Don't get me wrong, I am as geographically apt as a camel, and whoever HEARD of the phillipines, huh?! Obviously no one, but hey, first a watery baptism when my mother wants to get me done away with, and I come angrily out of the water with THAT image indelibly fixed on my mind's wall in everfresh, indelible ink- fuck I have never been able to RELAX in water- and around the same time there is a weather shift, and someone calls the phenomenon El Nino, meaning little child. Aside from lack of rain in my country periodically every five years, like clockwork, nothing further happens out of the ordinary. On my birthday, 2011, when I was, what, calling my mom, telling her I am glad I survived to this age-irony of ironies, huh? - there's a tsunami. This morning, NOTHING TO DO WITH MY MENTAL STATE OF COURSE, HOW COULD IT?- there is a typhoon, and people are soon to... pray to God for life. Hmmmm, and of course, i am further deteriorating inside. Its been bad before, but NEVER have I been as unhinged as now. And I can never keep a handle on myself in these times. Fuck, I am something even I can not describe, and these things are only just starting. Think a few hours from now, a day, and instead if wet work, I get to parody Beast Wars megatron:- " I will incinerate you and use your body for scrap metal, yesssssss" oh, boy, No One really is awake to what is about to hit you guys, ha! Dead people walking, a few days and the whole planet is reduced from 7+billion to less than 200, and its something thas has taken a life of its own, something that can only be called... "synergy"....!And somehow, at the back of it is ALWAYS a woman I would rather changed so I did not have to kill her. "Gone in the morning " indeed.
