For Whom the Bell Tolls

So, I am coming to the internet cafe and I am going, 'well, its about time'- never mind how I am feeling, you can see it if you look outside, and I am thinking, while waiting for history3destiny.blogspot.com to load up, I will listen on another tab to elephant, on line, and while I am hashing up the things to say, up comes, first, this commercial above, and well, the whole thing just gets to me.
When was the last time you did what you wanted?
I am going to wonder if I will ever get to do what I want, ever, because all my labour has gone down the drain. I told my landlord that I was leaving tomorrow morning, and I would have done so happily, but brian, in a bid to show that he is not to be intimidated, decided, probably while at work, that he would bring back some of the pieces that he had bought outright from me earlier, because they were 'not selling' just so that he could avoid paying the balance he owes me, and I have had to send HIM again with thosepieces to vinnie, and explain stuff to him about what I am about to do so, PLEASE help me pay the arrears in rent so I can leave tomorrow. I owe exactly R100.
Funny, all that.

Because what I want is just a few miles away and she probably would be going, 'good riddance to bad rubbish'

its about that time
take the dance hall like you are step on crime
keefer teach it to them one more time
Richie Stevens and elephant this is a bad line
this is a bad line
you are look like you are blind
take the dance floor and chime the online
Now, the thing is, ofcourse, I can NOT get through to people that I REALLY can not be stopped, they keep on expecting me to be.... brought to my senses by God. I am supposing that they think that, when I said I reacted violently to God and decided that I would NEVER serve Him, I would, like jonah, be brought to a point when I look up to God and say, OK, God, I will do as You please because I am tired of being in the whale's belly.
Then none of them KNOW anything about me. I NEVER give up, and I will NEVER bow down to God, or to anyone, because

been through the worst and never we give up, 
[Solid;- you heard that!]
Always we live up
never we give up never we give up

all those times that we are survivor

and we blessed coz our God are we Provider

and when the posse them are put up a fight

we nuh give up we are survive we survivor

many men rise and many men fall
at the end of it all we will stand tall
never we back down
never we stall
man stand firm like the great china wall
big moves we  are make and we never fall
anything we do presidential

See, I was born with my back against the wall, and I will NEVER, ever quit fighting for MY identity, which means I am prepared to take one everyone and everything for what I believe in,and I do not stop or backslide for anything or anyone. I am the hardest and the toughest thing in existence, and no one and nothing can break me. So, the thing is, I find the bell tolling for me, because I am faced with going without the love of my life, and hell, that is like, well, working under the mine, mining what is not mine. i have watched all my labour just go down the drain, because she belongs to a self contained community, and that matters more to her than anything else. I mean, OK, it is crazy to assume that she will WANT to be with me, especially as I am dead set to destroy THAT entire self contained community since I am using that as a means to imprint MY intent, that I am NOT God's servant, that I will NEVER do people and service, et.c, you have heard it ad nauseum, but still, well, she would be right, would she not, toshy away from such a person? After all, everyone wants someone reasonable, right?

I will NEVER do anyone any favours. I know what I could do for people if I wanted to, but the single most important factor that people seem to NOT get is that I do NOT want to, and I will therefore NEVER let anyone or anything make me DO anything I do not want TO do, it is that simple.

You all have built yourselves a very big solid wall which you think will never be levelled, by anyone, and you hide behind it. Hell, I am good at the impossible, and I intend to level the entire thing, because I will NEVER do anything else. Unlike troy, I do not NEED a horse to do that, I will take all that apart MYSELF, the entire world, and leave nothing in it that I am not happy with, simply because I do not and will NEVER do ANYTHING because someone assumes that factors, reason or whatever will MAKE me do something, hell, NO!
the maverick does not do favours, and recognises no bosses. He pulls down high places, and leaves no stone above another. THAT is fact. You are about to see that.

I KNOW what people are expecting of me and I will NEVER do it. I will break all the rules!

There are no pacts between lions and men.
NEVER!
YEAH-SSS!
Well, I would have loved something like a week of bliss with the woman Ilove, but hell, dreams, dreams dreams.
guess I am headed for the nearest airbase to get my hands on the c-130 hercules That would be at ysterplaat, where i have just noticed there IS a hercules, yeah-ss!