Now, me, I started out not giving a hoot about life and about anything to do with anyone else, protecting my ... territorial integrity... as my president would have it, and I have hated God because He came and disturbed my peace, and entered my life without my permission.
Of all those i hate, though, He is the most detached about His motives, because He is cool with me like I am.
And intends to keep me intact. Unfortunately, though, over the past few days I forgot where I came from, and decided to abandon that and start trying to be more than uninterested, because i started, contrary to my own ... independent views... to become attached to ... things.
And so, was being sucked in to a life that has nothing whatsoever to do with who I really am because I can be ... useful.
As everyone can tell you, if only I was not so ... lazy.
So, today, as i was coming to kalk bay, on the train, and I heard these love songs coming on ad nauseum into my ears, i started getting suspicious, and got off at st.james, and was going, "God, you always DO this to me, i am tired of this, I will KILL them all anyway!", and funny enough, maybe because of a panic attack, my .... nemesis... the invisible one, revealed himself, and he was the last hurdle to be cleared.
It is written, "In the mind, Gods created the heavens and the earth. And the earth was without form and void, and darkness was upon the face of the deep, and the spirit of God hovered over the face of the waters".
When I despaired at one time, and asked God to let me die,He sent me a vision of how i could be His best friend, by not having the holy spirit have a foothold over the earth. The first time i got an attack similar to the one i had today, was when i rejected jesus' lordship, and it was like some kind of needles were trying to be forced again into my head; my forehead, my nape, and round the crown of my head, like a connection was trying to be re-established. It was painful, and yet, brief, because I have a single character flaw, I am NOT capable of bending to others' whims. I do as i wish, and that is that sadza rekuboarding.( at boarding schools in zimbabwe the meal you eat, sadza, is not negotiable, you eat what you are served!)
So, last night I said i was exterminating all the jews, and thus i tipped the holy spirit and he was in full fear mode.
I made up my mind that they were dead, and THAT stands, not only because she tried to use me for their sakes, but also because the holy spirit wants to do the same so that i became some sort of errand boy.
So, as i am still mentally reeling from the attack, i have given them the grace period, the jews of one day.
At sunset, their lives END.
Every single one of them.
Some, because it is personal, i will PERSONALLY KILL. AS I promised last night.
I will NOT be used.
And so, NOW you know just who I am, and the fact that the entire reason why everyone is going to die, from this night on, is that I am fed up with dancving to others' tunes, and will therefore pull the plug on everyone else.
i saw the silly woman, coming in even more preposterous clothing to the same building, because, of course, she assumes that she has a hold over me:- silly fool sent the coloured errand boy first, and i shook my head as i saw him on the way INTO kalk bay bending nonchalantly over the Steed like he was ot even aware of me, and then when i just walked on, next came the cunt of a rasta, and i knew that she was thinking, 'you have to change your mind, otherwise i am coming over there to MAKE you change' when i saw the silly boy also, making sure that he walked out of the bakery as i came from the toilet, I knew she rated me still very low, a desperate silly... BOY And was still mocking me. So, when she came into the office in bare legs, i wasted no time in letting her know that even HER time was up, and mimed that today, when the sun goes down, her life ends. You all may run, people, but i will call you out, and hunt some of you down, and you will DIE, because
1) I never came into your lives to seek you, it was the opposite, and you have looked at me as a beast of burden, and for that we are at constant loggerheads, and what I am against I DESTROY
2) this world is mine by... default, and i hate people anyway, and so, i am wiping everyone off of it, since i hate people and their silly ways fervently!
Of all those i hate, though, He is the most detached about His motives, because He is cool with me like I am.
And intends to keep me intact. Unfortunately, though, over the past few days I forgot where I came from, and decided to abandon that and start trying to be more than uninterested, because i started, contrary to my own ... independent views... to become attached to ... things.
And so, was being sucked in to a life that has nothing whatsoever to do with who I really am because I can be ... useful.
As everyone can tell you, if only I was not so ... lazy.
So, today, as i was coming to kalk bay, on the train, and I heard these love songs coming on ad nauseum into my ears, i started getting suspicious, and got off at st.james, and was going, "God, you always DO this to me, i am tired of this, I will KILL them all anyway!", and funny enough, maybe because of a panic attack, my .... nemesis... the invisible one, revealed himself, and he was the last hurdle to be cleared.
When I despaired at one time, and asked God to let me die,He sent me a vision of how i could be His best friend, by not having the holy spirit have a foothold over the earth. The first time i got an attack similar to the one i had today, was when i rejected jesus' lordship, and it was like some kind of needles were trying to be forced again into my head; my forehead, my nape, and round the crown of my head, like a connection was trying to be re-established. It was painful, and yet, brief, because I have a single character flaw, I am NOT capable of bending to others' whims. I do as i wish, and that is that sadza rekuboarding.( at boarding schools in zimbabwe the meal you eat, sadza, is not negotiable, you eat what you are served!)
So, last night I said i was exterminating all the jews, and thus i tipped the holy spirit and he was in full fear mode.
I made up my mind that they were dead, and THAT stands, not only because she tried to use me for their sakes, but also because the holy spirit wants to do the same so that i became some sort of errand boy.
So, as i am still mentally reeling from the attack, i have given them the grace period, the jews of one day.
At sunset, their lives END.
Every single one of them.
Some, because it is personal, i will PERSONALLY KILL. AS I promised last night.
I will NOT be used.
And so, NOW you know just who I am, and the fact that the entire reason why everyone is going to die, from this night on, is that I am fed up with dancving to others' tunes, and will therefore pull the plug on everyone else.
i saw the silly woman, coming in even more preposterous clothing to the same building, because, of course, she assumes that she has a hold over me:- silly fool sent the coloured errand boy first, and i shook my head as i saw him on the way INTO kalk bay bending nonchalantly over the Steed like he was ot even aware of me, and then when i just walked on, next came the cunt of a rasta, and i knew that she was thinking, 'you have to change your mind, otherwise i am coming over there to MAKE you change' when i saw the silly boy also, making sure that he walked out of the bakery as i came from the toilet, I knew she rated me still very low, a desperate silly... BOY And was still mocking me. So, when she came into the office in bare legs, i wasted no time in letting her know that even HER time was up, and mimed that today, when the sun goes down, her life ends. You all may run, people, but i will call you out, and hunt some of you down, and you will DIE, because
1) I never came into your lives to seek you, it was the opposite, and you have looked at me as a beast of burden, and for that we are at constant loggerheads, and what I am against I DESTROY
2) this world is mine by... default, and i hate people anyway, and so, i am wiping everyone off of it, since i hate people and their silly ways fervently!
Of course, you are free to fight me. Lets see who prevails, the God of War or mere flesh and blood. You have half a day to... prepare, and then the lion comes prowling. Ever heard; the leopard hunts in darkness? Well, this is one black man that does NOT change his skin, one leopard that does not change its spots. NEVER!
