You know, I have been very very unhappy at God for His handling of the entire issue of my getting to realise that I love this ONE woman and would be heartbroken to NOT have her as my love, but then, this is the thing, from HER viewpoint, as a woman I should cut her some slack because, well, she is female, and if I want to get some, I MUST dance to her tune, and overlook the things that she did that irritate me.
Only problem with that is I do NOT forget. And everytime, if I did just what she wanted, I looked at her, I would remember the fact that she played me like a fish to get me into her hooks. And i am already as unhappy as I can be that I am ... alive.
Cant stand any more pain, especially caused by a person who knows what should have been done, and done right from the beginning, but assumed me too stupid to get what I ... want.
FYI, woman, when you were going 'so what am I, a recess project' was not where you thought, or where I thought, but was the time when I decided that I would leave you and go home, so you thought that all this time I was just biding my time so I could go back to my sister.
And so, you have NO need to walk around with a wedding ring, or try to deceive me as you did. That, to me shows me, even now, that you rate my acumen below imbecilic.
I will NOT be looked down on by a liar and pretender like you.
So, you better face the facts, ask yourself, do you want to pull the strings from the background as always, without showing your hand, or do you face the music and come and meet my rage?
MY terma and conditions remain the same, I am going to kill and dismember, and torture, everyone you thought could be useful in getting me to dance to your tune, and i will spare only four people, who they are I do not give a fuck, that did not try to con me into walking the same crooked path as you did.
Any other way, and I tell you this straight because i love you, and i assure ytou that my bitterness will in time grow so great i will decide to kill you, and that I do not want.
I can NOT forget. EVER.
So, make up your mind. What will it be?
because there is NO way I will compromise for you.
And for the rest of you fools who think there is a... chance that you may get oput of this in one piece, well, get this straight, if you do NOT like any decision of MINE, you can appeal to a high authority, and that is, well... ME!
i was sort of amused this morning when I was yelling at God and telling Him how much I hated Him, and how all this is His fault, when He went something like, I have to bear my own children, like He had effectively stepped OUT of the way the moment I was ... born... so that He could lay the burden on ME, that ONLY those that I thought I could stand would at least live to die... just as dust... later.
And well, I could not escape the cold logic of that.I do NOT want ANYONE to remain alive till I set off to see 'infinity and beyond', and so, I must make sure that by that time,m because i will NOT labour so that anyone esle may bear the fruits of my labour, everyone else, who has eyes, and ears be that in heaven where the angels are or on earth, everything that exists will be either dust or cinders in hell.
So, if you look at it for that viewpoint, my very much loved woman, you can see I am being merciful. because I think your mother is one of the people that will live, since there is NO other person that can read your mind and tell you to stop fighting for better options.And is your mother means anything to you, then i THINK you better take this seriously.
Since I mean every word i say, more than you can ever know. I just told you, I KNOW what will happen, better than you, or anyone, so, do you want to put me to the test again?
I do not think the matter is whether or not you love me, you have answered me enough on that for me to be confident of my ground, because many things I may be, but I do NOT delude myself.
the issue is, will you face up to your faults with me or still think that I must bow to you?
Do not depise me again, woman, because THIS time, I will make you pay ... A LOT!
You have been warned.
Only problem with that is I do NOT forget. And everytime, if I did just what she wanted, I looked at her, I would remember the fact that she played me like a fish to get me into her hooks. And i am already as unhappy as I can be that I am ... alive.
Cant stand any more pain, especially caused by a person who knows what should have been done, and done right from the beginning, but assumed me too stupid to get what I ... want.
FYI, woman, when you were going 'so what am I, a recess project' was not where you thought, or where I thought, but was the time when I decided that I would leave you and go home, so you thought that all this time I was just biding my time so I could go back to my sister.
And so, you have NO need to walk around with a wedding ring, or try to deceive me as you did. That, to me shows me, even now, that you rate my acumen below imbecilic.
I will NOT be looked down on by a liar and pretender like you.
So, you better face the facts, ask yourself, do you want to pull the strings from the background as always, without showing your hand, or do you face the music and come and meet my rage?
MY terma and conditions remain the same, I am going to kill and dismember, and torture, everyone you thought could be useful in getting me to dance to your tune, and i will spare only four people, who they are I do not give a fuck, that did not try to con me into walking the same crooked path as you did.
Any other way, and I tell you this straight because i love you, and i assure ytou that my bitterness will in time grow so great i will decide to kill you, and that I do not want.
I can NOT forget. EVER.
So, make up your mind. What will it be?
because there is NO way I will compromise for you.
And for the rest of you fools who think there is a... chance that you may get oput of this in one piece, well, get this straight, if you do NOT like any decision of MINE, you can appeal to a high authority, and that is, well... ME!
i was sort of amused this morning when I was yelling at God and telling Him how much I hated Him, and how all this is His fault, when He went something like, I have to bear my own children, like He had effectively stepped OUT of the way the moment I was ... born... so that He could lay the burden on ME, that ONLY those that I thought I could stand would at least live to die... just as dust... later.
And well, I could not escape the cold logic of that.I do NOT want ANYONE to remain alive till I set off to see 'infinity and beyond', and so, I must make sure that by that time,m because i will NOT labour so that anyone esle may bear the fruits of my labour, everyone else, who has eyes, and ears be that in heaven where the angels are or on earth, everything that exists will be either dust or cinders in hell.
So, if you look at it for that viewpoint, my very much loved woman, you can see I am being merciful. because I think your mother is one of the people that will live, since there is NO other person that can read your mind and tell you to stop fighting for better options.And is your mother means anything to you, then i THINK you better take this seriously.
Since I mean every word i say, more than you can ever know. I just told you, I KNOW what will happen, better than you, or anyone, so, do you want to put me to the test again?
I do not think the matter is whether or not you love me, you have answered me enough on that for me to be confident of my ground, because many things I may be, but I do NOT delude myself.
the issue is, will you face up to your faults with me or still think that I must bow to you?
Do not depise me again, woman, because THIS time, I will make you pay ... A LOT!
You have been warned.
