No, No We Nuh Funny Man ...No

Ah, well, things are getting to a head, I think, here, and I find that, grim as my conclusions may seem, I am unable to punch in the 'reverse' mode. Meaning that, for most people, the 'worst case' scenario is what they are now facing. And I am not changing. I said it would take about three days to ... acknowledge. Well, I am now no longer hesitant. So, this is my final decision.
Ok, I will start with those people that do not need me thinking much about, people that I warned to stop pestering me, but thought I was like them, to be swayed by appearances. you know yourselves. I regard the attempts of this morning as highly... insulting. the sentence will  commence irrespective of your ... opinions.
then, it gets tricky
Because NOW, I find that my pride is pulling me one way, and my heart another, and while i pay no attention to people's opinions, yet I am unable to go the way someone may actually want me to go, to ease HER life.
i said last night that if she was coming after me because of child custody, then i would find out and make her pay. Apparently, I was right on the button. I can not be so insulted by the woman, regardless of how I was seemingly bent on humiliating myself to spite my mother. So, the child dies, and the only person i will leave alive of the child's lineage, if appearances are anything to go by, is the guy I said was 'no threat', whom i saw this morning and who acted all weird. I do not even want to begin to think of what is going on in his head, and so, i will let him get a free pass.
as for the woman, I have this to say, this to lay before her, and it is not an appeal, as such, just a statement of fact, and i do not know if she has any shame or any remorse, but if she carries this on, then i would find her extremely repulsive, and repugnant, and a person with no moral values is to me the worst kind of ...indescribably ugly bug.
you used people to cover for you, you would willingly sacrifice the safety and lives of others so that you do not have to show yourself, and you act all recklessly thinking that someone else will pick up the tab. I find that disgusting, that you expose the gallery woman, and i hope she is NOT your mother, because if she was than you are worse than i ever thought you, and the chartfield imp, and kenneth, and all those who stuck their noses out for you, while you go around with flowers and stuff, and come out when you think you will not have to get your fingers dirty.
now, I care nothing for these people, and, frankly, when it comes to you, i am getting to the pint where my eyes are opening more and more and i am seeing you for such a disgustingly repulsive cockroach i feel sick that i ever wanted you anywhere near me.
fine, I said that if you answered to me then i would know what to do with you, but at present, i think that i would be better off with someone else in my life, not you. You are sickening to me. because of you, your whole family is in jeopardy, and it does not even matter to you, because, of course, you know that everything will come out tops for you.
I will very happily strangle you, you ungrateful ... pig.
my own mother gave me hell, but i would rather have died than inconvenience her, and the only reason i am letting out my bitterness NOW is because i can not die, and i can not stay in the same place, so I have to get  a handle on my situation, and do something about easing my pain. But not you. you have people fight for you, while you sit in your ivory tower and polish your nails. I find you disgusting, simply too disgusting for words.
instead of you taking pains to avoid situations that irritate others, or me, since we are talking about that, you would rather let people die, you would rather sit back and do nothing, and that does not weigh on your conscience. I used, all these past days, to paint a better picture of you, but now, i am seeing you as this completely selfish and self-absorbed person that will use whoever and whatever just to have her way, like some modern day army general who thinks only statistics, not real-live casualties, because you seem to think that death will never come your way, that you are always going to be untouched by whatever happens. I have said you are disgusting, and i repeat it, you, woman, are disgusting, just too disgusting for words. if you had even a small brain, you would have taken heed from the first time I said something about you and the crowd you want to surround yourself with, but then, of course, you are not ... affected... right? You pathetic little fool. I pity the womb that bore you, the breast that gave you suck, the arms that lifted you up when you were small and could not do for yourself, because all their labour was for nothing. absolutely nothing> You, woman, disgust me.

Like a bug

Frankly, as you are, as you have demonstrated yourself to me as being;- the kind of person who will 'hou vas' or is it 'fas'?, that is someone who will hold on fast to something and refuse to even be ... responsible... for anything, someone who has absolutely NO compunction about who gets to bite the bullet for her, as long as she does not have to do anything- I can not have you withing even a foot of me. You would make everything in my life sour, and my life unbearable. You are so self centred , so selfish that i could never look at you and approve anything about you.
fuck, stay away from me. You and all yours will just have to die, because you would never... understand... what not going as one wants to, putting others' needs into consideration, is, and anyone who can not see THAT is of no use to me.
i am thinking that the other woman, who i met walking up the road as I came down the mountain yesterday, and who was later speaking to vinnie, who is much better... configured than you are, will do.
because as you are, you are certainly unacceptable.

certain things me nuh inna me nuh inna
me nuh inna me nuh inna
me know bout fir benz and me know about fir beemer
 No dirty hand cant cook me dinner