him.At least, making it will sort of push my day along.
i am on the completely ... wrong... side of where I want to be, which is where I can look her in the eye and say what she means to me.
But the maverick has a fear. A HUGE fear.
That just as she has mocked me over the mike issue, and over those other guys, like I do not UNDERSTAND when I am the ONE person that, whichever way you look at it, can do EXACTLY as I please and not have to answer to anyone, she will laugh at me still. I can not abide being laughed at.That I can not do. I kill those who mock me, or, OK, since I have not killed anyone yet,except in my mind, I will KILL those who mocked me, and as I said, there are two of them, mike and the rasta who laughed at me for complaining that she had smiled at him.
So, back off.
because well, what ios at stake are your lives, and hell beckoning. Do not mock me anymore by tosing my words one way and assuming you can get away with it. or you will die horribly.
And the dying is what will be a prelude of the torment you will have later. I fully intend to have mike's insides fall out, piece by agonising piece, and have him beg for itto be over. And then reconsider, because if he dies he goes straight to hell, bodily.
he tried to play "who is the greatest" with me, and I can not abide competition, and so, he will have to find out justwhat kindof effeort it has taken ME to stop myself from harming him,by him having to learn just how much can come out of him before he ... gives up. Torment NOW as pain stabs him and he loses control of his bowels- how humiliating that, for a grown man too, and torment later as he ''quits" and then descends to hell.
i mean, I am spiteful, and I still INTEND to destroy EVERYTHING that he has put hands to, and that 'cottage' she was on and on about will go up in a spectacular shower of rubble, andif it takes a few people with it, then so be it.
as for the building, well, well, well, I still have not made upmy mind just how to mangle it.
Do NOT take me for a cheap thing.
it is time you grasped just how powerful and unlimited I am, and how I suffer NO fools before me
And I am MAD already because what should be plain and straightforward is being obfuscated using cheap tricks, like, "if you want me then accept my 'male' friends/associates/whatever" fuck it, it is NOT my intent that matters, woman, it is time you opened YOUR eyes and grasped that the question is, and has ALWAYS been that YOU reveal to ME what you thinkof ME, because I can never go out of my way to try to win you over. My very nature goes against that. If you love me, or seek to just exploit what you perceive to be a 'vulnerabilrity' of mine, then you had better come out in the open about it before I decide to find outfor myself which it is.
If I do, then whether you love me or not, I will KILL you. because I will ask you "if you loved me, why did you not just come out in the open about it?", and well, I do not think there exists any answer you could give me that would spare your life. Even if yousaid that you were afraid that if you told me how you felt, I would still harm those you wished to protect. To me, anyone and anything that provokes ME I will destroy, and NO ONE can intercede with me for the life of another. I choose whether to let a person live or die, based on MY own takeon the situation. Your self appointed task of intercessor is an insult to me,because now that I think of it, all those males that you inbterceded for I will kill anyway. Because you reduce me to less than their level, and sparing them will make you seem likesome champion of theirs and they will still despise me for being weak. And I hate being laughed at.
So, they ALL die, horribly. Same as mike. YEAH-SSS
God did something to me that makes me the ULTIMATE Being on this planet, and it has taken all of you, all your cheap antics, to get that through to me that Ifucking do nOT have to stand for your bullshit, anddo not have to bow to anyone anyway, in anything.
Who the fuck tells me, or can TELL me what to do in anything when I have absolute powere over everything, even the very air you breathe and can do as I wish to andwith anything?
you are alive because I allow it, and your continued survival hinges on whether I continue to let it,so, get that straight,fools, or by God you are in for a rude awakening.
I have said this, ONE Last TIME.
Warn dem
tell dem again
nobody pon the gully nuh afraid a dem
make it clear again
The God fir the gully me nuh afraid a dem
