I hate frustration. Now, this is thedeal,Ok? I HAVE A LIST OF PEOPLE that are officially DEAD as of before my last post, follow? Only difference NOW... NOTHING. SO, maybe I may have stated that I am the last word on things, ... BUT... fuck, I have NOT changed, nor become friendly to people, or all of a sudden become a guy who likes the people I had condemned to death for their acts to me. They are dead, and I may STILL be waiting here because i am not sure about this chick... do me a favour, people, next time you are busy keeping an eye on all MY actions, do READ what I said pisses me off, like, for example, keeping me waiting while you... I am talking to a specific person here... watch ME to see if I ...change. And i am waiting for clarity, OK. OTHER THING that pisses me off is that a woman I get jealous over because I SEE her with some guy, and who does not make her position to ME clear, drives past, on the passenger side of the CR-V and some tall dude is driving her, who, like all the guys she showed up with, is DEAD even if he is her brother. I am frustrated because this, which by rights should be about TWO people is involving.. tons of them. All of whom are, for THAT treading a very, very, thin line. So, either I get to have the clarity I have been SCREAMING about for so long, or I get to ... snap. Because I feel like an idiot here. Is this woman involved with some guy and and is she like some of these women who thought I could be some indiscriminating, stupid idiot who will take anyone regardless of whose dick was just ij her, and is this some concerted effort by these ... white people... to keep their superiority while I am kept stubbing my toes in anger? Because if that is the case anyone who has put her nose in MY business is... DEAD. ALL OF THEM. ESPECIALLY IF THERE IS A SINGIFICANT OTHER. I WILL KILL THE WOMAN PERSONALLY, IN THAT CASE. So, the honus is on you. If I have to figure it out, then people pay. Maybe, THIS may be a good time to READ my every word? Or am I making no sense here? Because I am making sense to MYSELF. And, technically, that, THAT is what matters.
