Its About To Get Ugly, Whenever Dog I'm Hungry [2:04]

Problem with me is, when i have food in me, all I can think of is how bloated I feel, how it is heavy on my throat, like bile, and how my stomach is distended. I feel aware of myself, and so, so, incapable of just being... me.
which is why some people are still alive right now, but trust me, I am going off food for a while, because what happened today needs my PERSONAL attention, and I have some heads to break, some skulls to crash in, and a woman that i seriously need to mangle, since to day I could not get over my belly enough to deal with this stupid female, NOOOO.
So, I woke up after a binge eating;- I have this problem with money that I can not stand it, so when i have it i MUST spend it, and so, I , after the internet session, bought some MORE food, and then, of course, when I woke up, I was still well, bloated, and when I got on the train, I was finishing my leftovers, and got off  at falsebay, because i thought the walk would do me good. So, of course, I was feeling kinda chirpy because as i came to kalk bay, the sky in front of me was darkening, and i was like, I am going on a killing spree, but two minutes with vinnie, and me being blamed for having given that shithead asshole of a woman, nissie the keys while i was leaving the container and her having sabotaged all that-she and the other roustabouts are part of the mike-woman clique designed, for some weird reason, to make me conform, and so i have no doubt they were behind the deeds designed to make tony and me fall out so I would probably have no place to go, or something. I think that, for that reason, I may just NOT kill tony, to spite them, but they are ALL dead. Anyway, vinnie got me feeling guilty for something I did not do, and so, i ended up, after he had left me alone to go attend to some business at home, wanting to eat, see?
And I walked into the bakery, and immediately after wards, like them fools have eyes everywhere, i saw the smart chick-still so stupid- her mother and the mother's SO, walk up straight after. You all know what that meant:- you are focusing on  the wrong person, I am here( smart chick), so, well, here I am, I am sexy and you want me. She should have observed my reaction to her voice as she spoke to the guy as he stood in front of me in the queue for food;- being already on edge, her abrasive voice grated on me so much she made me want to lash out at her.
And she thinks the assassin is ... stupid? to have concluded that i would kill her in no time? The guy then decided to start a conversation, and he was going, "so how was business yesterday", and i laughed. And dropped my concentration.
Anyway, I dropped the food, and came out, and started laughing as the mother and daughter sat on one of the wooden benches and made small talk. Soon as they looked my way, I gave them both the finger- I was still bloated, and not angry- and then started laughing to see just how stupid people can get.
the guy comes up to me, with the parcel i dropped, offers it to me, and I told him off, and he said he was just trying to be friendly, and i said I did not even LIKE him, so he can keep his friendliness to himself, because i am really out to do something to all the people I do not like,and so he walked away, and later spoke to vinnie who wanted to make peace. told him to butt out. I am done being ... nice.
Its about to get ugly, real fast.
The stupid chick decided to try again, and she shows up, hugging the guy that i spoke about that is abisha's friend, and then walking from the la parada end to the bakery, past where i was sitting, and i laughed some more, and then I turned my back to her.
And the silly woman who thinks my world revolves around her, and has some divine mission to make me change or conform decided to pull her stunt.
She drives up in her slk, drives past, and has that asshole she was kissing on the passenger side, and i almost fell over backwards with laughter. Here is another crazy fool that thinks when i say that i do NOT care, am DONE caring for anything and I do not love her, i am being just silly. HELL- which reminds me, when they want to get on my good side, a bit, them fools put the guard prince on duty, and if not, there is the obnoxious guard, or junior, who is so called because he is also 'mike' and so, is called mike juniour, or juniour only; today prince was on duty-  fools do not get PLAIN speech, and so as i stood up, I decided to speak my mind,with prince to hear, and say, fuck, I am going to have to SEE this, oh yes, make my day, because i assumed that she was going to immediately pull another of her, YOU need me stunts. She drove past.
Did not park anywhere i could see. Then, we had some interesting times, later.
because the guy that I should have handed the egg basket to, well, he is a bible hick, and lectures at the BI in kalk bay, and so, he came round and we sort of eventually got into the, with vinnie's egging on, reason why I am so adamant.
And I was honest about my feelings. Told him I had had NO intention of serving God, from the word go, and that He did in fact say "I will have steadfast love, not sacrifice" and so, He could not therefore be ... pleased with me if I tried to pretend I felt otherwise than I did, that I resented His coming into my life and having me figure out just what the fuck was going on, and that i had tried, before, to get on what I thought was His good side and failed, because He did not want me to try to suck up to Him, and was pleased to get me to just remain as myself and figure out for myself just what the fuck was going on. I showed him the scars on my wrists from my assiduously trying to slash my wrists because I HATE God and will NEVER serve Him, and so,  I got into the bible, told him that I did not owe God or anyone any favours, and so, what i had discovered about the nature of God was what I stood by, and would not bow down to any sentimental bullshit about 'love' and joy and all that, because I could NEVER get over the fact that God has kept me alive, interfered with my life, without MY permission.
In all that time, the gallery woman was walking up and down, making herself very visible, like, i  have something to lose, here, like, if I do not play my cards right, i will lose the woman i ... love.
Well, I have closed that door long back. the woman I ... love... is DEAD, because rule number ONE is no one corrects the person who is living on bare facts and no pretense, because you think he has something to lose. As soon as the guy and I were done talking, I went and stood across the road, and decided that i would still point out that, because it is in MY best interests to NOT have the holy spirit pissing me off, then EVERY jew is STILL dead.
then the crazy woman decided to throw her weight around, dancing a dance of death with the ONE person who has NOTHING to lose, nothing to hope for, nothing he cares for, except his pride. came and parked her slk where tony parks his car, and the asshole that i am going to PERSONALLY mangle before I mangle HER decided to walk out. I had had some more food, by then, and so, the tortured cogs of her mind were going, "now, he is thinking of me, and so, now i have him right where I want him", and when i saw the asshole walk behind me, i laughed, and looked for her. there she was, and i laughed some more.
Today is the last day of your life, bitch.
I am coming for YOU as soon as i get offline. Wet your bed, oh, yesss, because i am coming for you. Talk is cheap, now it is time for me to act.
She looked coolly at me like she was on top of her world, and vinnie thought I had gone off my head, because i could not help laughing some more.
then, to make it even more ... painful... i suppose ;- "look what you are giving up for wanting to carry on and be some kind of boss of the world", she and the guy kissed, and then, I told them, I am going to KILL you, I am REALLY going to kill you, and they drove off. 
No one insults me and thinks I have anything to lose.
YOU will see your family suffer tonight, because the assassin is coming to destroy everything that you hold dear, and I am making it personal!

I will have you remember that the vision spoke of  me holding my 'sister' in the stomach, like I was trying to squeeze her belly and then me NOT being lifted when she bent down to try to carry me, and then her looking into the water container outside the happy valley home and then looking at  her face reflected there?
Well, you, woman were shown as bread, the last possible one that i could have as woman, and well, "man does NOT live on bread alone, but by EVERY word that comes from the mouth of God". NOW, I am making THAT plain to you, silly little woman. I am glad to even forego sex for the pleasure of wiping off your face that smug smile, and i will do this to  the one that you "bear". I am going to squeeze every single drop from off your womb, and make you aware of the meaning of the text "rachel weeping... for her children are no more", because you were all dead from the moment God decided he would override MY choice to choose whether or not i would accept Him for myself or not.
now, the song above goes....
listen to the complaint of the mother guinea fowl [tarantaal?],
 when she complains to the eagle,
 why do you murder my son, 
a very young one without guilt
I laid the egg and raised him alone
and you murder him easily
and you strangle him easily
why do you do that to my ... womb


my womb is indeed easily wrung!

utete ura hwangu x3

terera kurira kwehanga

ichitinya kunewe gondo

seiko uchibata mwana wangu

muchechecheche asina mhosva

kukandira ndoga kerera ndoga

iwe wavekutomuponda nyore

iwe wavekutomudzipa nyore

wandidarireiko ura hwangu

utete ura hwangu...

Well, I am thinking sex, and the fact that i wanted, today, at least, to have a go and find some lady of the night, and enjoy myself before I have to kill everyone and so, I am thinking, well, i may as well give everyone a grace period, a chance to walk all over me again, and then, of course, decide i am joking and come and try me again, so, i will come tomorrow, and kill off everyone as and when you piss me off, yeah-sss.

Ah, fuck You, God, now i am having to WORRY about SEX, of all things.}

Anyway, I am goinng to come kill them fools for wanting to look down on me, and thinking they have the RIGHT to do so.

How STUPID do you think God is Who has carried me all this time to suddenly drop me and into people's laps? Do you have ANY idea just how FINAL is my decision to kill off everyone?
ha ha ha, you will SEE it, now

I left HOME to go to a PLACE that a president had 'prepared' for me, and the ONLY president I know of that has made me mad enough to want to personally make his acquaintance in the worst possible way is mr barack obama, and i happen to WANT the things he sits on at the white house, NASA and all that, because I need to just figure out a way to go off-planet for a while while some flood or such re-arranges the earth after i have done with wiping people off the face of the planet, YEAH-SSS.
I never asked for this, and so, hell, woe betide the silly fool who thinks he or she can stand in MY way to tell me what I should do, and HOW I should do it, ha ha, because the lion is UP, and roaring mad, YEAH-SSS!
And I am just going to LOVE killing people, any fool silly enough to think he or she can stand up to me, or go toe to to with the UNBENDING one, YEAH-SSS
me, being TOLD how to behave by a bunch of silly fools? ha ha ha, you are about to see the full fury of the one who NEVER asked for this, and never wanted to be involved, but now MUST deal with it, because i can not die.
You crossed the WRONG man today, fools.
Now, lets DANCE!
The DANCE of DEATH

There will be NO going back, because what I view things as is thusly;- everyone but ME has been free to act as they see fit, and you have chosen to do so, and so, i am now turning back on your heads the consequences of your actions, and I am interested in ONLY one thing, REVENGE, because i have NO room in me to accommodate  people, because I hate every single one of you. Never, ever let go of that fact, because even if i do not kill you today, i will kill you ... anyway.
There will be ONLY one , in the end.
So, yeah, this is PERSONAL.
I will be the ONLY person on this planet! At the end. I hold high ground, and will KEEP it, for myself, and not for anyone else. NOOOOO