I came to kalk bay with just one intention, to make it dark in daylight so that I could send thunder and lightning and kill people, and for a while, trying to fight my aching head, I was making some ... dull... progress, and then, some guy came and bought something I was finishing that I was to have handed in to its owner instantly, and, of course, from then on, I was just having ... fun.And discovering myself, so much so that I now KNOW why the only woman I have had time for does not believe that I love/loved her.
I mean, I died, for crying out loud, and from then on, life was just a series of endurance races, and I really have never cared for anything or anyone, and today, there was this woman who came- I have no PERSONAL comment to make on what you fools may have seen, but I have THIS to say for that, because the fact that I really am just a logical, cold person is the reason why I am going to wipe out all the jews, all the peoples, and of course, why I am at the same time going to have to make sure that there exists no person that i am against from this time on- and me and vinnie and her son and the other guys got to talking, and it was this that I discovered as we all talked, that everyone puts sentiment in the place of cold reason because they assume that no one has to take life, or God, literally, since everyojne has something to lose.
Not the mav. What I said, I meant. I do not make such decisions lightly.
When I got to vinnie's, I saw that someone had uprooted one of tony's mealies, and i knew that the asshole would assume it was me, and well, when red-breeches first walked past me, like I really am interested in giving them fools even breathing room, and i glared at her, and then the senseless bimbo also did the same, i went to the toilet, washed my socks, and then as i came back I promised everyone at the gallery and the offices death, and then went and sat under the pizza oven, with my socks on it, finishing this chicken basket that i later sold, because i did not want to be pissed off. The druggie came up, put two and two together, assumed that i was trying to brew trouble and then gave lip to vinnie about wires and stuff under the pizza oven, and of course, everything was moved. Fool, I promised that i would PERSONALLY end your life, and that means I will SEE to it that you die, MYSELF, and end your life MYSELF, because i will not let something or someone else take my revenge from me. I will KILL you, and we shall put it to the test just how good a fighter you really are, when your life is on the line, YEAH-SSS.
Anyway, the conversation drifted to jesus, and I discovered the woman was a missionary of sorts and when we argued about christ, she decided to go the sentimental route, and that was when i knew that I was different from anyone else. I have no sentiments. What i know of myself I discovered through putting myself through the grille, so, when I told that woman to NOT dare come anywhere near me while she was involved with anyone of her family, while she wanted me to take it easy on anyone else, I was being simply pragmatic, because otherwise I would kill her.
maybe this is the part, today that the mother, who also decided to show up near me like I actually GIVE a fuck about what she feels or thinks, when I SAID that I am going to kill off every single one of them and spare not a single jew, saw, me liking the fact that here was a real live woman that i was looking in the eyes and her looking me in the eyes and we laughing and me being punched in the arm and me looking at her and thinking, well, I would like to kiss those lips, but at the same time looking at the flaws and knowing that it would not take me a long time before I got fed up with her... anywhere, I think the mother was looking and she said, "aha, this is his weakness, the man will fall for any woman, go and show yourself to him and he will drool over you"
How does the song go:-
"while me fir government gun them oh wah
violate the youth and burn them oh wah
while me fir government...
if you continue do it then me say we go show it
the stupid mother of yours said that it was OK for you to just show up because god had fought for you, and well, I did have that shown to me from the beginning did I not?How in isaiah 6: 1-13 two stupid creatures who covered their feet (deceiving about their motives, that is) and covered their faces( put up a front while they carried on their real aims under the mask) would see the lord of earth, look down on him and go, "good, God now has him right where we want him", while the real person that i had time for, the one i noticed and decided was the only person I could look at and not get pissed off at because she NEVER tried to make eye contact with me for any length of time since i am an angry warlord and view that as a direct threat, and hate all people and can not stand being reminded that the person is aware of me and challenging me, well that person was told, never mind that your own conscience has made you aware of the burden of guilt you carry, go, ignore it, and now, carry on, or you will lose him to some other woman, see, this is your chance, God will not give it to you again, he can not send any darkness on us... so, act now!
Fool, when will you wean yourself from that silly woman?
I care NOT that she is your mother, she and all of your people are dead, and not just dead, but going to hell for it, too.
And there is NO negotiation about it.
If it is any consolation, even if you had obeyed me from the word go, I will still have had to kill all the jews anyway, because it would be folly for me to leave the holy spirit any leeway by which he may reclaim the 'jesus-jerusalem' prophecy stunt.
No, I would not, but with you with me, he still will have no hold, over me, because he has NO idea what to do with the coldest, most logical heart in existence.
All I want is sex, I suppose, from a woman, but a woman I do not have to want dead afterwards, and you are it.
And from the look of it, I am going to have to kill you anyway, to avoid having anyone else getting any ideas from that. I can NOT afford to let either you or anyone of your people remain alive if I am to set off.
That is the raw deal. I do not do... sugarcoating.
No beat round the bush, no go away and come back, know me that me action pak!
'Half past'. You know, woman, not to put too fine a point to it, women are different from men because not only did God know that the woman is of no real NEED to the man, but that he could probably, if he was honest with himself, only really THINK of her or want her if he was able to visualise her, and she was what he wanted, and from where I stand, you are the ONLY person that I have SAID over and over again I can stand, and you are to me what I want in a woman, a wet dream in the flesh as well as someone I can probably NOT react to- that was in the past, I doubt that you have or will ever have the same hold over me ever again, because frankly, you are disgusting to me to even think of at present, and I am wondering if I will not just finish this and come hunt you all down and kill you before the break of day, and get this all over with- with instant anger.
Anyway, 'half past' meant that i was showing that ALL I really expected from you was sex, or rather that, instead of all this bullshit that you and all of your people were building, it would have been more sensible to just go sensual than try to go cerebral with the best brain in the business. the minute hand being just OFF six means i am not well, holding my hands between my legs anymore if you still follow the 'recess project' vision.
i explained the coloured part before, and i even went so far as to mention the fact that I was telling you to change or I would make you suffer in the vision of the pink panther, and that I had looked at a smug mother who, like mine, thought the mav. had to be made to pay for being alive, by being saddled with someone else's burdens.
And of course you and all your stupid people assumed that if I said it, then God, Who has promised me over and over again that not only has He claimed me EXCLUSIVELY for Himself so that no one else can ever have any high ground over me, but that He has promised also that NOTHING will make Him change His mind about His decision to make me His, and so He will never let me be taken from His sole providence to being under anyone else, and you still think that no, He had reached the end of the line and so, i was supposed to be used.Oh, hell, I wonder just how terrible I am going to make your lives, fools, for your presumption.
Prepare for your worst nightmares, fools!
yeah-sss.
Ah fuck, I will do it tomorrow. I did something contrary to my usual style today, I went and got off at Wittebome, and then, went to buy the usual small chips I buy at this fish and chips place near the station on the main road, but the place was so packed that i had to wait for a while for my order, and so, I decided to go buy something else while I waited, since I am not a fan of waiting, and bought everything else i normally eat when I am going to sleep. I just thought that lugging food around or walking to kalk bay on a full stomach is like trying to get into combat mode while a bit anaesthised with a feel-good sedative, since food has a calming effect on me.
So, I will go sleep, no sense on wasting good food.
i will kill you fools later, since i still need to get over my headache. I NEED the cold to just get over the heat on my back, and to go cerebral, as well. So, cold, dark weather means the mav. isFULLY on the warpath, and I will KILL people, yessss.
Take that to the bank.
I am NOT ruled by sentiment, no, but by cold, ruthless, remorseless logic, YEAH-SSSS!
The sub-zero assassin is here, and entering combat mode.
Me cold, you HOT, oh, yeah....!
I had decided to use the last hour and a bit that i have to just watch a movie or something, so i settled on God of War 3, and well, I saw for now just about two minutes of it, and well, it starts, "in the beginning was chaos...." and then, later on, he is shown with his face like
that above, going, "In the end, there will be only Chaos", and frankly, there will be NO peace on this planet till in the end, that which was in the beginning IS.
In the End, there will be ONLY one, One lord of the earth, one Dominion, One Man, and nothing else, NO! This is MINE.As kratos further went,
"death is in my blood...Fate has brought me here... I hope for NOTHING... and fear NOTHING... Its in my BLOOD!"
That could be me to a tee, and not this thing you would have me be, fools.
Because I do not.
I mean, fuck it, I have NO heart!
I mean, fuck it, I have NO heart!
Not the mav. What I said, I meant. I do not make such decisions lightly.
When I got to vinnie's, I saw that someone had uprooted one of tony's mealies, and i knew that the asshole would assume it was me, and well, when red-breeches first walked past me, like I really am interested in giving them fools even breathing room, and i glared at her, and then the senseless bimbo also did the same, i went to the toilet, washed my socks, and then as i came back I promised everyone at the gallery and the offices death, and then went and sat under the pizza oven, with my socks on it, finishing this chicken basket that i later sold, because i did not want to be pissed off. The druggie came up, put two and two together, assumed that i was trying to brew trouble and then gave lip to vinnie about wires and stuff under the pizza oven, and of course, everything was moved. Fool, I promised that i would PERSONALLY end your life, and that means I will SEE to it that you die, MYSELF, and end your life MYSELF, because i will not let something or someone else take my revenge from me. I will KILL you, and we shall put it to the test just how good a fighter you really are, when your life is on the line, YEAH-SSS.
Anyway, the conversation drifted to jesus, and I discovered the woman was a missionary of sorts and when we argued about christ, she decided to go the sentimental route, and that was when i knew that I was different from anyone else. I have no sentiments. What i know of myself I discovered through putting myself through the grille, so, when I told that woman to NOT dare come anywhere near me while she was involved with anyone of her family, while she wanted me to take it easy on anyone else, I was being simply pragmatic, because otherwise I would kill her.
maybe this is the part, today that the mother, who also decided to show up near me like I actually GIVE a fuck about what she feels or thinks, when I SAID that I am going to kill off every single one of them and spare not a single jew, saw, me liking the fact that here was a real live woman that i was looking in the eyes and her looking me in the eyes and we laughing and me being punched in the arm and me looking at her and thinking, well, I would like to kiss those lips, but at the same time looking at the flaws and knowing that it would not take me a long time before I got fed up with her... anywhere, I think the mother was looking and she said, "aha, this is his weakness, the man will fall for any woman, go and show yourself to him and he will drool over you"
How does the song go:-
"while me fir government gun them oh wah
violate the youth and burn them oh wah
while me fir government...
if you continue do it then me say we go show it
how we kill it fir pursue it oh wah" [2:14- 2;30]
Silly woman, the mother, evidently thought she had found a way out that showed that God was on her side. Maybe the woman herself had seen that she was in deep shit with me, but then, the mom goes, it doesn't matter, we have him now by the balls, he can not do anything, now, go specify the terms and conditions.
She did not want the daughter to go, because of course, there are others, like the hapless 'catherine' she has been throwing my way, and even the michaela chick she made a point to mentioning when I went into the gallery so that I could settle for her, and today she had her car parked very visibly, and then also, when I went to the restaurant she was sitting at the doorstep, and I changed entrances, and then ignored her as I walked out. I even had the other silly boy make an appearance, after initially the more expendable workers had shown up.Guess the woman was desperate to send her daughter, especially when she saw that i was pinching the woman's 'coloured' son and comparing his skin to mine. that must have caused her to panic, and violate the daughter, and work on her well-documented possessiveness to come out and defy me, and stand and talk with that jew boy that abisha is friends with so I could get jealous and come to my senses. So far, woman, you have done exactly as I predicated, and you are STILL the greatest disappointment to me. You have eyes that you do not use, and you still persist in trying to intimate to me that you think for yourself when the truth is plain before you, and you are being exploited with eyes open like a fish, by people who reel you in like you are that stupid, and you do not use your own eyes, ha ha!
Woman, all of them are DEAD, and I am either going to make you watch as I kill them, or just send them to hell, and trust me, I am NOT in the mood for ... kind.
You, an intelligent person, allow yourself to be ridden like a donkey, and then look down on ... ME? ha ha ha, you will see the truth of your folly, silly woman!
the Mav. dont play number two.
You, an intelligent person, allow yourself to be ridden like a donkey, and then look down on ... ME? ha ha ha, you will see the truth of your folly, silly woman!
the Mav. dont play number two.
Fool, when will you wean yourself from that silly woman?
I care NOT that she is your mother, she and all of your people are dead, and not just dead, but going to hell for it, too.
And there is NO negotiation about it.
If it is any consolation, even if you had obeyed me from the word go, I will still have had to kill all the jews anyway, because it would be folly for me to leave the holy spirit any leeway by which he may reclaim the 'jesus-jerusalem' prophecy stunt.
No, I would not, but with you with me, he still will have no hold, over me, because he has NO idea what to do with the coldest, most logical heart in existence.
All I want is sex, I suppose, from a woman, but a woman I do not have to want dead afterwards, and you are it.
And from the look of it, I am going to have to kill you anyway, to avoid having anyone else getting any ideas from that. I can NOT afford to let either you or anyone of your people remain alive if I am to set off.
That is the raw deal. I do not do... sugarcoating.
No beat round the bush, no go away and come back, know me that me action pak!
'Half past'. You know, woman, not to put too fine a point to it, women are different from men because not only did God know that the woman is of no real NEED to the man, but that he could probably, if he was honest with himself, only really THINK of her or want her if he was able to visualise her, and she was what he wanted, and from where I stand, you are the ONLY person that I have SAID over and over again I can stand, and you are to me what I want in a woman, a wet dream in the flesh as well as someone I can probably NOT react to- that was in the past, I doubt that you have or will ever have the same hold over me ever again, because frankly, you are disgusting to me to even think of at present, and I am wondering if I will not just finish this and come hunt you all down and kill you before the break of day, and get this all over with- with instant anger.
Anyway, 'half past' meant that i was showing that ALL I really expected from you was sex, or rather that, instead of all this bullshit that you and all of your people were building, it would have been more sensible to just go sensual than try to go cerebral with the best brain in the business. the minute hand being just OFF six means i am not well, holding my hands between my legs anymore if you still follow the 'recess project' vision.
i explained the coloured part before, and i even went so far as to mention the fact that I was telling you to change or I would make you suffer in the vision of the pink panther, and that I had looked at a smug mother who, like mine, thought the mav. had to be made to pay for being alive, by being saddled with someone else's burdens.
Prepare for your worst nightmares, fools!
yeah-sss.
Ah fuck, I will do it tomorrow. I did something contrary to my usual style today, I went and got off at Wittebome, and then, went to buy the usual small chips I buy at this fish and chips place near the station on the main road, but the place was so packed that i had to wait for a while for my order, and so, I decided to go buy something else while I waited, since I am not a fan of waiting, and bought everything else i normally eat when I am going to sleep. I just thought that lugging food around or walking to kalk bay on a full stomach is like trying to get into combat mode while a bit anaesthised with a feel-good sedative, since food has a calming effect on me.
So, I will go sleep, no sense on wasting good food.
i will kill you fools later, since i still need to get over my headache. I NEED the cold to just get over the heat on my back, and to go cerebral, as well. So, cold, dark weather means the mav. isFULLY on the warpath, and I will KILL people, yessss.
Take that to the bank.
I am NOT ruled by sentiment, no, but by cold, ruthless, remorseless logic, YEAH-SSSS!
The sub-zero assassin is here, and entering combat mode.
Me cold, you HOT, oh, yeah....!
I had decided to use the last hour and a bit that i have to just watch a movie or something, so i settled on God of War 3, and well, I saw for now just about two minutes of it, and well, it starts, "in the beginning was chaos...." and then, later on, he is shown with his face like
In the End, there will be ONLY one, One lord of the earth, one Dominion, One Man, and nothing else, NO! This is MINE.As kratos further went,
"death is in my blood...Fate has brought me here... I hope for NOTHING... and fear NOTHING... Its in my BLOOD!"
