All throughout the day I have had my eye on one person, and I have a certain grim,chilly, satisfaction that the self-confidence that she has displayed all along so far, the facade of "its-just-a-game" is finally worn through, and hell, if YOU thought that I was joking when I said that all those males you wanted to make me jealous with, wanted to dictate terms and conditions to me over, are DEAD, well, start having a real good, deep look at things, because what I neglected to mention was that, I NEVER joked about not being taken for a fool. NO.
You want something out of me, have the guts to come out in the open and state it like a grownup. Neither you, nor anyone that EXISTS can yank MY chain, to tell me what SHOULD be, because, the simple question is, WHO the fuck are YOU to tell me what to do, and where do you get the grounds to state terms to the one who WILL show you that I am capable of doing EXACTLY as I wish and NO ONE and NOTHING can say me nay?
I told you I could read you like a book, nothing about all your acts today surprised me at all, and when I say I can READ you, I mean, in another way, not as ...polite... that compared to me, you are stupid.
Never attempt to play games with the one holding all the cards, especially if you bank on a supposed weakness of the ONE being who is tougher than anything that can be thrown at him. You did not like that I said you were a secondary concern? Well, tough. I call it as it is, and to me, you are a secondary concern. I do not know where you come from, and all I have is a knowledge of God to tell me that you are a virgin, and that is ALL that keeps me from washing my hands of you, because if you are not, I do NOT want to waste my time, woman, I WOULD kill you in no time at all, because I can NOT abide being compared to anything or anyone. Which is what you were doing all this time, and for that, all those you tried to harness me into your way for, are dead.
Get used to that.
Because you are dealing, not with a boy that uses wiles, but with the HARDEST thing in existence, and YOUR lord, whether that sits well with you or not.
ONLY four of your relatives that have NOT pissed me off will live to see the coming month, and if they behave, they will not die, ... but not even THAT is in your hands. It is in MINE.
Get used to that.
You want something out of me, have the guts to come out in the open and state it like a grownup. Neither you, nor anyone that EXISTS can yank MY chain, to tell me what SHOULD be, because, the simple question is, WHO the fuck are YOU to tell me what to do, and where do you get the grounds to state terms to the one who WILL show you that I am capable of doing EXACTLY as I wish and NO ONE and NOTHING can say me nay?
I told you I could read you like a book, nothing about all your acts today surprised me at all, and when I say I can READ you, I mean, in another way, not as ...polite... that compared to me, you are stupid.
Never attempt to play games with the one holding all the cards, especially if you bank on a supposed weakness of the ONE being who is tougher than anything that can be thrown at him. You did not like that I said you were a secondary concern? Well, tough. I call it as it is, and to me, you are a secondary concern. I do not know where you come from, and all I have is a knowledge of God to tell me that you are a virgin, and that is ALL that keeps me from washing my hands of you, because if you are not, I do NOT want to waste my time, woman, I WOULD kill you in no time at all, because I can NOT abide being compared to anything or anyone. Which is what you were doing all this time, and for that, all those you tried to harness me into your way for, are dead.
Get used to that.
Because you are dealing, not with a boy that uses wiles, but with the HARDEST thing in existence, and YOUR lord, whether that sits well with you or not.
ONLY four of your relatives that have NOT pissed me off will live to see the coming month, and if they behave, they will not die, ... but not even THAT is in your hands. It is in MINE.
Get used to that.
what is done in vain
truth is hard to swallow
so you pray to God
justify the way you live a lie
live a lie.
Now, just to bring everyone up to speed, this is what happened, and well, I wonder when the silly, stupid woman and whoever it is that is fooling her into thinking that when I say that I have no 'hope' of having her as mine I actually mean I am willing to negotiate... fuck, I really would be VERY very VERY angry with God if He did not take His role as seriously as He does. Fools, you are free to do as you wish and so am I, but the difference is, I ALONE can end your lives, or, in two cases, bring the people to life again, and that is NOT, has never been, and will NEVER be, up for discussion.
What the fuck do you think I am, some weakling that can be swayed?
think God would entrust everything into hands that were ... democratic?
Well, let us see, from His perspective, how He meant it:-
Let Us make man out of Our own image and IN our likeness, and let them have dominion over the fish of the sea, and over all the fowl, and over the cattle, and over the whole earth, and over all that which creeps up on the earth
later on, He goes, "It is NOT good for the man to be ALONE, I will make him a helper suitable for him"
You are jewish, I take it, what is '-him' but a plural. Maybe you can read it to me in hebrew, IF you are not stupid to READ, that is, and in the original text tell stupid me if I am wrong to render the text, "it is not good for the "men" to be alone, I will make a helper suitable for THEM"
Now, I come to me, and I can not die, because, duh, I have Rumble, the ESSENCE of survive, and, I really can not forget what came first so that I can just jump into the future, whatever future you plan for me, you silly stupid woman, and for some rerason God said to ME, long before I even met you or as you assume, needed you, "In Him we move and breathe and have our being, and existence exists in Him, and to him who sees will go the ... CROWN"
Now, tell me again just how the fuck, does it work out that I... 'happen' to be a weakling that you can persuade to do as you please because I want... what from you?
Really?
Tell me again how God came to you- shucks I forgot, God, The Creator does NOT, as I understand it, SPEAK to women unless He is condemning them, and that was, in ALL recorded History, just twice, when He first spoke to the first woman, and also, later to sarah, asking her why she laughed at Him.
So, if He did speak to you, then I am a silly dumb fool that knows nothing about what is going on, and knows nothing about God, of course, because, well, if He is suddenly changed, then I am the most pitiful of people, because if He changes, then I should be able to ... die, right?
Now, the man, alone, not with a silly partner that thinks for some weird reason the world revolves around her, for whatever fatuous reason that may be, is the ONE with dominion, and I do NOT ask for you co-operation, I do not evn DEMAND that you obey me, I just put the full stop on whatever you do, and as I stand, no matter what you may do, aslong as it is NOT what I want, then, you have a finite time to actually get through to me, before I decide to pack up, and leave.
You are pathetic, woman, and after all this time, you still can NOT learn the basic truth?
You are really, really, a waste of time.
Anyway, the predictable happened. I was almost at the corner where one starts to see the blasted building, whish FYI I am going to level, sorry kenneth, I wanted to leave something of it standing but everytime I get so pissed off by stupid fools that think they know better than me how to do me that I really, really do not see me leaving any edifice that even reminds me of that, or the people that did that, alive ( by the way, despite him being an odd- person, i will spare kenneth for the simple reason that he was not really one of those that tried to... correct me. At first I offended him and he sent the obnoxious guard to tell me off, and then later he was on guard to restrain me, He did not, like them fools, try to tell me the way to go, and if you must KNOW, that is 100% the reason why I am killing them fools, and their entire families, too. hell, I never said I liked fans.) so, well, that will have to go. All of it, and a sizeable chunk of the rest of the neighbourhood as well. I am really laying waste to all the 'glory' of mike, and leving nothing that he has touched standing, and as for the woman, not a single one of her relations will have a place to stay, even if they remain alive, just so that she knows that NO ONE dares tell me waht to do and expect that I have favourites. I do not bow down to anyone, nor do i have any respect for anyone. if God, the Creator of everything, is One that I call names and curse, and do not revere, all the time knowing full well just Who He is and what He is capable of, then who the fuck is a silly person that can not keep the breath in his own nostrils, or a woman governed by her periods, and moodswings, to tell ME, the unrelenting, hard, ROCK, what to do?
Who the fuck is anyone that I should pay attention to him or her?
For what reason?
nobody is ... special... to me.You live, or die, based on how I have deemed you to have merit on that, not because you think you have a defender to plead your cause.
For no one will the standard be lifted.
Everyone, regardless of who, will have to meet MY specifications, or die.
Fight me in that, and see just how unrelenting I REALLY can be.
It is not a ... normal... thing to think of killing people.
Neither is it ... usual... to think of and plan the deaths of millions of people without turning a hair.
but I am planning the deaths of ... billions... of you all.
so that a handful will survive.
now, who the fuck will stand before me and tell me how that should be, or how inhumane that is, or how wrong?
Want to debate morals with me?
And you will stand on ... what?
Plead with me for ...the human race?
bunch of parasitic nuisances, and blind fools!
there should NOT be a race, to begin with, and so, NONE of you have any rights, and also, because all of you are in the same rat race, live, breed, and die, then you all deserve to die, and sparing those i spare is because i have an ego, and i just love a captive audience. Especially if I can kill them at will.
So, I will go to the US,and take it over, and i will spread my wings to cover the whole earth, and bring ALL of it into subjugation.
But, I will NOT kill the jews, not all of them.
Only those that have made me mad.
Why?
because God spared my sister, and, well, I can not forget that the person most important to me was kept alive because God saw through all my rage and anguish and decided that He would soothe the one great wound I really have had. My helplessness to do a good turn to the one I feel for.And remember.
Also because, well, I do happen to ... care... for this woman and she did sort of show her hand when it came to her people,and anyway, how can I be the ...'lord' of david if I do not rule over any of his descendants.
neither will I flood the land.
I am thinking that the holy spirit is just about to get the rudest awakening of his entire life, from a mere... boy... as they consider my 31-year-old self to be.
I mean, should I display my pubic hairs, or rape a woman to show that i am a grown male?
Fuck that!
Fools, the Lord of War is here, YEAH-SSS!
What the fuck do you think I am, some weakling that can be swayed?
think God would entrust everything into hands that were ... democratic?
Well, let us see, from His perspective, how He meant it:-
Let Us make man out of Our own image and IN our likeness, and let them have dominion over the fish of the sea, and over all the fowl, and over the cattle, and over the whole earth, and over all that which creeps up on the earth
later on, He goes, "It is NOT good for the man to be ALONE, I will make him a helper suitable for him"
You are jewish, I take it, what is '-him' but a plural. Maybe you can read it to me in hebrew, IF you are not stupid to READ, that is, and in the original text tell stupid me if I am wrong to render the text, "it is not good for the "men" to be alone, I will make a helper suitable for THEM"
Now, I come to me, and I can not die, because, duh, I have Rumble, the ESSENCE of survive, and, I really can not forget what came first so that I can just jump into the future, whatever future you plan for me, you silly stupid woman, and for some rerason God said to ME, long before I even met you or as you assume, needed you, "In Him we move and breathe and have our being, and existence exists in Him, and to him who sees will go the ... CROWN"
Now, tell me again just how the fuck, does it work out that I... 'happen' to be a weakling that you can persuade to do as you please because I want... what from you?
Really?
Tell me again how God came to you- shucks I forgot, God, The Creator does NOT, as I understand it, SPEAK to women unless He is condemning them, and that was, in ALL recorded History, just twice, when He first spoke to the first woman, and also, later to sarah, asking her why she laughed at Him.
So, if He did speak to you, then I am a silly dumb fool that knows nothing about what is going on, and knows nothing about God, of course, because, well, if He is suddenly changed, then I am the most pitiful of people, because if He changes, then I should be able to ... die, right?
Now, the man, alone, not with a silly partner that thinks for some weird reason the world revolves around her, for whatever fatuous reason that may be, is the ONE with dominion, and I do NOT ask for you co-operation, I do not evn DEMAND that you obey me, I just put the full stop on whatever you do, and as I stand, no matter what you may do, aslong as it is NOT what I want, then, you have a finite time to actually get through to me, before I decide to pack up, and leave.
You are pathetic, woman, and after all this time, you still can NOT learn the basic truth?
You are really, really, a waste of time.
Think you can HANDLE me the way I are?
baby all I know-ho-ho
you are the type of girl I wanna show-ho-ho
show what type of man I am and how I roll-ho
...
and I aint got to drive a [merc] to be
the type of man that buy your wedding ring
I aint got no money
I aint got no money
I aint got a car to take you on a date
I cant even buy you flowers...
I take it that those things are what are important to you, right?
That whenever it comes to thinking, in your limited, here-and-now brain, it does NOT come to mind that all that, all these things, that you see NOW, are about to go down the drain, and everything that you thought would stand forever will vanish, drastically, in the twinkling of an eye, as I, not a fluke, but ME, at MY command, destroy them?
because I have decided that MY time is ripe.
That whenever it comes to thinking, in your limited, here-and-now brain, it does NOT come to mind that all that, all these things, that you see NOW, are about to go down the drain, and everything that you thought would stand forever will vanish, drastically, in the twinkling of an eye, as I, not a fluke, but ME, at MY command, destroy them?
because I have decided that MY time is ripe.
And you want to put your silly... pride... before me, like I should NOT discipline you, like I should retrain my anger from you, when you do what displeases me? Like I should suffer in silence because I love you and so, I should try to preserve peace because otherwise you would not understand why, if I love you, I am still thrashing you?
I have NO respect for fools, and I do NOT suffer idiots before me, and I am NOT democratic; you want to get on my good side, then STOP treating me like some love-sick pussy-desperate fool, because trust me, woman, NOTHING can get a handle on me, and force me to change.
I have NO respect for fools, and I do NOT suffer idiots before me, and I am NOT democratic; you want to get on my good side, then STOP treating me like some love-sick pussy-desperate fool, because trust me, woman, NOTHING can get a handle on me, and force me to change.
I do exactly as I please, and if MY way does not sit well with you, then, by God, get out of it.
And for fuck's sake drop the stupid black, and wear decent clothing. You are white, which means by nature you are NOT depressed. Do NOT depress me by that ghoulish clothing.
And for fuck's sake drop the stupid black, and wear decent clothing. You are white, which means by nature you are NOT depressed. Do NOT depress me by that ghoulish clothing.
**********
GRRRRRRR!
Who the fuck is anyone that I should pay attention to him or her?
For what reason?
nobody is ... special... to me.You live, or die, based on how I have deemed you to have merit on that, not because you think you have a defender to plead your cause.
For no one will the standard be lifted.
Everyone, regardless of who, will have to meet MY specifications, or die.
Fight me in that, and see just how unrelenting I REALLY can be.
It is not a ... normal... thing to think of killing people.
Neither is it ... usual... to think of and plan the deaths of millions of people without turning a hair.
but I am planning the deaths of ... billions... of you all.
so that a handful will survive.
now, who the fuck will stand before me and tell me how that should be, or how inhumane that is, or how wrong?
Want to debate morals with me?
And you will stand on ... what?
Plead with me for ...the human race?
bunch of parasitic nuisances, and blind fools!
there should NOT be a race, to begin with, and so, NONE of you have any rights, and also, because all of you are in the same rat race, live, breed, and die, then you all deserve to die, and sparing those i spare is because i have an ego, and i just love a captive audience. Especially if I can kill them at will.
So, I will go to the US,and take it over, and i will spread my wings to cover the whole earth, and bring ALL of it into subjugation.
But, I will NOT kill the jews, not all of them.
Only those that have made me mad.
Why?
because God spared my sister, and, well, I can not forget that the person most important to me was kept alive because God saw through all my rage and anguish and decided that He would soothe the one great wound I really have had. My helplessness to do a good turn to the one I feel for.And remember.
Also because, well, I do happen to ... care... for this woman and she did sort of show her hand when it came to her people,and anyway, how can I be the ...'lord' of david if I do not rule over any of his descendants.
neither will I flood the land.
I am thinking that the holy spirit is just about to get the rudest awakening of his entire life, from a mere... boy... as they consider my 31-year-old self to be.
I mean, should I display my pubic hairs, or rape a woman to show that i am a grown male?
Fuck that!
Fools, the Lord of War is here, YEAH-SSS!
*******
Anyway, I saw the cunt of a rasta on a scooter as I walked, as i said, and I was like, hell, here we go again.
true enough, I was helping abisha display stuff when out comes the woman I love, in that hideous black, in, probably, for her, a new car, a toyota something, one of those hatchbacks, maybe an avanza, in some dull brown, and she was standing there, with some guy who came out of a prado just parked in front of her, and they were like, showing it off, like i am supposed to go, wow,. they can change cars like that, maybe I should play my cards right and join the crowd.
Like all this was ever about money, like I can LET anyone LOOK after me.
true enough, I was helping abisha display stuff when out comes the woman I love, in that hideous black, in, probably, for her, a new car, a toyota something, one of those hatchbacks, maybe an avanza, in some dull brown, and she was standing there, with some guy who came out of a prado just parked in front of her, and they were like, showing it off, like i am supposed to go, wow,. they can change cars like that, maybe I should play my cards right and join the crowd.
Like all this was ever about money, like I can LET anyone LOOK after me.
NO ONE tells me what to do, which MEANS no one sets boundaries on me, which means NO ONE looks after me.
I ahve a plan that your pathetic minds can not even begin to grasp, and I will let it out how i want, and on MY terms, not yours, so never assume that I will actually be swayed by anyone, fools.
And besides, I had my eye, from the beginning, even way beck when I was on facebook, on a lamborghini countach, and I am not sure that there are any easily accessible in south africa, well, at least, since mike and whoever have shown me their stuff, I am off those cars. No, I will choose what i want, when I see it.
And not as a gift from anyone
So, I watched as she, in glasses and the hideous black, but without the legs showing, nuh, she couldnot resist having the front of her dress pulled up so that the inside of her thighs showed, but then, she is kinda... white... and they are known for being sottish and sluttish, and have no shame whatsoever, so, of course she can not understand what I could possibly mean by ... decency. She seems to assume that if she dresses decently she is not going to be attractive, when in effect she would gain some more polish from her tarnished ... self. I really hate a person who tries to giove me option 'b' when she has no grounds to even have a voice.
if she had done me some good turn, then maybe I could have heard her, but she came, from nowhere and decided that she had to have a say in what I did, and show me the ropes. How... STUPID... does one have to be to be so... STUPID. And stupid means someone who is so insensitive that she does not even feel it if the fire singes her, nor can she even smell the fumes, like she is mentally a leper.
Anyway, I watched, and then the guy, after some uncomfortable closeness that had me going, OK, God,TODAY I start killing people, and hell with what happens next, she got into the car, and then drove to where the other asshole that I am also going to kill was parked.
And then she drove to the spot, and I turned my back on her, but that was after the other stupid cunt of a rasta drove past and they greeted each other.
Another... lesson, to be taught the ... maverick.
Another fool dies.
For presumption.
Then, of course, I started laughing or some such thing, and well, thereafter, ms-you-can-not-live-without-me stopped being so confident, because at one time she drove away when I did not even acknowledge her, and then I saw butthead ii, and ms short and dumpy come past, and all of them seemed also at a loose end, and then she herself came back again, and waited till I could see her to come and walk into the bakery, and I was looking at her as she walked past, and I kid you not, woman was scared, and not so sure of herself. Vinnie was laughing with me and his daughter and shirley about the smell coming from the rubbish van , and she turned to look back at him, and i knew she was lost. I stared at her, and thought to myself, you have had no idea, right just what you were getting yourself into when you decided to beard the lion in his den. I felt pity for her, then, but I will NOT change my mind. She made me mad, and for that she bears the punishment.
"remember, no one is ever, ever, allowed to temper with the hoko"
DONT push me, unless you can bear the punishment.
I later saw her seated with mike, at la parada, and I walked past singing a strain of the song by kevin rudolph "what is done in vain truth is hard to swallow...", and then came back to find her and also goatface in a crew. It was the look in her eyes as I looked at her in passing that showed me that the woman had lost all the high ground she thought she had over me. Like I told her over and over again, but she would not listen, because i need to be ... taught. Me, the most intelligent person in existence.
hell, what a ... lesson.
Woman, your 'friends' are dead, and well, I am ...thinking... about all you have done today, and really, frankly, I also THINK you are dead as well.
I am rating you with rubbish, you know, that useless thing that you can not use, for anything?
And as I see things, I actually, really do NOT want you in my life.
I think, and I am certain, that I am so bitter with you that i would overcome my normal restraint where you are concerned and kill you.
You have readlly, today, DISGUSTED me,and I am sure that you have ... seen that for yourself, and not thought that Iwould show it only when I am online.
Really, you have disgusted me, and I am quite happy to spend the rest of my life, celibate, and make, instead of the demolition of that colt bakkie of the gallery woman, your death the FIRST act of my... departure.
And besides, I had my eye, from the beginning, even way beck when I was on facebook, on a lamborghini countach, and I am not sure that there are any easily accessible in south africa, well, at least, since mike and whoever have shown me their stuff, I am off those cars. No, I will choose what i want, when I see it.
And not as a gift from anyone
So, I watched as she, in glasses and the hideous black, but without the legs showing, nuh, she couldnot resist having the front of her dress pulled up so that the inside of her thighs showed, but then, she is kinda... white... and they are known for being sottish and sluttish, and have no shame whatsoever, so, of course she can not understand what I could possibly mean by ... decency. She seems to assume that if she dresses decently she is not going to be attractive, when in effect she would gain some more polish from her tarnished ... self. I really hate a person who tries to giove me option 'b' when she has no grounds to even have a voice.
if she had done me some good turn, then maybe I could have heard her, but she came, from nowhere and decided that she had to have a say in what I did, and show me the ropes. How... STUPID... does one have to be to be so... STUPID. And stupid means someone who is so insensitive that she does not even feel it if the fire singes her, nor can she even smell the fumes, like she is mentally a leper.
Anyway, I watched, and then the guy, after some uncomfortable closeness that had me going, OK, God,TODAY I start killing people, and hell with what happens next, she got into the car, and then drove to where the other asshole that I am also going to kill was parked.
And then she drove to the spot, and I turned my back on her, but that was after the other stupid cunt of a rasta drove past and they greeted each other.
Another... lesson, to be taught the ... maverick.
Another fool dies.
For presumption.
Then, of course, I started laughing or some such thing, and well, thereafter, ms-you-can-not-live-without-me stopped being so confident, because at one time she drove away when I did not even acknowledge her, and then I saw butthead ii, and ms short and dumpy come past, and all of them seemed also at a loose end, and then she herself came back again, and waited till I could see her to come and walk into the bakery, and I was looking at her as she walked past, and I kid you not, woman was scared, and not so sure of herself. Vinnie was laughing with me and his daughter and shirley about the smell coming from the rubbish van , and she turned to look back at him, and i knew she was lost. I stared at her, and thought to myself, you have had no idea, right just what you were getting yourself into when you decided to beard the lion in his den. I felt pity for her, then, but I will NOT change my mind. She made me mad, and for that she bears the punishment.
"remember, no one is ever, ever, allowed to temper with the hoko"
DONT push me, unless you can bear the punishment.
I later saw her seated with mike, at la parada, and I walked past singing a strain of the song by kevin rudolph "what is done in vain truth is hard to swallow...", and then came back to find her and also goatface in a crew. It was the look in her eyes as I looked at her in passing that showed me that the woman had lost all the high ground she thought she had over me. Like I told her over and over again, but she would not listen, because i need to be ... taught. Me, the most intelligent person in existence.
hell, what a ... lesson.
Woman, your 'friends' are dead, and well, I am ...thinking... about all you have done today, and really, frankly, I also THINK you are dead as well.
I am rating you with rubbish, you know, that useless thing that you can not use, for anything?
And as I see things, I actually, really do NOT want you in my life.
I think, and I am certain, that I am so bitter with you that i would overcome my normal restraint where you are concerned and kill you.
You have readlly, today, DISGUSTED me,and I am sure that you have ... seen that for yourself, and not thought that Iwould show it only when I am online.
Really, you have disgusted me, and I am quite happy to spend the rest of my life, celibate, and make, instead of the demolition of that colt bakkie of the gallery woman, your death the FIRST act of my... departure.
