Ah, fuck this, it has been too long for me pretending to like people, putting myself out as a comedian, a person who is out to serve others simply because I myself do not have a self-starter button. Today, after everything that happened, i finally decided to throw in the towel, admit that i had laboured in vain and give the woman I love the finger, in her face -do not think she actually expected THAT from someone that she took so long for granted she forgot to pay attention to- and finally, I am now able to exterminate everyone from the face of the earth, YEAH-SSS
those who have been at Pleiades Arts, vinnie's stall, named after his son, have probably seen abisha's nodding giraffes. Picturesque pieces, some as tall as six feet and they sell like crazy.
only THIS time, the pieces i saw were NOT giraffes, but zebra, with flat 2D faces, and in one instance was as tall as the building which I am growing to hate so much, and also alongside it, facing me, in the road, this squashed zebra, with a black mouth and snout.
second time was the zebra taller than the building, leaning towards me as i lay flat on my back on the lawn vinnie planted, from the olympia cafe end, only its head showing as i lay, looking up at the sky, and instead of the building was a sort of grandstand, like the VIP section in a football/rugby ground, with the glass windows, and a T-Shirt, like that worn by the blue bottle staff, hanging there, with no person visible in it.
Thirdly, the same lean zebra, normal sized was looking to the left of my 'screen' in a kitchen, a rudimentary one, and head bowed down. Flat and lost looking.
Think about it, you go out of your way to be 100% honest, and tell the woman exactly where you stand, KNOWING that she will STILL pay attention to her mother's demands that she hold out for better terms when the ones I give her are even more then she deserves when I could just kill off all those males she pissed me off with because I will still look at her and remember, and if it was not for the fact that she affects me differently from anyone else i have ever seen and thus i am not as capable of hurting her as I thought I would end up doing, I would say that I will kill them anyway if she so much as indicated any willingness to be with me, and what happens, I get her trying to squash my face in it as usual, with her forgetting that female wiles do NOT work on me.
I told her not to wear certain clothes- oh, yeah, dont know what you found so funny red -breeches, but I promised long back to kill you as soon as i dealt with my love, and I am telling you that you, the silly women who paraded themselves near me because they assumed that they know better than me what I want, like than bimbo, are dead, and I get to kill that gallery bitch, yessss!- if she was interested in me, and she assumes that i think with my dick, and I even go and explain WHY i am against that, and she still thinks I am some fool, and dares to walk up, with some stocking thing , which showed MY thighs and left nothing to the imagination, and she thinks i will fall on my face and salivate or something. Well, now you know that the reason why I have been out troubling the world was because I could not make up my mind when to deal with people, but there you are, no different from my mother, when i tell you that this mission I am on is God-forced on me, and you think to squash my hopes because of course, you know better.
Twice now you want to prove me wrong, and twice i have endured your taunting me in trying to get me, the one that is living on bare essentials, to change and be normal, like I asked for this, or i am willing to negotiate about this.
I am going to KILL that mother of yours. You I will leave and see where all your vaunted pride is, after you realise that the only worth you actually have is one that I bestowed on you.
You will live out the rest of your days with the knowledge that you tried to one-up the Lord of the Earth, and bit the dust, silly fool.
And I get to kill those males, too.
I am calling them out, now, and I will have you watch it, too, YEAH-SSS.
She has the nerve to wait till i can see her, and then walk out deliberately to that building, after I told her that if she is NOT interested in me she should just ignore me, and yet the silly little misguided fool -I think when i said that bit about 'I have a mind of my own' she latched on to it, like she latched on, to the 'are you coming with us' part and she decided to go, "i can not look after the child on my own' and so, decided to come out with a cup of coffee, like that was what was MEANT to happen, like in her silly mind God actually wants someone to stop me from doing what I SAY i am going to do, because i am NOT interested in keeping anyone else alive if i have to remain alive myself- decides that, no, prince, you are wrong, all men are fools, they have to be thought for, so, here, this is what you really want, and be practical, how can I have anything to do with you when there is NO money, and so, why should I leave mike, and his lucrative job?
In a short space of time, money is about to become something that no one values, because these days that you are entering are the days of MY rage, and i will NOT stop till I pour out in full my unremitting anger, and THE only way that I will get to remain alive on this planet after all this is done is to get done with all the pretense that yo all live under, that i have had to stomach and put up with and chaffed under, and THAT means that I will ONLY stop when you all are dead, YEAH-SSSS.
Dead and gone!
Prepare for hell, fools.
I am getting ready to roll out, and take charge of things, and destroy your lives like you never thought possible.
Because i am alive, and I can not stand being alive and being put up on.
Fuck, she thinks all the time to put me in the same bracket with them doomed fools, like it matters what she sees this time, like it will remain forever.
Pity that vinnie is so nearby, because i wiould have loved to destroy that building with a tidal wave, and smash all your hopes to smithereens while you watch, fools.
Do you have any idea how much I HATE you all, and how UNCHANGING is that hatred?
Fuck, you are about to see it, now.
THIS IS WAR
And I am starting it with the whole lot of YOU,
THE GOD OF WAR,
ME!
me war with the whole are dem.
No, I will NOT let what you did go unretaliated with, woman, no, not this time.
This is what has been in my heart all this time, to be the judge, the jury, the executioner, and well, I am not going to forgive your stunts to correct me, and so, i am going to execute those fools that you used to piss me off with, and i will THEN send them to hell, because i am not to be trifled with. Know that THIS is something that i will NOT ignore.
You would have me and mike in the same bracket, well, I have no rival, and no man can be my equal. He is dead, wityh immediate effect, so is that brother of yours, and also, all those fools like the imp, the cunt of a rasta and anyone that you stood up for in defiance of me, because yo thought that because I looked at you different from the rest then you have some divine mission to put me to rights.
You are about to see just how deadly that assumption is, and you WILL weep, woman, and i assure you that I am coming tomorrow, again, and you have the choice of showing me up again, and this time, I will let loose my fury without any consideration of how it may affect even people i am not as angry with at present, like vinnie.
You will SEE the fury of the AlMighty the moment you try to snort at me again.
Your people are dead, and I will kill them, because of what you put me through, and you can test me on that, or you can back off, or you can disappear, but you will SEE that happen, fool, because I will NOT let anyone take my pride, the only thing I HAVE that is MINE, and trample it in the dust like I am some errant little ... child.
hell, NO.I respected you enough to be upfront with you, and you have the gall to take that and kick it away like it is all nonsense? ha ha ha. well, time to pay up, and you will REGRET that, YEAH-SSS!
I do not love you anymore. I will not eat rubbish. And to me, you are rubbish.
Chave chimurenga! he he, nhaka muchandiona!
NOBODY tells ME what to do. That is the first RULE of life from this moment on. Has been from the word go. i do not listen to God, nor do I respect people, and for THAT right, the right to go where i want to go, do what i want to do, I will sweep away everything in my path, and that excludes NO ONE.
You broke that rule many times, and i can remember that clearly. So, I will make you pay for that.
And I do not hate you. Not yet. but, you could make that happen, since, of course, you know better than me what should be, and you can think better than me. I mean, you can do ME better than i can do me, right?
this BOY is getting tired of your mockery, woman!
