IMEAN, WHAT THE FUCK? I hate all these other women, and I am not even sure I would want her sister anyway! Made up my mind about the chick, but just can not seem to... get through. Anyway, this is what happened. Got off the train, saw no one, met no irritations, found vinnie still at his stall. Packed the stuff with hm, and thens as we were dilly-dallying, coz no one was in a rush to... leave... i saw a Honda CR-V parked outside the kalk bay cafe, and went to ... investigate. Was not the same one, so i started fuming, mentally cursing God for putting me in an impossible situation, that is, of loving someone glued to her way of life, and Him refusing to let me get out of it.so, i was pissed. Anyway, the funny thing that happened was that I had left my towel and shorts at vinnie's when we went swimming together last, and I asked about them, said goodbyes, and was surprised when ha said, "let's go swimming" and we did, at night, with me mainly working out my frustration by kicking and ounching the water. Fuck, I love the girl. I almost wish she was the Only One I had to have around me, but I can not forget some of the bleak looks I have received from some of the women, looks that I can never justify overlooking. But, fuck, I can not keep THIS tearing up any longer. My enemies STILL die, but ... fuck I am going to sleep!
