Some people have no... idea how... close a call they have had today, but, I suppose it is only.. fair.. to let them in on the secret or missing link, and if they ignore THIS then I am justified in getting ... MAD.=>For the past two weeks I have been going with vinnie to church, not because of the christ angle, but because I ... used to... pray... to God, before all this self-awareness thing, but I have lost it, since I have felt betrayed by God because of... His... preconceived plans. And grown aware of just how... unlimited my... choices are, ironically when I have fuck-all interest in all that I can choose. But the point was, today, I wentbecause I was going '?!' at God because of certain issues, and the sermon was today on jeremiah 9: 23-26 which part begins"Let not the wise man glory in his wisdom, or the rich man glory in his riches, or the mighty man in his might, but let him who glories glory in this, that he understands and knows me, that I am YHWH who practices righteousness and judgement and lovingkindness in all the earth, for in these things I delight". Apparently people choose to focus on certain aspects of God, like basically His mercy, or only His judgement, while refusing to take Him in His totality,as muliti-faceted. I was wondering what that had to do with me, since i am not a...fan... of God, nor do I fear Him, till i grasped that, since I alone can claim to be "like" Him,then His point today was to let me know, and thus let everyone know that has acted so... deaf and blind-especially BLIND- why they are really ready to plunge full-clothed into hell, maybe so that I don't kill them,while of course, others,who have mastered the art of interpreting every act of mine to their advantage, like I have changed my mind.=>Ok, fools, listen up, or read up! I am like God in the power thing and in the pride and exclusivity thing, like 'Though shall have no ... man... before me', but while God has lovingkndness, i have RAGE, and since i never caused anyone to ... start... existing, i have none of the sympathy. Now, these silly women, four of them, I have scratched off one, DOUBTLESS read my posts, and have waited for God to ... change... me, because to them it is inconceivable that I could do as I am promising....and so, they sit back and twiddle their thumbs and expect ME to... change. For a silly fool who can not tell her backside from her face to expect me to take HER issues as if important while denying my RIGHT as Lord of the earth,that is really STUPID. SO if these fools do NOT take my last warning to heart andact on it, then Monday is going ti be a very, very fiery day, because i will NOT let anyone trample my pride ANY longer. Test me in this, and i assure you, when it comes to issues of MY intent, then anyone who opposes me,takes me for a fool, or is contemptuous, then that person, regardless of his or her standing, that person is dead, and I will destroy everything... as I like. I was going to be merciful to the jews but fuck that, they will ALL die, and I will spare none of them. All the coloured people in south africa, without exception, will die- it is pointless to be merciful to a people as discriminating as street mongrels that only focus on their stomachs, and I will remove almost every xhosa and zulu person, and well, when it comes to white people, heck only those I approve of, and their families will see the new year.every stranger... dies. Fuck, i will do no one any favours, but ...vengeance is mine, I will REPAY good for good, evil for evil. The whole american continent will be devoid of life, but here is an interesting twist, yesss. I will drink my tea while salivating over this, yessss!!! Which brings me to the issue I was going, "?" about. Yesterday, I was ...worried... about what happened, because this shy woman walked up to me as i lay with my head on the wall that runs up to the outspan restaurant wall.fuck, go SEE it if my explanation is confusing. I was bored, trying to finish the shark I was making, and finding it heavy going. So i lay down, darn thing between my legs, and dozed, depressed. And she came and asked where vinnie was, and we got to talking, but hell, once bitten, and all tgat, so I was not really hopeful. She introduced herself as sarah, after a while, after we hadspoken a bit, and sheasked my name, and since about the first thing i asked her was whether she was... taken... and she said yes, I was not that interested see? Wanted something made,which she had already discussed with vinnie, and after abisha called him, they left together, to get deposit money from the local ATM. Before that, though, while i was cracking jokes with her, some coloured drunkie came and started needling me because of some perceived debt that vinnie owed his girls, and sarah surprised me by sticking up for me and pointing out that he was interrupting an important meeting, so cld he leave us alone? I personally wanted to knock what was left of his teeth out. Wasn't necessary. Asshole left. Girl leftwith vinnie,surprisingky came back,and, well, after she pointed out that she was not married, finger on wrong ring, or whatever, i was left with mixed signals. Liked the soft-steel of the woman,though, and, what the heck, I want women, lots of them. Decided the old RAV woman was too... old... for me. I like youngish attractive women,so, i am DOING something about it, as i intended before. Get ready for my... selection, european ladies. Then i will select mine and go to the stars, yesss!! Now to deal with them fools, or kill them, depending on them. Let us see just whether any of them idiots continue making a fool of me, because death will be a blessing to them, yessss!!
